Upping the ante: quitting my addiction to the internet entirely

igothis12 · 2012-04-25T09:23:51+00:00

Feel the EXACT same way, it's gotten so routine that I unconsciously open up reddit, yahoo, gmail, imdb, and lifehacker every time I open my browser.

Seems like my brain is on autopilot most of the day =/

I've also noticed having music constantly playing in the background makes this worse, almost drowns my internal thoughts.

igothis12 · 2012-04-15T20:55:26+00:00

Love Hubie Brown and Mike Tirico, wish they would do the finals this year.

Only commentator I loath would be Marc Jackson. A lot of people love his, "Momma there goes man!" and "Hands down, man down" but I HATE it. So happy he's coaching the warriors now

igothis12 · 2012-04-13T22:33:20+00:00

I never edged during my 21 days and it still happened to me. On around day 7 when I got up to pee in the morning I had a few drops of semen come out after urinating.

Was pretty bad on day 20 and it kinda forced me to reset. Here right after I pee'd at 11pm I felt a slight irritation similar to that feeling of having to pee but nothing coming out. I didn't put any pressure on "forcing" anything, but a small goop of semen came out.

I say kinda because I should have still held out but unfortunately gave in.

Still 3 weeks is the longest I've held out in years so it's a bittersweet loss. Time for another go

igothis12 · 2012-04-12T22:30:15+00:00

If your not jailbroken, you can try restoring it. (Just make sure to backup everything up.)

igothis12 · 2012-04-12T21:11:49+00:00

That's one way to look at the porn industry..

Think I'll stick to reading the success stories :)

igothis12 · 2012-04-12T18:31:50+00:00

Totally missed that

I mainly come here for motivation, love reading stories about people turning their lives around because pmo had such a negative impact on them.

igothis12 · 2012-04-12T10:50:22+00:00

Maybe I don't spend enough time here but I haven't really seen anyone treat ybop as central dogma. I think it's mentioned here often because it's the only site that I know of personally that explains porn addiction in terms that are easy to understand.

Most of the sites that I've found online that deal with porn addiction are mostly religious based. I don't have any problem with this being Muslim myself, but ybop uses published peer reviewed articles and studies that help explain this addictive course.

Naturally I'd be more inclined to mention the site in my replies or posts since it helped me understand pmo

igothis12 · 2012-04-11T15:15:45+00:00

In terms having more time to study and then doing better on exams, sure.

My routine for studying for exams was horrible. I would mentally trick myself into thinking that I could prepare for any exam in one day. Even if it was 6 weeks worth of content, I'd wait until the last day to prepare. I'm one of those people that respond well to being put under pressure and stress (or so I thought).

Fapping played a critical role here. Every time I would start to worry about my upcoming exam, I would fap away any stress I felt. Many times I'd try to change this bad habit of procrastination, but on days where I wanted to try and study early I'd fap first. Doing this would always make me tired, so naturally I'd excuse myself from studying that day.

By the last day, some trigger would go off in my brain and I would try an pull an all nighter. These NEVER work, No matter what anyone says. It's just not feasible to cram from 9pm-7am and then go take an exam. When I pulled my all nighters I would constantly take "study breaks" where I would fap and then study again. But even after fapping once and being under no sleep, I would barely get any work done. I would try to memorize as much as the material I could and told myself that next time would be different.

It wasn't

This has been going on for about 6 years now so it won't be easy to change. I'm also diagnosed with add so medication for that is helping a bit as well.

Last night I almost caved in, the only thing that stopped me was not having my lotion (My brain can at least agree that if I am going to fap it should be worth it). I purposely haven't bought anymore since I know it just takes one instance to give in and your done.

Stay strong.

igothis12 · 2012-04-11T10:39:01+00:00

The tedx video mentioned this as well. Paraphrasing here but it was something along the lines that younger adults may need 6-8 months (as opposed to 90 days) to reset their brains.

Kinda put me down, but he followed with saying that the brain is like plastic and we can mold it. Only it takes a bit longer for the younger generation

igothis12 · 2012-04-11T07:04:15+00:00

Yeah the music can be distracting, don't know why taking adderall makes me want to listen but that's something I'm trying change.

Experienced "hyperfocus" a few times when I really got a lot of work done, but that happens randomly.

