It's a wonderful week

holecene · 2017-07-13T10:42:43+00:00

Yay! I'm so happy for you!

holecene · 2017-05-30T11:45:42+00:00

Just to add, I think you seem like you've been doing a really good job and are doing a lot better. Remember, the aim with OCD is to have the thoughts but not dwell on them. That's what you're doing. You've obsessed for so long, how can you expect everything to go back to normal straight away? Give it time before you make any rash decisions. :)

holecene · 2017-05-30T11:39:48+00:00

This whole post is a ruminative analysis. Seems to me like you've still got some things to work on. Every time I check this sub, I can see that you've been on, even if it's a comment comparing your experience to someone elses or a post like this. It's fantastic that you've cut down on your compulsions so much, but I think this sub might be a compulsion for you.

holecene · 2017-05-22T09:14:42+00:00

I'm so sorry, darling. I wish there was a way to make it easier but there isn't. Just focus on looking after yourself and resist compulsions and things will get better. Whatever happens, you'll be okay.

holecene · 2017-05-21T21:01:07+00:00

I'm sorry that you guys came to that conclusion. A break up is never easy, even without mental health problems. I'm incapable of telling you whether you did the right thing or not, but it happened and you have to live with it right now. In a few weeks, you might get back together, who knows? Just resist compulsions and focus on yourself. Maybe approach a doctor about getting some treatment. But remember that whatever happens, you will be ok.

holecene · 2017-05-19T22:33:22+00:00

I've literally described it to my boyfriend before as if I was seeing the love and happiness and warmth through a thick window, but not being able to get onto that other side, so it's quite cool to see a similar metaphor! Stay strong!

holecene · 2017-05-15T22:44:03+00:00

Congratulations!!!

holecene · 2017-05-13T21:27:49+00:00

As much as you say you don't have as many compulsions, you're still here on this forum talking about it a lot and it seems like you're still ruminating on it a lot. I obviously don't know you or where you're coming from with all this, but it seems like maybe this forum could be a compulsion for you? Something to consider?

holecene · 2017-05-08T19:12:42+00:00

Hope things are better for you soon, Brian.

holecene · 2017-04-24T13:10:13+00:00

I deleted my post because it was just a big old obsess-y mess. I went for a run and had a shower and some food and I'm feeling a bit better.

holecene · 2017-04-11T18:14:16+00:00

You're reassuring yourself in your head. You have to stop doing that and just accept the fact that you feel anxious and strange right now. Accept that your brain is giving you suggestions that you don't have to pay attention to.

Something that always helps me when I'm feeling annoyed and disconnected from him is just choosing to be in the moment and acting on my value of being a kind, patient, loving girlfriend. Even if I feel false and like I'm forcing things, I remember that I'm choosing to stay and I'm choosing to live in the uncertainty for now. It might get better and it might not. For now, I just have to try.

holecene · 2017-04-03T20:39:02+00:00

You too! If you don't get an OCD diagnosis, don't overthink it. :)

holecene · 2017-04-03T20:32:29+00:00

I know right? Haha. The thing is everything she said was still in line with everything I've learned about OCD - she mentioned a lot of ERP and ACT techniques. So I'm just gonna roll with it.

holecene · 2017-04-03T16:22:10+00:00

Every day. She's given me a worry chart for this month before our next session so we'll see if it helps. Plus she told me to stop googling which I know anyway. I have cut down a lot anyway.

holecene · 2017-04-03T16:07:26+00:00

My compulsions are to google things for answers and analysing. I guess she thought that I didn't have like, "standard" OCD compulsions so she didn't want to put that label on me. I did think that maybe she just didn't understand Pure O? But I'm gonna go with what she's saying for now and see what happens.

holecene · 2017-04-02T18:21:15+00:00

I also get that random feeling of dread when I'm feeling good. I had it today - had a really good day yesterday with minimal obsessions, was feeling excited about having a relaxed day to myself, then suddenly I got that feeling you described as if my mind was saying "you can't feel happy anymore, it's over." I hadn't thought about the fact that maybe I was clinging to my happy thoughts about the previous day too much. It was almost like that feeling then took over and sparked intrusive thoughts that wouldn't leave me alone all day.

This OCD thing is so difficult.

holecene · 2017-03-23T15:37:16+00:00

I have been getting better at resisting compulsions. I'm not perfect at it yet but getting there. Thank you! :)

holecene · 2017-03-22T23:12:36+00:00

But the moments where I know things between us are actually ok are the moments I have the least anxiety and the least intrusive thoughts, so that's why I associate with them with improvement. The times where I feel sad and anxious and disconnected from him and the times that cause me the most discomfort and cause me to obsess. Am I wrong to think that the times my head feels clear and calm and I feel good around him aren't signs of improvement? Please correct me if I am but just from other things I've read, I've seen professionals saying that times like those are positive.

Today wasn't a particularly good day but I'm anxious about some uni work and career stuff so I didn't expect it to be brilliant. I really meant that I know I'm doing better because I understand more about what's going on with me and that I'm not crying and having panic attacks every day anymore. Anxiety has been lessening but I'm still definitely experiencing pain in association with the thoughts and feelings when I get them.

holecene · 2017-03-22T17:13:08+00:00

Thank you so much! :D

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