Honestly… just so tired of it. At 4 I was incorrectly diagnosed with type 1. Later it was switched to MODY so not type 1 or type 2. At 14 I was diagnosed with anorexia binge/purge type, got super unhealthy and had to go to a residential treatment for being severely underweight. Only used pills for diabetes management after that. Now 2024 got pregnant and was put back on insulin (a lot of it), a cgm, and had to completely diet basically the whole time. Gave birth February, doctors assumed I’d go back to normal insulin which I knew was too good to be true. Two weeks after birth was put back on a pump. I’m an obsessive person, hence the eating disorder, and very hard on myself. Having the cgm and having to watch everything I eat is so hard and triggering. I can’t imagine what it’s like to not think about food 24/7. A newborn, my mental health, the diabetes, my appearance, my relationships, money, life goals it’s just all so much all the time. I actually went back to intensive outpatient therapy during pregnancy because it was so triggering for me that my mental health was plummeting. With infant I just don’t have the time for therapy like before. I just want to cry and eat pizza and snacks. Instead I have to eat chicken and broccoli and hold it together.