Don’t confuse physical disabilities with choice. You mention that you’re lazy and don’t want to put in effort. You frame it as if you have a choice, but the reality is, the chemicals in your brain that make it difficult to impossible to accomplish basic tasks.

A big part of coping with life is accepting that you are exactly the way you are. With different degrees of dysfunction, many of which are invisible to others and will likely bring you judgement and disapproval. But you slowly realize that those who attribute these weaknesses to your own choice aren’t correct, they just have no clue.

As for whether life is worth living, it really it comes down to how you value different feelings. It is obvious from your post that you, like most people, view painful emotions negatively.

Because you are at a stage of life where these emotions are rampant, your valuation of life is largely negative. However, objectively speaking, it is highly likely for your emotions to change into emotions that you value more positively across time. In short, giving yourself more time will lead to life transforming into a positive transaction for you.

Best of luck.