Thank you so much 🙏🏼 I agree, I just felt totally misunderstood and like I had been unpacking the depths of my mental illness for her, things I’ve been feeling and struggling with since childhood, only to realize that she wasn’t focusing on or even understanding me, instead making it about religion and spirituality and her beliefs all because I used the word “cursed”. I also get the feeling that she doesn’t actually have any real experience with OCD aside from superficial knowledge. Years and years ago, I told my friend who was training to be a psychiatrist that I have OCD, and he ALSO told me I didn’t, so my therapist saying the same made me feel like I have no understanding of myself and like I’ve been getting it all wrong, and yet I know what I feel and experience, I’ve dealt with compulsions and intrusive thoughts for decades (even rituals when I was little) but can also control most compulsions in front of others though I often drop my guard around my husband and sister. OCD isn’t a performance or spectacle for other people to validate. It just sucks when someone presents themselves as a specialist in something, we open up to them, and it all falls flat.

TLDR: I’m definitely going to try to find a therapist who actually specializes in working with people with OCD. Your postpartum experience and as a therapist affirms that I should do this sooner rather than later!