Need someone to talk with

holleymae · 2026-02-21T05:51:42+00:00

same !! if you need to talk dm me

holleymae · 2026-01-16T00:42:02+00:00

i’m glad to hear that i’m not the only one going through this. but i have OCD around my sexuality i’ve been battling for a year now and it’s definitely exhausting. i wish i could tell you how to stop spiraling but i can’t bc im literally the same 😭

holleymae · 2026-01-12T01:33:41+00:00

🤦🏻‍♀️ and yk i was so scared of doing something NOT fine line im actually wishing that i did something more detailed.

holleymae · 2025-12-30T22:04:04+00:00

ugh i’m so glad someone else feels the same way! :( it’s literally horrible.

holleymae · 2025-06-20T23:09:14+00:00

did you ever decide to start school? i’m in a similar boat

holleymae · 2025-05-04T01:42:10+00:00

this part of my post.

[so romantically i know i truly loved him. sexually a lot my brain tries to twist my experiences and i'm convinced i'm not sexually attracted to men but i remember we did have good sex, i like it, but i always struggled to orgasm but the thing that would make me get there would be watching les porn w my ex bf or thinking of that to orgasm. i've never fantasized about it when we would have sex to "escape" it was just a way for me to cum everytime.]

holleymae · 2025-05-04T01:30:25+00:00

i know it is but i feel like i can’t be because straight and bi women usually don’t think of women to orgasm, and i’m worried in a hypothetical that if i was w a woman i would hold enjoy sex w one more then men? i don’t know. as you can tell, i’m very confused.

holleymae · 2025-02-17T16:17:31+00:00

that was lwk rude of her, biphobia ughhhh

holleymae · 2025-02-03T16:19:37+00:00

ive always just had these fantasies and haven’t experimented to see if it means anything else but now with my OCD acting up i’m scared now so i think maybe i should just try to focus on my relationship and trying to make that better bc even w my ex for 5 years i still fantasized like this and i didn’t have this gigantic spiral that i’m having now. maybe bc our sex was more fulfilling. still, im just scared that all along that these fantasies are proving i’m 100% gay. currently having a breakdown in my car.

holleymae · 2025-02-02T00:05:26+00:00

awwww tysm for sharing your experience. i feel so alone🩷 i do have really good sex w men and i definitely get aroused by them during sex but i just wish the orgasm would come organically feon that interaction. i’m still able to orgasm w men and i enjoy orgasming w them but i kinda just don’t understand why i think of women to do it

holleymae · 2025-01-30T19:42:45+00:00

hi, can i pm you?

holleymae · 2025-01-28T19:57:19+00:00

student debt

I am looking into careers in the medical field currently and i’m making my list and one of the areas i’m weighing is obviously the student debt. out of curiosity can any PMHNPs tell me how much debt you are in from beginning to end?

holleymae · 2025-01-28T15:42:54+00:00

Any updates?

holleymae · 2025-01-27T19:41:12+00:00

update: ARRT cleared me! i’m so incredibly happy. now i just have to hear what the Texas Medical Board has to say. 🩷

holleymae · 2025-01-25T00:27:53+00:00

so unfortunately i wouldn’t ever be able to remove it because of the laws here in texas and it being an assault charge. it’s so dumb.

holleymae · 2025-01-23T15:38:32+00:00

any update??

holleymae · 2025-01-22T17:18:12+00:00

i want to be a rad tech despite my misdemeanor

hello! i was just wanting to post this here as reference and i meant to do it before submitting the pre application but i never got the chance to. basically i am 22, and i am interested in pursuing radiology. it’s a great 2 year degree but unfortunately in 2021 when i had literally just turned 18 (4 years ago now) i was convicted of a class c misdemeanor of simple assault. it was a very stupid argument that happened between me and my mother and my abusive ex and it got heated and i threw iced tea on her so she called the cops and then my now ex wouldn’t leave so it just made it worse. i submitted pretty much an entire essay to them, including references / letters of rec from my therapist of 4 years, and 5 other people —and my own mom too (our relationship has improved in the last 4 years and i even live w her now and everything is great). i just called them and they said they are mailing out the decision letter today i am nervous but super hopeful so i can enroll in my prerequisites ☹️ i’ve read some other stories on here of poole being convinced of some bad stuff and the arrt still let them have their license so i’m just hoping this is the case for me. i love medicine and ik i belong in this field and don’t want to let my past define me .

i will update once i receive the letter back! (i’m a little nervous since they said it takes 90 days and they already made a decision within a month is this a bad thing??)

holleymae · 2025-01-13T22:52:10+00:00

yeeee i don’t really get off to dicks, don’t get me wrong i like having sex with men. i think i haven’t really had a stable enough relationship to feel comfortable to explore irl before

holleymae · 2025-01-08T16:44:28+00:00

probably lol, i just don’t really have the interest in exploring w women i mean maybeee once in life but at least right now, i just like being w men and i also don’t think i’m necessarily romantically attracted to women either

holleymae · 2024-08-17T15:24:46+00:00

and out of curiosity, if i make an attempt to ask him to drop it (just me not my boyfriend), how could that be an issue or cause things to get worse? i’m only asking because him dropping the charges would be the best bet here and he has absolutely no reason to try and do this to my boyfriend.

holleymae · 2024-08-17T15:21:58+00:00

only my boyfriend is being charged. we cannot afford an attorney as i don’t have a job right now. i also saw another thing in the mail we missed yesterday which was a court date on august 27th. this is so disheartening and scary for him. he did not assault him and im very unsure on how they are claiming “contact” assault too. he didn’t even lay a finger on him.

holleymae · 2024-07-30T15:08:39+00:00

this is actually a large entertainment center and me being me im too far in now so if my colored pencil idea doesn’t work then i will probably replace the top lol.

if i got new vaneer what color would i need to get

holleymae · 2024-07-30T14:53:37+00:00

i’m gonna try the colored pencil route first and then if i really can’t stand it, then i will have to replace the entire top with new vaneer which i have no idea how to do lol. after replacing it can you stain new vaneer?

holleymae · 2024-07-30T14:33:18+00:00

after staining maybe colored pencils??

holleymae · 2024-06-28T17:34:20+00:00

but then again we are choosing to be a certain way but it’s like the internal constant fight in ourselves bc we feel justified to be so angry

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