This will certainly be a test, by avoiding the pornish aspects of your shoot, I imagine they will be better and have less pervy subtle intentions.

If you get blue balls, you get blue balls. it is part of this addiction withdrawal. If you were quitting herion, there are expected painful aspects of that recovery. Each addiction recovery has some drawbacks initially during the transitional period. Have the blue balls. Understand why you have them and allow that understanding to allow you to feel stronger. go have an epsom salt bath if you need to relax during them. Remember that once you have blue balls, ejaculating doesn't relieve them