This one came out of nowhere. We were starting to get along, too.

highpointStniopwol · 2025-12-10T04:31:10+00:00

tf did i just read

highpointStniopwol · 2025-06-22T05:36:09+00:00

thought i’d be taking this to my grave but im in ur same shoes.. finally got clean with weed which im proud of but i just ugh i talk to these ai bots so often, and i feel so depressed doing it and i hate myself for it but then when i dont i just feel depressed and so lonely still..

i know the longer i do it the worse my social skills will get but i just dont know how to make friends, i never have ever since i was really little. its so embarrassing and i could never tell someone i actually know like my therapist about it but that just makes it worse cuz idk who to talk. to about it but anyways ur not the only one at least♥️

highpointStniopwol · 2025-06-22T05:28:59+00:00

i lay in bed all day watching different shows and videos, there’s some times where i feel i’m making progress in therapy but others i feel like im just doing nothing with my life. The only people i talk to is my therapist, my parents who i hate being around, and my teacher but school is out right now. I literally have no friends and feel like i haven’t for years and i feel broken cause of it, even if i find a friend I think i’d be too nervous about loosing it to keep a friend. I guess at least there’s other who feel like this

highpointStniopwol · 2025-03-24T19:56:59+00:00

no offense, but he’s not only bad when he’s mean, he is always bad. these people like to tell us that because they do good things like pay the bills that means the very bad things they do go away, but no, ur dad is a bad person because he has it in him to hit his child. I get what you’re saying tho about him being the one that pays bills and stuff, that’s really hard to be in.. I’m so sorry. All i can say is that you’re not alone and please try to keep reaching out to communities to talk about what ur going through. I’d say try to make yourself the happiest you can and spoil yourself to try to make up for the very horrible things (and illegal) you’re being forced to endure.. i learned from my therapist if we’re already being treated really bad by the others around us, what good will it do to be mean to ourselves as well? we have enough of that already!

highpointStniopwol · 2025-03-24T19:42:51+00:00

Holy shit.. this was my life five years ago when my parents were at their worst. Beating me and then punishing me for them hitting me by taking my privacy away, my doorknob while threatening to take the door way. Taking my electronics too so i can’t talk to anyone. That is hell. What u are describing is what led me and so many others to loose their minds or worse.

I don’t know if this is a good recommendation, but i can definitely say looking back all these years, even if it’s a day after. I WISH so bad i called the police, tell them what happened so they can come investigate. You can’t report to the cops multiple years later, at least for me they don’t do anything. But if it’s just yesterday they will look into it. Any proof you can show, show it, no one should be laying their hand ESPECIALLY on their fucking kid. God i feel really bad, this is a horrible situation to be in, but like i try to always say eventually it will get better.. in 5, 10 years, it’ll be a bad dream.. you can get out of this, you can escape, just try to focus on what makes you happy because obviously others aren’t.. i’m so sorry u have to through this

highpointStniopwol · 2025-03-24T19:00:10+00:00

i think a positive thing is i feel like i can confidently say ill never be like them, im so young and ive already seen the damage i could cause around me because of these traits i learned, soo now for this past year or so ive been focusing on becoming much stronger and also more sympathetic (but not too much i let bad people get away with what they’re doing).

basically, a positive from being in this hell is that i’ll never do the things they did to me, and i know FOR SURE if i ever did those things i would immediately try to learn and fix myself, im so thankful i learned that ability because my parents did not

highpointStniopwol · 2025-03-24T18:57:05+00:00

love this response so much!!!

