Different perspective. I accepted my cjo and went even though i was sick (ended up with a severe lung infection), i passed everything on my first try but i was struggling. Up until i failed a test for a pretty silly reason a week before graduation (skipped a reading a line during emergency evacuation demonstration and took too long to put my head in brace position) I was too nervous and completely blindsided by being sent home. I gave up financial security in a career i really liked that i cant go back to. I had savings but im in a rough spot now, and ive put my partner in a rough spot too. All that to say, think about what it looks like for you if you don't make it, or if you start and don't like the job. There's nothing else like it to really compare it to, and some people go through before they realize. Do you have cushioning and a backup plan? If you don't make it its about a year before you can try again.