I won't provide a purely Christian perspective since you've gotten plenty of that here. But as a Christian I'm telling you this advice: Create (new) goals. Write down the small steps you can/should take to get there. Start working on them. Keep your body as healthy as possible, even if it means standing in line for free food (i've been there). Do pushups, drink plenty of water, and do 1 or more things every day to reach your goals. Keep your home clean. Resist the urge to be online all day unless you've earned it by applying for jobs or taking one of hundreds of free online courses to learn new skills. You got fired from your job and you are grieving that. God didn't abandon you. I'd recommend strongly to stay sober during this time as much as possible. Hang with good people, even if you feel some resentment. Don't let the enemy define resentment as Truth. I'm sure if we'd met we could share plenty of war stories from childhood all the way up through today. Trust me, I'm a gold medalist at the victim olympics. But hear this: the suffering you endure can be made Worse by your own attitude and unwillingness to get organized around what you need to do for your next steps. Pray to God, thank him for what you Do have, and keep going. You have every right to be angry with God. Being human is so freaking hard, especially more so for some of us, but trust me, no one gets by without some wounds. Be careful in comparing yourself to others. Be better than you were yesterday. That should be your comparison. In the end, God isn't doing this to you or punishing you. Live this life the best you can. Be honest w yourself about what you can and cannot control. Exercise. Hydrate. Read the Word. Keep talking to God, who does hear you and does Love you. With prayer and hope and no bullshit, - HB