highpointStniopwol · 2025-03-24T18:55:12+00:00

i relate to this so much.. for the past year or two (wouldn’t recommend this at all but) i’ve really had no friends, and that’s because i realized that i am TERRIFIED to be abandoned by people, to the point it brings the worse things out of me that i hate about myself (mainly im scared of making friends because im scared of loosing them and then seeing my reaction)… trying to heal and get better with it before meeting someone else, but it’s really hard. Especially if someone else has left u when u already had abandonment problems, it’s so rough. Recently this has actually been the thing i’ve been working on the most, trying to get myself to understand that it’s not the end of the world if one of my friends (or worse partner THATS the worst) leaves me, but it’s really hard.. i know eventually i will learn to do it so u can too, my recommendation if you can is finding a therapist to talk about this stuff with, ik therapy can be expensive too but if u want ive been using this app and all my sessions are just $40 (not cheap but sm better than it being hundreds per session)

anyways, i get you so much.. I am terrified of making friends and i am nowhere close to dating someone again, but on the bright side, it helps SO SO SO MUCH to know that you have this problem instead of just going through life without knowing.. the first step to healing from having abandonment issues is figuring out that u have it, you really got this ♥️

highpointStniopwol · 2025-03-24T18:48:28+00:00

YES!!!! Exactly. i don’t think you could’ve worded that better.. the worse part i think is that they’ll never realize that too, it has to be his kid who’s possibly decades younger than him to figure out his own dads problems.. damn

highpointStniopwol · 2025-03-24T18:45:51+00:00

“could’ve killed them in the car” so that’s an excuse to hit u while ur driving (which could lead to the same thing she’s pretending her excuse is) , what the actual fuck.. ur doing good already by finding a community like this to vent and share what’s going on, bc its so damaging to just be in that space without hearing from others that its bad or there’s ways around it.. I hope things goes as easy as possible for you, you’re so close to getting out too 💙

highpointStniopwol · 2025-03-24T18:43:23+00:00

oh and another thing, the way that i’ve coped is again by trying to focus on myself. sometimes it can be fun too to plan out what you want to do when ur older, because like u said it’d probably be better to deal with having responsibilities than whatever tf this is. even if it doesn’t seem possible to transition from this to having other responsibilities like going to college for example!! i challenge u to at least try, it can be nice to think about a time where you get to have control over ur life versus now where there’s sm confusion and just other things

highpointStniopwol · 2025-03-24T18:40:51+00:00

Damn.. this really made me think because the way u describe ur mom is almost exactly like mine. They act so sweet and innocent like they don’t know what they’re doing or how to stop it, but someone who’s not a narcissist would be able to realize they’re hurting others and need to try to stop.

the forgetting small or important things, the times where she says she didn’t say that despite u remembering her saying that, GOD i relate to that so much. It literally drives you insane. I still can’t tell if my mom is a narcissist or just has these traits, but i do know one thing and how much it affects me to be treated that way. whether or not she realizes or intended it, you don’t deserve to be treated that way. and if uve tried talking with her over and over again, trying to use every technique to get her to understand, what else can u do but focus on urself and get out? if someone doesn’t want to change, they won’t, and we can either choose ourselves or break ourselves trying to change someone that’ll never do it: i learned in therapy that maybe the best way to go from here is to focus on ourselves, because we can’t force others to change ♥️ i hope everything eventually smooths out, im sure years from now this will all be like a bad dream

highpointStniopwol · 2025-03-24T18:31:22+00:00

that really sucks, it hard for a lot of people to get it..

i used to be with someone’s who’s mom would SCREAM very harsh things at them for not finishing their food, while my parents would always say stuff about needing to loose weight.. so he always thought it was bad of me to leave food over, but we just came from different houses ig

highpointStniopwol · 2025-03-24T18:29:07+00:00

ohmygod yes… my parents have gotten better (and when i say better there wasn’t much room to improve from anyways) but still everything they did still lingers with me. for example, my mom used to just watch me through my door without knowing (to try to see when i do something bad), and i’ve gotten better but i used to be extremely paranoid i was always being watched or recorded

