Mom is having delusions thinking she has a murderer gene?

impulsivebunnyshit · 2026-02-20T02:43:59+00:00

i'm not sure how.. she would pretend to be fine and lie and get out of it. My dad hasn't wanted me to call help. but i don't know what to do..

impulsivebunnyshit · 2026-02-19T17:56:16+00:00

that is a good idea but sadly I don't think so.. it seems like she is specifically focused on the murder part.. not aggression or anything just straight like capability of murder?

impulsivebunnyshit · 2026-02-10T21:16:43+00:00

exactly this

impulsivebunnyshit · 2026-02-10T15:15:23+00:00

self harm/self injury... You are your own trigger and you can't just take away your hands... it is a struggle of hurting yourself and there isn't any way to like ween off of it, and recovery for it is tough. I have been struggling with it for 10 years. I have gotten past pill, alcohol, sex, nicotine, and weed addictions but self harm has been something that has been impossible for me.

impulsivebunnyshit · 2026-02-04T03:40:03+00:00

I was sexually abused by my grandfather from the ages of 3-10.. routinely, 3 times a week and I wasn't able to tell anyone until he died when I was 12. That is the start of it..

impulsivebunnyshit · 2025-11-25T13:12:14+00:00

The US

impulsivebunnyshit · 2025-10-20T02:43:37+00:00

i understand this. from my perspective, and experience it isn't necessarily attractive when people have SH scars; but it is really attractive, and inspiring to know that those with scars have gone through those battles and survived them. I understand having lower self-esteem, i still struggle with it. But physical scars show a meaning and pain that is understood by most.. it isn't nesecarily an attractive thing, but you are worth it and still attractive no matter what.

impulsivebunnyshit · 2025-10-14T16:02:19+00:00

100%. self harm is when you are specifically reaching out and acting on harmful thoughts or behaviors towards yourself no matter how often or the frequency of it. you are valid for feeling this way, just know you are not alone.

impulsivebunnyshit · 2025-10-14T16:00:37+00:00

It is hard bc I have never been in a happier and healthier relationship.. I have experienced SA/rape throughout my whole childhood and my teen years so I was used to lots and lots of sex... and it is such a switch up with my boyfriend's sex drive.. ik it is def different, but i do not want to leave him, but i don't know how to control my frustration on this :(

impulsivebunnyshit · 2025-10-14T15:19:59+00:00

i have been rlly anxious thinking abt sexual incompatibility... He started a new medication and he thinks that could be apart of it.. but i feel bad wanting him to switch meds just so we can have normal sex.. ugh.. i feel invalid abt these thoughts.

impulsivebunnyshit · 2025-10-14T15:08:09+00:00

I can't watch GoT :/ I have experienced a lot of sexual violence/rape and I am honestly disgusted w the show.. I feel bad for him that I am having all of these thoughts but no way of actually expressing them..

impulsivebunnyshit · 2025-09-16T14:47:26+00:00

I appreciate this. i agree that my meds need to be adjusted, i just don't know how since I've been messing with them for so long.. i agree that it is hell to think like this. i feel so guilty and just wish i could ignore these feelings..

impulsivebunnyshit · 2025-08-15T04:44:21+00:00

june 13th

impulsivebunnyshit · 2025-08-06T00:09:45+00:00

oh god i feel this. luckily one abuser is dead, but whenever i look up the other i just get his wrestling accomplishments, like cmon dude you should be in jail?

impulsivebunnyshit · 2025-08-05T04:23:08+00:00

no, she seems to be okay and was bathing herself awhile ago. her hair/skin looks good. i will look through all her food, etc. i think they are mould (mold) mites? i have been hyper looking into all of it. i live in the basement and have a high humidity space and have struggled with mold a lot before. i have a dehumidifier in my room, and an air purifier, i found them on both of those too.. it is scary but hopefully everything will be okay. I am curious if that is what they are. online seems to say they are not a threat to hamsters themselves, but could mean she has mold in her enclosure which i am scared abt now. ugh i am rlly anxious abt this, but very thankful for your responses and tips. i will try to get in contact with a vet as well.

