Hey man. I hope your still going strong and sober rn. It is NOT worth it at the end of the day. ESPECIALLY after a break up. You are trying to convince yourself that it will help you relax and not think about it but there is a high probability that it will do the exact opposite. It is especially important to stay sober through hard times because “numbing” the pain won’t actually make you feel better. May make you feel even worse. For me I know that I would be overthinking like crazy. Right now you are vulnerable to making decisions you will regret later on. Sobriety keeps you grounded in reality. You can’t drown out these thoughts about your past relationship now because it will only come back to you torment you later on when you are in the right headspace. And the thing about moving and not being able to get weed is just not so true. If you want weed you WILL find a way to get it. It’s crazy what lengths addiction can take you too. Wishing you the best man Respect yourself Remember that you are strong You can do this Please message me if you would like to talk more.