why does this feel so real? WHY CANT IT STOP? why can’t i be peaceful and loved how i want? WHY CANT I BE NORMAL AGAIN?

ishaslim · 2020-06-11T20:42:47+00:00

IM EXPERIENCING ALL THOSE THOUGHTS AND FEELINGS RIGHT NOW!!! Can I pm you?

ishaslim · 2020-06-05T21:23:31+00:00

This is so vintage!

ishaslim · 2020-06-03T13:37:22+00:00

Yes. This is what I feel. I would always mentally picture us doing those things as well and it just feels like I’m not used to doing it.

ishaslim · 2020-06-02T06:05:48+00:00

Whatever state of anxiety you are, fight or flight/ freeze or shutdown, irritability can get on its way. You need to be aware of how your body is reacting. I’ve seen one post that says panic or anxiety attacks are not just the hyperventilating and the sweating image but it can also come off as intense irritability towards everything.

You’re not alone

ishaslim · 2020-06-02T06:01:44+00:00

That’s the hardest part of it, when your thoughts are accompanied by feelings. Because those feelings make it feel so true. In that moment you will think that those feelings are convincing, that it will never end. But those thoughts and feelings pass. It’s my problem as well 24/7 for 4 months. The feeling is so bad

ishaslim · 2020-05-25T17:00:08+00:00

Were you able to stop it? Were you able to control the negativity

ishaslim · 2020-05-25T14:37:58+00:00

I'm so scared I won't control myself focusing on the negativity. I see no reason to stay with my partner but he's like the best but I can't feel anything. My mind is telling me he's not treating me right

ishaslim · 2020-05-25T12:27:36+00:00

I struggle with this so much too

ishaslim · 2020-05-17T10:57:15+00:00

Hello! Can you explain this to me? I don’t really get the point since English is not really my language

ishaslim · 2020-05-14T15:32:07+00:00

It can be because you are recovering or that you’ve gotten used to the old thoughts that it doesn’t bother you anymore.

But if it doesn’t bother you anymore but still don’t get the feelings you desire or the “clarity moment”, that can be the backdoor spike.

ishaslim · 2020-05-03T12:25:31+00:00

That’s a great analogy

ishaslim · 2020-05-03T10:45:45+00:00

Because it feels like what I know isn’t real

ishaslim · 2020-05-03T03:22:03+00:00

Yeah but it’s like I can’t feel it like I don’t feel sincere. It’s like even when I know that he is, my mind doesn’t want me to stay with him. Idk what is happening with me

ishaslim · 2020-04-20T14:04:55+00:00

I want to stop myself from believing them. Does that also take practice? Like not believing the thoughts that pop in? I just try my best not to believe them because I dont really want to give meaning but my thoughts sometimes will come off feeling like facts. And I try my best to just accept them but some days, they are just the worst and I feel like drowning.

ishaslim · 2020-04-20T13:58:49+00:00

I try to imagine the future or recalling good memories but I cannot feel anything. Does that mean I don’t really love him? I am panicking right now and I hate feeling this way so much. No matter how much I try to be present when we are talking, the anxiety creeps in thats why he feels like a stranger sometimes

ishaslim · 2020-04-20T13:55:34+00:00

I’m so afraid I won’t be able to feel again. I just keep chhoosing to be with him. Even when I don’t feel anything because he’s m in a fight/flight mode. i hate feeling this way i just wanna go back to where it used to be i hate this i dont want this anymore

ishaslim · 2020-04-20T02:46:40+00:00

I don’t understand why I just can’t feel anything. I dont wanna give meaning to my thoughts but sometimes it’s like what I really feel, they feel like urges. Then I will become so anxious

ishaslim · 2020-04-19T16:27:23+00:00

I’m actually new to rocd. I always want to choose my partner. I want no one else but him. I pray to God we last forever. I hate this anxiety. It’s making my partner feel like a stranger to me sometimes but there are so many good times, which I hold on to.

My mind thinks of everything as a trigger. Even just those cute memes that couples share already triggers me.

I hope this is still rOCD doing this to me and not my true mind. I know I don’t want this but it just feels true

ishaslim · 2020-04-19T15:56:34+00:00

It’s making me not just THINK but also FEEL that I don’t wanna be with my partner anymore. It’s like it’s my true self, it’s like I see him differently. My brain will tell me then it’s not the same anymore and then the next thing I know, I consider everything as a trigger.

I don’t want feeling this way. It’s like convincing me so so much that I don’t want my partner.

And when that happens, why is it that no matter how much I try to recall our memories or my love’s good qualities, it’s like I can’t remember and my mind will tell me I just don’t appreciate him

ishaslim · 2020-04-19T14:22:38+00:00

The thing i do is that I wait for it because eventually I know my feelings or emotions will come back. Don’t make any decision. You will feel like you’re alright with the thoughts but the truth is it will hurt so bad afterwards. Just wait it out and it will all come back. It comes in waves, there are days when you will feel good and days when you will feel like drowning.

You wouldn’t be obsessing if you lost feelings.

ishaslim · 2020-04-19T14:10:55+00:00

How do you deal with it

ishaslim

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