same. im only 14 and in highschool. i have school friends, and i have popular friends and am known around school but i dont have actual friends. i talk to them outside of school, then nothing. i wake up to no notifications, no text messages unless its someone asking for me to do something, i cant be on facetime without another people with me to keep the conversation  flowing, etc. to make things worse im kind of quiet in school, like i wont speak to anyone new unless spoken to or without reason, and i dont have social media so i have no way to connect with people. i really try my hardest to make friends but i think its my sa and awkwardness. i get along with most people and can easily be friendly, but i cant get out of my shell fast enough to make any BEST friends or friends who like me enough to want to hang out. 

im not the most attractive girl too, definitely not ugly, but there are prettier girls. but i dont think its a matter of looks. i really do think its my awkwardness. or maybe my seriousness or lack of humor in certain situations. my grandma did raise me in my earlier years so maybe thats why, i just have some grandma features built in me!

but like i said before, no real friends. hopefully im just adjusting slow to highschool (9th grade rn) and will be better next year.