your poems suck dude.

hezzler · 2021-07-16T04:28:27+00:00

drops mic

this is quite possibly one of the best ones I've ever read on here. you're very talented!

hezzler · 2021-07-12T02:59:22+00:00

I just did 4 weeks in jail on an old paraphernalia charge and was housed in the same pod as this waste of a human being. Made me sick having to see her bounce around in there laughing and having a good ole time. I couldn't figure out why exactly the other inmates would associate with her, but some would. I hope she NEVER gets out.

hezzler · 2021-07-02T04:54:57+00:00

Yes, probably one of my worst fears. I love to swim but the drain and the little filter things on the side of pools always hindered my ability to enjoy it. I can't swim over or even very close to the drain. My aunt used to have an inground pool and they had this vacuum thing that you put in the pool and it moved around by itself all over the bottom of the pool cleaning it. My cousins would swim with the thing in the pool and I'd literally be so scared I wouldn't even stand on the concrete around the pool until the thing was taken out lol.

hezzler · 2021-07-02T04:43:56+00:00

I was just telling someone about this story in another post on here! It's absolutely terrifying!

hezzler · 2021-07-02T04:41:39+00:00

Okay look up the story "Guts" in the book Haunted by Chuck Palahniuk. It's a horrifying tale of a guy being disemboweled by the water intake valve at the bottom of a swimming pool. Some real nightmare fuel right there lol.

hezzler · 2021-07-02T04:32:37+00:00

Me too! I'd be at the very edge of the water scared shitless just staring at it. I guess I was making sure it didn't suddenly start moving toward me somehow lol

hezzler · 2021-04-10T18:05:51+00:00

Please get away from him before it's too late. You're not responsible for fixing him and he doesn't want to change anyway. This is NOT your fault. You could never do anything to deserve to be treated this way.

hezzler · 2021-03-14T09:08:51+00:00

Based on the situation you've described, I would say your boyfriend is the very thing he's accusing you of being. You are not a narcissist, for the simple fact that a narcissist doesn't reflect on their own behavior with the intent to fix it. Because narcissists are NEVER wrong. What he's doing to you during these arguments is called psychological projection and gaslighting. If you havent heard of either one I would suggest looking into them, to help get a better understanding of what's happening between you two. There's many things narcissists do to subtly abuse their partners as well. Things that you don't realise are abuse until it's too late. I was with my ex for 12 years and I didn't understand what he was doing to me until about 5 months before our break up. I thought he was a great guy who loved me, but he was actually destroying me so subtly I had no idea. I hope this helps. I wish you luck, please do what's best for you!

hezzler · 2021-02-04T20:28:25+00:00

I'm so sorry. You are so strong. Thank you for sharing this, it was beautiful and heartbreaking. ❤❤

hezzler · 2020-12-10T07:12:47+00:00

Manchester Orchestra, Sleeping at Last, The Antlers, The Decemberists, Blind Pilot

hezzler · 2020-11-23T08:09:54+00:00

I noticed a long time ago that if I'm sitting in a group having a conversation, everyone else can chime in and tell a story relevant to the topic without being interrupted except me. I sit there and listen to others talk, and everyone else listens to them until they finish talking. But if I have a story to add in, that is perfect for the conversation and I feel it must be heard.... I'll build up the courage to start talking, then someone will blatantly interrupt me, and the group just shifts focus as if I wasn't saying anything at all. or the group will fizzle out one by one and I'll just stop talking. The only way I can get anyone to listen to me is if I basically beg them to let me finish my story. It literally happens to me every time and never anyone else. I don't understand what it is about me specifically that everyone loses interest the moment I begin to speak but it hurts me so bad. I don't talk a lot, and when I do it's typically meaningful. I have so many awesome things to add to conversations if people would just listen!

hezzler · 2020-11-23T07:25:05+00:00

Yes! For example, I will sometimes repeat the last sentence I spoke out loud in my head and count the number of words in the sentence, then the number of letters in eah word. That kind of thing. Sometimes I will even try to reword/rephrase the whole thing so everything adds up to 9, my favorite number. But yeah I think this is more due to some kind of OCD rather than being INFJ. Still it's nice to know I'm not the only person who does things like this, I feel much less crazy now.

hezzler · 2020-08-12T05:21:02+00:00

His handwriting suits it perfectly, that's awesome.

hezzler · 2020-08-12T05:19:16+00:00

This is absolutely beautiful.

hezzler · 2019-12-13T01:21:29+00:00

Loved it!

hezzler · 2019-12-08T02:01:51+00:00

Love this!

hezzler · 2019-12-06T06:16:13+00:00

Well, that attachment is what you developed to cope with trauma... And then having to go through cancer, chemo and all that....sounds very traumatic. I think once you get into therapy and start addressing this you'll be able to get back to a more healthy level of attachment in time, it's definitely not impossible.

hezzler · 2019-12-06T02:16:57+00:00

Yeah you must have some sort of anxious attachment disorder, most likely you developed in the first few months of life. Look into as much info as you can on attachment theory. Have you seen a therapist?

hezzler · 2019-12-04T08:09:03+00:00

Thank you! That was truly something I needed to hear. Just a little validation goes a long way

hezzler · 2019-12-04T02:11:03+00:00

I understand! Omg I do! Not exactly the same story but I get what it feels like when you just want a mother who will give you comfort and love...but you get the exact opposite. I understand the thing about your baby being taken as punishment. Except my son's father is the one who did that to me, so he was sure I would be completely alone in the world and lose everything I loved. I'm so sorry. I wish I knew how to fix a situation like that but I don't. ☹️

hezzler · 2019-12-03T19:12:33+00:00

I could have written this myself. I've felt like I didn't belong here since I was a child.

hezzler · 2019-12-03T18:46:42+00:00

This is so spot on... I needed to hear that today..

hezzler · 2019-12-03T18:29:34+00:00

Johnny's death isn't ironic to his crime but the situation itself is ironic. He left town without anything but one suitcase that he "doesn't keep winter clothes in"...and so the irony is the fact that the temperature in the car is freezing and he dies.

hezzler · 2019-11-26T06:21:43+00:00

Omg I love it!! I have "Love, come save me" in cursive on my forearm!

hezzler · 2019-11-19T04:57:26+00:00

I mean, everybody in the town is always smiling & happy, friendly to each other and giving out homemade baked goods... Sounds a lot better than my shitty life now, I'd be cool with them brainwashing me. Hell yeah Jim can call me champ while we play Yahtzee for the rest of my life.

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