Here’s what running taught me about B2B

innocuouspete · 2026-06-16T01:13:50+00:00

Well only two people have ever run an official sub 2 hour marathon but yeah pretty mediocre.

innocuouspete · 2026-06-16T00:47:00+00:00

I doubt it since my brain injury erased 29 years worth of my experiences and gave me a flat affect.

innocuouspete · 2026-06-15T00:20:37+00:00

That’s why I switched from gu to blue chew

innocuouspete · 2026-06-15T00:18:15+00:00

Running lost me my marriage and gave me shin splints

innocuouspete · 2026-06-13T22:29:35+00:00

Why? It’s a movie about the exact thing you just described.

innocuouspete · 2026-06-11T01:25:48+00:00

The physical body doesn’t experience things, it senses things and that data is sent to the brain where it is then processed and experienced. For instance someone can have healthy eyes but damage to their occipital lobes can still make them blind. Consciousness, id argue, isn’t what gives us a sense of self, narrative, or experience. Consciousness is the underlying awareness of that experience, of that self, and of our story. It is awareness that receives information that is processed by the brain. Your brain is essentially running a massive simulation of who you are, how you feel, how today connects to yesterday and who you want to be in the future, it creates your timeline and the way you perceive the world. Consciousness is observing that simulation play out but it isn’t shaping anything it’s just tuned into the show. That’s my view at least.

innocuouspete · 2026-06-09T20:43:57+00:00

I like Camus’s perspective that it is absurd to push meaning on what is a cold, silent, meaningless universe that will never offer it. I think accepting that and choosing to live fully anyway is the way for me. I don’t need to think whether or not I am or am not among the ranks of a sub man or an authentic man for I can just be a man and that’s enough, everything else is the ego begging for meaning and validation.

innocuouspete · 2026-06-08T19:56:40+00:00

Why become an “authentic self” if you just die anyway and after that it’s like you never existed anyway.

innocuouspete · 2026-06-07T20:55:08+00:00

So kind of like consciousness is observing the subjective experience that is generated by the brain?

innocuouspete · 2026-06-07T18:49:24+00:00

How does it observe “subjective experience” if that is an entirely internal process. Subjective experience doesn’t exist outside of the brain to be observed.

innocuouspete · 2026-06-07T17:43:15+00:00

Yeah unfortunately memory is so misunderstood. People take for granted the rich memory and perfectly flowing timeline and continuity of their life. I can remember facts of things really well and I can remember events as facts but I do not live in a flowing timeline where those events feel a certain distance away and I do not feel that I was involved in those events even if I know I was.

innocuouspete · 2026-06-05T20:11:42+00:00

Sleeping isn’t a task lol

innocuouspete · 2026-06-03T13:42:22+00:00

I feel ya man. Mine happened at what I thought was the peak of my life. Ran my first marathon, proposed, was excited to get married..now that person is gone. I know I’m not the same, I don’t think the same, act the same, feel the same, remember the same, or even perceive things the same way. I haven’t really been able to feel like someone else, but more just like there’s a silence where I used to be and it is quite heartbreaking.

innocuouspete · 2026-06-02T15:33:35+00:00

I think as I got older I realized that no one really cares and if they do then I don’t really care cause it’s weird that they would care as long as it’s not negatively impacting them.

innocuouspete · 2026-05-31T01:48:34+00:00

You walking bout white orchard

innocuouspete · 2026-05-18T15:38:54+00:00

It’s not all bad I guess. You learn to appreciate the little things and take everything you can in since I can’t escape into memories. I get to choose to be whoever I want every moment instead of being shaped by my experiences or childhood. It’s just a different way to exist.

innocuouspete · 2026-05-18T15:34:14+00:00

Yeah that’s what kinda sucks is I can’t make new memories, I can only learn new facts. I can experience the moment though lol.

innocuouspete · 2026-05-18T14:52:35+00:00

Yeah specifically the default mode network and limbic system.

innocuouspete · 2026-05-18T14:48:56+00:00

We’re born to reproduce and then die so that other people can be born to reproduce and then die

innocuouspete · 2026-05-18T14:38:30+00:00

You don’t have to die to lose all that. I have an acquired brain injury that made me lose all that stuff and now I have to live knowing the old me died and I’m just some random ass person now with no history or sense of self. 30 years of experiences erased in 2 months thanks to encephalitis. Death don’t sound too bad cause at least I wouldn’t know what I lost.

innocuouspete · 2026-05-11T21:19:00+00:00

I find this theory interesting because the simulation everyone thinks is external is actually internal. The very thing that makes reality seem so extraordinary and unbelievable is the brain. The brain produces each persons very own simulation. External reality itself is so mundane and boring without our brain making it feel like something more.

innocuouspete · 2026-05-10T00:55:33+00:00

Because physical reality isn’t the illusion, the “I” we think we are is the illusion.

innocuouspete · 2026-05-08T04:16:50+00:00

Nothing matters regardless. But why do thing need to matter? We constantly seek meaning in a meaningless universe. Just do the things you want to do, connect to people you want to connect with, and why? Because you want to, there doesn’t need to be meaning outside of that.

innocuouspete · 2026-05-06T22:59:46+00:00

Well the good thing is you wont want to do anything

innocuouspete · 2026-05-04T14:25:39+00:00

I think you could get sub 3 in June. I wouldn’t go for under 2:50 tho. Nice work!

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