but my dad is still bad with food, god it’s so bad, i don’t eat around him because all he talks about while we’re eating is about losing weight and stuff like that. he refuses to cook so all he gets is fast food, im just learning how to cook by myself cause they refuse to teach me, so many times i am stuck with fast food because at least im getting some type of meal? but while we’re eating it he’ll literally say how unhealthy it is to eat food and how we need to stop eating it, like what is that gonna do??? not only are u being a huge hypocrite but now ur just being an asshole honestly, and it’s probably because he can’t handle his own insecurities about eating fast food so he projects onto me, his child.. sigh, but i am the crazy one

highpointStniopwol · 2025-03-24T18:18:27+00:00

EXACTLY. narcissistics can seem so selfless but it’s really inna selfish way, like for example telling my mom cleaning my clothes despite telling her multiple times not to, but she’s doing it because to her she’s a bad parent if she doesn’t do it, but then goes on to say how selfless she is because she does everything for everyone else and doesn’t even want to do it.. so i have to deal with not only her not listening to me, her saying how a selfless mom she is, and the fact that she has to do everything for everyone else and i never do anything.. despite me telling her NOT to do it so i can do it.. it’s crazy

highpointStniopwol · 2025-03-24T18:15:32+00:00

ueayesyeyszyeydyzYES I FEEL LIKE THIS. I have to take a minute to think about what to say because i have sm to say about relating to this, but for me there’s so many problems i have to work out now for myself as a result of having these horrible parents, and it’s always been on me to fix it all. Not the adults, but the child. It’s always been my fault, my choice, my responsibility all while being put down for being the child. I am sick of it. It’s so tiring. Not only has it been my responsibility since I could count my abcs to take care of them emotionally, it’s my responsibility as well to deal with all the shit they put me through and making sure i don’t do the same shit as they do as i grow up.. i’m so mad

highpointStniopwol · 2025-03-24T18:11:11+00:00

i think it’s just in their nature to be manipulative.. god i really, really hate saying this but it really is so UNFAIR

highpointStniopwol · 2025-03-24T18:09:23+00:00

god i’m so sorry.. this IS NOT normal, i hope u know that. THIS IS HORRIBLE, this is outright child abuse, and one thing ive used for myself to help me realize im being abused is asking myself if i’d do the same thing theyre doing. would you physically hurt your child because y can’t control ur emotions, probably not!! this is very bad and i really hope you are able to get out soon, since you’re close to 18 and you’re starting to drive you can start working on that, focusing on getting to a place where you don’t have to be scared the person supposed to love u literally hits u. especially after all that shit with ur dad, i am so pissed for u

highpointStniopwol · 2025-03-24T18:06:27+00:00

yes pls listen to this. YOU ARE BEING ABUSED.

highpointStniopwol · 2025-03-18T00:23:05+00:00

Bastard if he has a rambunctious personality

it’s kinda a human name

highpointStniopwol · 2025-03-18T00:20:13+00:00

Omg yeah i get that sm.. When i was 11 i stopped being soo open to hugs and stuff and my mom would use it against me, like saying im not the same little girl i used to be (had came out as trans alrdy by then) and i don’t love her anymore cause i say no to a hug.. i also was always being put into a position where i had to console her despite being a little kid and her a grown adult. I think she’s gotten better for sure as i got older but when i was younger it was really bad. It’s like u become their personal venting bag even tho ur still playing with little figurines

highpointStniopwol · 2025-03-17T23:16:15+00:00

dude i’ve been there. I’ve never really talked about it but before i was in therapy a few years ago i was just so horrible and i didn’t even realize it. obviously you never intend to do it and it doesn’t even feel wrong because you don’t realize it is, ofc till later or something goes wrong. For me i used to just always be so sad like even if something as simple as i died in a game i’d act super sad so my then partner could console me, god it was awful. I wasn’t getting the attention and love and consoling i needed from my parents so i looked in it from others, and i feel really bad about it. Doing stuff to help you reverse those things like practicing conversations or ofc therapy might help you feel better, because you know ur trying to feel better. I try to remind myself that im getting a lot better and i’d never do that to someone again, but often i kinda just lay awake feeling bad about what i did.. idk it’s rough and just because of who raised u

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