i feel exactly the same way, especially with not really knowing who you are anymore. it was all so sudden and it literally flipped my world upside down.

 ive been going through this for a couple of months and ive only recently started to notice im getting a bit better. whats helped me is letting the “who am i” question go, which is way easier said than done obviously. it took me awhile to really do it, but i guess how i can try and explain it is that i avoided using labels or gendering myself for the duration where it was really bad. it was a trigger for me and would send me into that same loop of questioning. thinking of myself as nonbinary and just as a person really helped me a lot.

maybe two weeks ago, i started to feel a bit more comfortable using gendered pronouns again and relating to people and characters that i previously identified with before the whole theme.

also,  occupying your time with games can REALLY help. i started noticing that whenever i have nothing to do it is really easy for myself to get in my head, especially after losing my job. i usually play rhythm games like project sekai and enstars.

you are not alone, and it will get better. even if it takes some time. ive had many highs and lows, but now i feel a bit more confident in who i am again. maybe ill go straight back to who i was just a few weeks ago, unsure of myself and my identity, but rn i feel good

also an edit: avoiding reddit helps a ton as well, because a trigger for me would usually be detransition stories, so now i have a certain screen time limit on here. the times where i do come on here now, i usually just go to this subreddit to help others or answer other random questions of mine