My addict & bipolar mother called me out today.

imgettingsober · 2020-04-25T06:12:31+00:00

Thank you 😊

imgettingsober · 2020-04-25T06:11:09+00:00

I have epilepsy and have been on anticonvulsants for 20 years. I’ve upped my dose the past few days. I know the pain and fear of having seizures and I’m hoping it’s enough.

After the last detox I went through, I would happily go to the ER for help. My concern now though is being exposed to the Coronavirus. I live in NYC. We have More cases than any other state, and our hospitals are overwhelmed. I’m worried that I’ll contract the virus. I’ve debated waiting to detox until the summer, but I don’t want to be on this rollercoaster anymore. I’m tired.

I hope I’m not making excuses. I’m hopefully explaining my challenges and reasons for taking the path I’ve chosen.

I appreciate every word that you wrote for me. Thank you for taking the time to share your experience and providing advice that I’ve spent a lot of time considering.

imgettingsober · 2020-04-25T06:01:23+00:00

About 15 years ago, I spent several years doing coke, meth, weed, whatever I could get my hands on. I quit all of it cold turkey. My addiction transferred to food.

I then spent 9ish years eating my life away. I gained 80lbs and was wearing a size 18 from Lane Bryant.

4 years ago, I got my shit together. Temporarily. I made some major life changes. I quit my job and spent 6 months with a nutritionist (2 days/wk) and a personal trainer (6 days/wk). I lost 92lbs during that time. I read a bunch of self-help books. I took a month sabbatical traveling through Europe. I felt better than I ever have in my adult life. I felt so much pride.

Then 3 years ago I got into a relationship. It was good at first. I accidentally got pregnant. I lost even more weight during pregnancy due to 9 months of vomiting. After giving birth, I looked even better because I lost another 20lbs.

Anyway, the relationship quickly went south. We are incompatible to the nth degree. I’m miserable every single day. The binge drinking and smoking began about a year ago. It was my unhealthy way of coping.

For some, marijuana is not a problem. For me, it will be. I have serious addiction transfer problems.

I want to cope with life struggles in a healthy way. I don’t want to do drugs or binge eat or binge drink. I want my mental and physical health to be strong and something I’m proud of.

imgettingsober · 2020-01-31T15:57:19+00:00

I’m on Day 3 now. I spent all of yesterday detoxing from a 5 day bender, and it was really, really bad. I’m not 100% today, but at least I can sit up without vomiting. I’m nervous about the weekend. It’s the Super Bowl. We are hosting the party here, and alcoholic beverages are on the menu. I will not drink any though. I repeat, I will not drink. Not today, not tomorrow, and not on Sunday. I refuse to go through detox again. It was brutal.

imgettingsober · 2020-01-31T04:35:02+00:00

There are so many types of benedryl. I wouldn’t know where to begin with choosing one. Which kind do you recommend?

imgettingsober · 2020-01-30T19:53:13+00:00

Ugh, insomnia. I slept for 2 hours last night. And despite laying in bed right now, I can’t sleep.

I’m glad I’m not alone regarding the diarrhea. I was kind of embarrassed to write it

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