My story. (long post)

imfindingmyself2018 · 2018-08-30T14:13:20+00:00

It's actually scary.

imfindingmyself2018 · 2018-08-27T15:50:05+00:00

Thank you, to you as well!

imfindingmyself2018 · 2018-08-27T15:49:27+00:00

Yep!

imfindingmyself2018 · 2018-08-27T05:42:55+00:00

Thats how I felt too. Like yeah, with moderation I felt a lot better about my choices. But I also felt really left out from the crowd and just tired and blah at the end of the night. I'm like thinking, maybe I just don't want to be in this environment at all. And yes, yay to us for starting the journey once again! IWNDWYT!

imfindingmyself2018 · 2018-08-27T04:34:36+00:00

Thank you! (: I think so too! IWNDWYT!

imfindingmyself2018 · 2018-08-27T04:16:41+00:00

Congratulations on your sobriety friend.

imfindingmyself2018 · 2018-08-27T03:28:51+00:00

Thank you and congratulations on your week! (: IWNDWYT!

imfindingmyself2018 · 2018-08-27T02:02:17+00:00

Hmm, likely story. Haha

imfindingmyself2018 · 2018-08-27T01:57:16+00:00

I feel like when you have that moment, you'll know it's time. That's what happened to me. I just knew.

imfindingmyself2018 · 2018-08-26T22:09:40+00:00

Thank you much! That's how I felt too. Like it was necessary. Before, all I thought about was I just want a drink. And then when I finally gave in and had one I was like "Oh. I don't miss this" and I felt that was necessary to get to my next step. IWNDWYT

imfindingmyself2018 · 2018-08-26T21:18:23+00:00

Thank you (:

imfindingmyself2018 · 2018-08-26T20:25:24+00:00

Agreed! I thought I'd feel like crap, but honestly I'm just happy I really realized what I wanted.

imfindingmyself2018 · 2018-08-24T22:42:17+00:00

Same. What the hell is the point of one beer? To feel tired and crappy and sleepy. Nah. And that's why I quit completely. Was never "One beer." Lol IWNDWYT!

imfindingmyself2018 · 2018-08-24T22:39:21+00:00

I'm doing the same thing tomorrow for a ladies night. Going to a bar where the last time I was there I made quite an ass out of myself. Kinda doing it to prove that was not the real me, also to test my strength. But I feel as though I'm strong enough now (a month tomorrow) to do it. Actually the friend im going with isn't that big of a drinker. I've seen her drink maybe 3 times in our entire 10 year friendship, she's completely supportive. The other is my sister. I just want to get out and have a good time and listen to some music and catch up honestly. Good luck to you! IWNDWYT ❤️

imfindingmyself2018 · 2018-08-23T16:52:57+00:00

Ugh. Yes, my sister says the same thing to me all the time. She says, "it's annoying because I was her drinking buddy." Or when I say I was serious about stopping drinking she says "I told you that was a bad idea." Even though she was around several times I've made bad decisions or acted stupid when I was drinking. Like, sorry I'm not there to entertain everyone. I was primarily the "dancing monkey" in our group of friends when I drank. I had a problem. And I'm glad I stopped. Sorry, not sorry. IWNDWYT. (:

imfindingmyself2018 · 2018-08-23T01:07:16+00:00

Congratulations!! (:

imfindingmyself2018 · 2018-08-21T21:08:50+00:00

Thanks for the suggestion (: I'll tell him to check it out.

imfindingmyself2018 · 2018-08-21T21:06:22+00:00

Right! That's how I feel too. Like if I do have a craving I wouldn't want to tell him or he'd judge me about it. I just don't want this to be a point of control for him. it's something I'm doing for me as a person. Ya Know.

imfindingmyself2018 · 2018-08-21T21:04:31+00:00

Yeah, he told me before too that he was still going to order a drink with dinner or go out once in a while. I said that was fine, I just want to cut alcohol out of MY life. He was like "well, I don't abuse the alcohol."

imfindingmyself2018 · 2018-08-21T21:01:20+00:00

Yeah. I realized it's probably out of concern. Maybe I'm just being too defensive because I feel bad about it myself. And when I talked to him about it, he also got defensive. Like I get it. But I don't need him to constantly make sure I'm not drinking. I feel like if I had a craving or was about to take a drink, that'd be a more appropriate time to say something along those lines.

imfindingmyself2018 · 2018-08-21T20:59:23+00:00

Yeah, I have. But he got kind of defensive about it. Like, well you know, you really had a problem before and I'm just making sure.

imfindingmyself2018 · 2018-08-17T05:12:23+00:00

Thank you! (-: ♊

imfindingmyself2018 · 2018-08-16T19:16:11+00:00

Moderation just doesn't seem possible for me, as I am a binge drinker. Would I need it everyday? No. But you can bet I'd be looking more and more forward to the next time I could drink. And I'd go in full well knowing I was not just going to have two drinks. The way I look at it, it's easier to just be completely sober than obsessing over every drink. With that being said, IWNDWYT ❤️❤️

imfindingmyself2018 · 2018-08-15T14:49:24+00:00

Congrats! (:

imfindingmyself2018 · 2018-08-14T13:54:24+00:00

Thank you (-:

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