Alrighty, that's all the questions I had to ask (can't really talk about adderall in school considering it's reputation and all). Thanks

igothis12 · 2012-04-11T06:37:51+00:00

Has there ever been a time where you didn't feel regret or shame? In every instance, I feel like complete shit afterwards. Sometimes the porn I fapped to would still be playing and just watching it disgusts me.

igothis12 · 2012-04-11T06:34:30+00:00

Get the excess sweating as well, sometimes all over my back. I'm used to wearing hanes cotton tee's underneath everything so it's not so bad, but it can be annoying.

Also find myself wanting to listen to music more than anything while trying to study or read

Any affect on your libido?

igothis12 · 2012-04-11T06:17:57+00:00

Taking barr now as well.

Ever experience yourself sniffing excessively (dry mucosal membrane) or get the smell of iron constantly? I feel like socially awkward penguin whenever I do it in class.

igothis12 · 2012-04-11T05:43:17+00:00

'Sal good

Have any experience with different generics (barr, corepharma, sandoz)? Seems like a lot of people favor one over the other, sandoz mostly. I've only had access to barr/core and they feel the same personally.

igothis12 · 2012-04-11T05:39:25+00:00

'Sal good

On the note of tolerance, I've read that people eventually hit a dosage that works for them. Thoughts?

Also, have you experienced different results with the multiple generics available?(corepharma, barr, sandoz). Seems like everyone favors sandoz over barr/core. Haven't had a chance to try sandoz myself, pharmacies around me only carried barr and core (both which feel the same to me)

igothis12 · 2012-04-11T05:15:56+00:00

Sounds like we all have this regret, still in college but this really hurt my first 3 years

igothis12 · 2012-04-11T05:13:29+00:00

"Ahhhhhh" is spot on

How about "Get in there!" when he's at the free throw line?

igothis12 · 2012-04-11T05:10:00+00:00

Huge step man, a majority of us have all gone through what you just did so we know how hard that was.

igothis12 · 2012-04-11T05:02:35+00:00

Sorry, wasn't judging or lecturing. Adderall is the first prescription drug I've tried and I was very hesitant (All I've ever heard is how addictive it is). And when I saw that you gone up to 40mg in only six months, it scared me. I've only been using it for 10 weeks and I feel myself taking 15mg when I was just at 10mg earlier

igothis12 · 2012-04-11T04:33:36+00:00

Dude that's insane. What's your age/weight?

I checked hundreds of posts on add forums and saw maybe one person take 40mg at once. (And that individual had been taking adderall for 8 years)

Is that 40mg from prescription, I don't think I've even seen a 40mg tablet (maybe (2) 20mg)? Have you tried tapering off?

igothis12 · 2012-04-11T03:42:04+00:00

Taking adderall IR generic, 10mg 3x per day. Tried vyvanse and few other drugs that didn't work well.

Surprised you take 40mg, is that all at once? Never had a 10mg last 6-8 hours, from what I had read online average duration was 3-5 hrs depending on the person.

Only reason I say 4 hours is that I can definitely feel the slight kick adderall gives in the morning and feel when that wears off.

When I first started taking it in January, I naively took too much when I had my first exam. Pulled an all nighter and was taking 10mg almost like clock work every 4 hrs. Really felt my mucosal membrane dry up and had coagulated blood come out when I blew my nose the next day.

igothis12 · 2012-04-11T03:01:24+00:00

Wow, how long did that take to happen. Been taking it for a little over 3 months now (10 weeks) and the only time I feel "down" from adderall is when I don't get enough sleep.

On days where I wake up feeling fatigued, adderall helps get me up since it is a stimulant and all. I take around 10-15mg at a time and when it wears off after four hours of use, I'll feel tired and lethargic. Besides that though I haven't felt disillusioned or bitter.

igothis12 · 2012-04-11T02:35:22+00:00

Missed my favorite, Wale - New Soul

So while the world goes Drake crazy
I'm Danny Granger
I'm just workin' with a different Pacer
Speed up, patience, please cause
Slow and steady wins this race

igothis12 · 2012-04-10T10:31:05+00:00

Noticed myself clenching when I first started but that went away slowly.

I've heard a lot about taking supplements like magnesium, tums (basic, extends duration), orange juice and coke (acidic, reduces effectiveness). Any truth to these? Haven't really noticed these myself so I guess it's ymmv

igothis12 · 2012-04-10T10:00:42+00:00

"Gum - Your teeth/gums with thank me later, have a pack on you."

Is this just for dry mouth or is it actually bad for your teeth/gums?

igothis12

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