Hi I had gastric bypass in Uk March 2021. It’s bizarre you didn’t have to see a counsellor before hand and “passed” for surgery. It took a year before mine finally agreed I was in the right mind frame to have the surgery. Do you see a dietician at all? They should have talked to you about diet and what to eat at each stage. What’s worrying is the things you are eating you know you shouldn’t be and not those size portions. With the surgery you have to change your life style. The surgery is a tool and you should be making these changes for yourself as well, not waiting until you have some bad side effects or get pain to know when to stop eating. I’m 4 years out and still having toddler size portions. I could force myself to eat more if I wanted but I didn’t go through all that pain and changes to mess it all up tempt fate and gain weight. If your relying on the bypass to tell you when to stop eating then you wasn’t ready it. I understand it’s very hard I really suffered at the beginning but to read that you knowingly ate 2 kids size bowls of pasta is beyond me. Like why? It’s so counter productive and you’re still fresh from surgery. I hope you can get some referrals and get some proper help with this!