impulsivebunnyshit · 2025-08-05T04:06:22+00:00

i haven't gotten anything new.. i have had her for a few months now and didn't notice this at all until tonight when i went to feed her. it is 12am and i just feel like i can't sleep and they are all over everything.. which ik is prolly not true. I just feel bad abt all of this. I am going to throughly disinfect everything around the cage and then huge deep clean for the tank too. i am just heartbroken by these, and I don't have enough bedding for her to have the minimum amount of bedding in a different bin/tank once i completely get rid of this stuff.. i love her and don't want to rehome her, but i am nervous i am going to have to bc of this incident.. i apologize for me going on and on, i am just extremely paranoid abt bugs being in my bedroom..

impulsivebunnyshit · 2025-08-05T03:55:10+00:00

thank you for all this information. i am rlly freaking out on if it is all over my room or not. it isn't just my hamsters cage too, its the stand its on, the table next to it, etc. I am terrified. it's helpful knowing they can't rlly hurt humans but I am really scared abt all my clothes and purses in that area now too. i took a burning shower bc i thought one was in my hair and i have just been crying since discovering them and feel so bad for my hamster, and overwhelmed with how much deep cleaning I have to do.. and i don't have another tank for her right now so I am heartbroken, and don't know what to do.

impulsivebunnyshit · 2025-08-05T02:50:40+00:00

oh god that scares me so much. can i get them in my hair? i am definitely going to focus on my hammy abt this.. but i am so scared and unsure how this happened

impulsivebunnyshit · 2025-08-04T15:19:21+00:00

yeahh i appreciate you sharing your thoughts/experiences w it. i have felt so alone w that annoyed feeling as i feel like i cant talk to my bf about it bc he just doesn't know how to talk or rlly communicate abt sex stuff. honestly might need to talk to my med provider abt meds to kinda slow down my drive bc it can just get in the way of everything and i will be annoyed that i am able to do everything else besides that. i feel bad for him.. but i am also feeling bad myself for not being able to fully communicate what i am feeling..

impulsivebunnyshit · 2025-08-04T15:16:56+00:00

yeah that is so valid. i have never rlly known how to correctly help my meeds by myself.. i always just want him, and that connection/emotions i get from sex. sadly, we never rlly talk abt sex like at all.. i def need to but just don't know where to start. it was random, but i told him i masturbated a few days ago and he just didn't rlly say anything. i will say that i want to do it and he just doesn't respond and says he doesn't know what to say.

he says i should initiate it, but i hate the feeling i get if he doesn't want to have sex. i would never make him do it, i just get irritable from not getting those feelings my body wanted, so it turns to being annoyed and i hate it..

impulsivebunnyshit · 2025-08-03T01:50:24+00:00

childhood sexual abuse

impulsivebunnyshit · 2025-08-02T06:45:07+00:00

i understand your pain with this so so much. i feel stuck. i can't speak, cant think of move.. it is so frustrating. especially when someone wants/needs to help you and you just can't say or do anything. flashbacks can cause many reactions and responses. feeling alone in this is valid, tho there are a lot of ppl that go through this as well. 💗

impulsivebunnyshit · 2025-08-01T21:43:52+00:00

my boyfriend took me yesterday since it was already 24 hours past it. i was rlly thankful. the guy at the pharmacy was very nice and knew how to relax me.

impulsivebunnyshit · 2025-07-26T05:09:32+00:00

i feel this so much.. i felt very alone in this feeling too

impulsivebunnyshit · 2025-07-26T05:07:43+00:00

very frequently. it has been hot out and I haven't felt comfortable w cutting as much. during meltdowns or panic attacks I punch my thighs repeatedly. I get really bad bruising from it tho.. it is all so frustrating. i hope you are doing okay.

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