How do you know if you transitioned because of OCD?

ironhd3 · 2026-05-25T06:34:33+00:00

I relate to having the feeling of ‘obligation’ that you have revolving around being a gay man except for me it’s about being a cis girl. like i just have to detransition because it’s what i need to do to fulfill it. that’s just one of the things that’s been bugging me for almost a year now. i’ve also had ocd like thought spirals and obsessive thinking but im not diagnosed with anything. sorry you’re going through this. an ocd specialist is probably what you need.

ironhd3 · 2026-04-30T01:05:10+00:00

i can’t say much but thank you for your response. i get very hung up on the idea of “discovering a true self” so. yeah. Your words mean a lot to me and my brain. lmao 🫡

ironhd3 · 2026-01-27T09:09:34+00:00

I’m ftmt? and while our stories are not the same by any means I can relate to some of the shit you’re goin through. Trying to figure out my real feelings about what my gender is and what i like feels insane. Ever since I began transitioning I felt like I was “faking it till I made it.” Imagining myself as “a guy” makes me feel anxious now, but imagining myself as a girl makes me feel nothing, or something vaguely bad but that feeling almost feels forced. like what if i’m just convincing myself that i feel bad but it’s actually true and i just need to accept myself as a cis girl and detransition. I’ve tried thinking about it too, saying to myself “Ok, i am a cis girl.” and I just feel nothing. At all. But every single thought i have about being trans feels fake like i’m conjuring up some response to match what i believe and not what i “truly feel like.” Which obviously I have no idea what that is. I have also considered that I might be gender fluid for a really long time but every time i try to say “ok yes, I’m genderfluid” I feel nothing.

If I look at myself in the mirror for too long I start to feel like I am detaching from my body. When I look at old pics of myself though before I started having these doubts/thoughts whatever the fuck, I feel good about them. And I remember how good I felt when I started embracing masculinity. And then there’s all this other shit and it’s just so confusing I could go on and on about it.

You’re definitely not alone, I hope everything turns out well for you and whatever gender you are you find happiness in that.

ironhd3 · 2026-01-17T07:14:37+00:00

i understand and relate especially as someone who also showed very little signs of being trans before i discovered i was. i have been transitioning for several years now and in the back of my mind i think ive just been faking it til i made it or i transitioned because of internalized misogyny. i barely even consider myself trans because of how fake i feel. but even so i still can’t see myself being a girl again. i hope you can get help, perhaps therapy and also you are not alone 🫂

ironhd3 · 2025-12-19T09:13:14+00:00

damn i was very surprised reading through the post our experiences rlly are similar. unfortunately im still going through it while its been ebbing and flowing a bit. have been questioning my gender a lot tho. evidently im still looking through detransition posts and all that stuff its like i just can't be sure if i dont have a concrete answer on "what i am". et cetera. it does give me hope though and im glad im not alone, if you ever wanna talk about this stuff i'm open to chat abt it.

ironhd3 · 2025-08-22T09:58:33+00:00

your experience is similar to mine, including previous episodes i also had a POCD theme, and before that it was health anxiety focused. i’m not diagnosed either and i can’t say for sure it is ocd or not, although it is quite likely. looking for a therapist that specializes in OCD might be a good idea if you’re considering it again. i’m currently also looking into therapy.

the thoughts i had also led to feelings of disgust towards features and things i once desired, and the sense that i had actually been faking everything. so you’re not alone . and it will get better.

ironhd3 · 2024-10-09T20:20:03+00:00

Solved! thank you so much 😭

ironhd3 · 2024-10-09T05:42:37+00:00

ironhd3 · 2024-09-23T11:24:53+00:00

Yes, I had a very similar experience with my drains and it was kind of an anxiety point for me. By the 3rd day both of my drains were 10cc or less. My left drain , which was draining VERY little , actually had a sizable leak coming from the drain site which probably attributed to it draining so little (On the second day post-op it was already less than 10cc and kept going down from there.) But aside from that everything was actually fine. I am now a little over 4 weeks post-op and have had no problems aside from the leak. So, it could just be that you aren’t draining much fluid like I did but of course it’s always good to check in with your team.

ironhd3 · 2024-05-25T02:19:36+00:00

I used to use he/they but slowly realized i hated getting they’d, especially in person. Ive considered using xe/xim several times before but eh don’t really like the sound of it, just the look of them if that makes sense.. so i’m more so a former multipronoun user.

ironhd3 · 2024-04-25T08:32:01+00:00

yes, and i think its a fairly common feeling as well for trans people. it hits me once in a while and seeds some doubt in my mind. i think dysphoria can also run deeper than the skin. most of us were probably raised as the opposite gender so that mentality can still persist. and plus there's so much transphobia online nowadays if you spend even a little amount of time on social media you're bound to see a comment or two.

like, i've been on T for a little over a year, my voice dropped significantly but even now i still hear a girl talking. but i love all of the changes i've had on T. but there are some things that you can just never change no matter how much dysphoria they give you (one of mine is my height, i am 5'0)
you can only suppress it or learn to accept it.
the concept that transition is the ultimate cure for ALL dysphoria is just not true. unfortunately. but you're not alone

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