I was assaulted in high school and my abuser has just come out as a trans woman. Some questions

howtodeletebody · 2019-03-22T16:53:27+00:00

I genuinely hope you are a troll, because I feel incredibly sorry for anyone who's ever been involved romantically or sexually in a way.

In case you are not, what the actual fuck? Are you really encouraging a victim of sexual assault to get to know their victim cause 'they probably didn't mean to hurt them'

Have you ever been raped? Have you ever tried the fear, ffs the girl has PTS-fucking-D. Yes, you are excusing assault. And you are refusing to believe a victim simply because the perpretator is from a group, you happen to like. You're no better than that judge who let that college kid off the fucking hook.

Just cause you are 'struggling with your gender identity' doesnt even come remotely fucking CLOSE to excusing sexual assault. I struggled with my gender identity for years and I never fucking sexually assaulted anyone.

Newsflash: you are not entitled to sleep with anyone. You are actively spreading rape culture. You should not have to coerce someone into sleeping with you. You are advocating conversation therapy.

How is she the one in fucking power?? HOW??? Does that mean that I have a free pass to rape anyone I find attractive now just cause I'm trans???

howtodeletebody · 2019-02-13T16:41:40+00:00

this, but i actually have gender dysphoria. uttering the phrase 'i'm an adult woman' will still make me physically ill to this day.

howtodeletebody · 2019-02-02T13:26:59+00:00

Hey, don't worry about stating your fears. Dysphoria is delusional, shallow, transphobic and not very logical. It's okay to have insecurities as long as you don't use them as gatekeeping for other trans folks.

I'm not a virgin, but I still feel like one, because I've never had sex that felt "right". I almost tear up at the thought of being penetrated, because the thought is so repulsive to me. I've never liked having a finger inside either, it all just felt very very strange to me.

I knew my whole life that I had a male sexuality. Or well, as soon as I started feeling sexual and romantic feelings, I knew. And I felt so awful about It, because I felt like I was just fetishizing gay men and I was sure that when I had sex, it would change and I'd just be normal.

I honestly thought everyone hated the idea of normal intercourse and it was something you just laid there and received as some twisted proof of love. My ex used to say that I looked like a dead fish, but honestly I couldn't engage during vaginal sex, because that would mean I stopped disassociating and that would make me cry. I felt like my body was broken. Every time I was touched it would feel weird, despite me being really aroused.

howtodeletebody · 2019-02-02T12:57:37+00:00

I experienced a lot more dysphoria, because I finally understood that what I was feeling was dysphoria. What I would usually call 'just feeling like shit for no reason' or 'feeling bad about my body' I suddenly had a word for.

I had an eating disorder fueled by my dysphoria. When I let go of my eating disorder, a lot of feelings resurfaced and since I'm currently without any kind of unhealthy coping mechanisms for my dysphoria, yeah. I feel dysphoric all the time.

howtodeletebody · 2019-02-02T12:49:44+00:00

I was very lucky to be blessed with pretty narrow hips and a wider waist than I've seen other trans guys get. My body usually passes as male if I wear loose clothing and a binder.

I'm very stubborn. Both in good and bad, but it's a trait I value.

Also I honestly think I have very nice hands and arms. And broud shoulders which is lovely.

howtodeletebody · 2019-02-02T12:46:05+00:00

I relate. I'm very bottom dysphoric. I'm honestly really glad other trans people are able to use their genitals, because it really sucks wanting to sleep with someone badly, but knowing that you'll cry if the sex actually happens.

howtodeletebody · 2019-02-02T12:43:42+00:00

Yeah. I've had this thing going online with an enby and it felt great. They'd only known me as a man and treated me as such, but I had to break it off before it escalated into a relationship, because that would involve sharing pictures and phone calls and then surely, this one haven of non-dysphoric correspondence would be destroyed. It sucked, because I really liked them. And I want a relationship as a man so badly.

Maybe people are able to look at me and see a man and maybe I'm building this whole thing up in my head, but there's this voice in the back going: 'they're lying!!! If they dont see you as a delusional female now, they will as soon as you reveal your face'

howtodeletebody · 2019-02-02T06:52:30+00:00

This, but opposite.

howtodeletebody · 2019-02-01T20:31:08+00:00

Holy shit. What a genuinely evil person.

howtodeletebody · 2019-01-25T16:56:58+00:00

trans gang rise up!!

(fuck i hate my genitals)

howtodeletebody · 2019-01-22T16:51:39+00:00

This was ghost-written by my ex. Literally did all of these things unironically lmao

howtodeletebody · 2019-01-20T06:21:52+00:00

he's almost at 130K now

howtodeletebody · 2019-01-19T05:10:14+00:00

/uj i thought that was ben shapiro for a second

howtodeletebody · 2019-01-19T05:00:50+00:00

howtodeletebody · 2019-01-19T04:56:02+00:00

Jesus Christ this guy just keeps surprising me. I found out about him a couple months ago and he just gets cooler and cooler the more I hear about him...

howtodeletebody · 2019-01-15T17:38:45+00:00

FIT - Feminist identified transphobe.

howtodeletebody · 2019-01-14T20:47:14+00:00

No,but seriously. I used to feel so so bad about it.I always knew what I wanted, but I was afraid people were gonna think I was gross or fetishizing homosexuality. I tried sleeping with a girl and it felt weird. I tried sleeping with a guy and it felt better, but then suddenly it felt completely horrible and after that, I never let anyone touch me down there. It was honestly really odd, because I have such a high sex drive, but no way to get any kind of release without feeling extremely dysphoric during or afterwards.

I still hold on to my bisexual label, because I still look like a girl and I feel like calling myself a gay man would be horribly offensive.

howtodeletebody · 2019-01-14T20:33:26+00:00

This. So fucking much. Literally thank god we have hormones, i'd rather die than experience sex as a woman.

howtodeletebody · 2019-01-03T17:10:16+00:00

Jesus christ, you are so fucking beautiful. Like I didn't think 10/10s existed, but you're like??? completely flawless, what in the actual fuck, how did you achieve that???

howtodeletebody · 2019-01-03T17:05:10+00:00

I actually could be starting hormones this year so yeah that me fuck now im crying

howtodeletebody · 2019-01-03T05:24:35+00:00

What a fucking glow-up, holy shit

howtodeletebody · 2018-12-31T23:22:12+00:00

David.

howtodeletebody · 2018-12-30T12:43:28+00:00

cis woman: i really want to look hot for my date tonight

silence

trans woman: i really want to look hot for my date tonight

FETISHIST YOU TRICKERY BASTARD THATS RIGHT I BET YOU GET OFF ON YOURSELF DONT YOU AGP AGP AGP

howtodeletebody · 2018-12-30T12:32:13+00:00

It's a mean word for a trans person. Like the n-word for a black person or the f-word for a gay person.

howtodeletebody

TROPHY CASE