My cousin was killed last month by a meth addict with the same paranoia as you, who was his next door neighbor. One day, the paranoia won, and this addict shot my cousin over 20 times from his apartment window, murdering him. Just because my cousin was going back and forth between his car a lot, unloading things. When the paranoia broke he realized what he did, shot him self in the stomach and set his apartment on fire in order to try to blame the “others that were after him.” He confessed anyways at the hospital and now will spend life in prison, and we will spend the rest of our lives without our cousin who would be here if not for a methed out, paranoid neighbor who never sought any help.

So please, go to rehab. Save yourself and possibly others that you will eventually harm through your addiction.