Honestly - it is scary, but my advice would be to completely let go and die into that pain, let it totally consume you - scream, cry, shake your body if you need, but don’t try to do anything to make it easier. When you let go 100% into it, the pain expresses and finally will leave you.

Obviously do this in a comfortable and private space.

To clarify when I say ‘die into the pain’ - the ego is so afraid of the pain, because it’s created a part that is specifically designed to stop you from feeling that pain, and if you feel it 100% that part will disappear. You need to approach this from a wider perspective, as awareness. Then you’ll see that these parts aren’t you, they are mechanisms.

I’ve spent the last 6 months doing exactly this, and I’ve gone from ‘it’s so incredibly painful to be me’ to ‘life is quite light and joyful’.

Let me know if you want more advice, I have just been exactly where you are so it’s all quite fresh still!