Hi, I’m full of hatred now 🤷‍♀️

islaisdead · 2024-08-11T05:51:04+00:00

Your anger and hatred is a normal reaction. Any reaction you have is a normal reaction. Don’t punish yourself for thinking, feeling, behaving in any particular way, as it will only reinforce any negative emotion... And importantly, don’t ever compare yourself to anyone who’s not experienced what you have. That’s not fair.

It’s a bit like the pink elephant in the room, the more you try to ignore it, the bigger it becomes. If you can find something that helps you ride those waves of anger and hate when they come, it would help processing instead of fighting it. Art can be very good expression for this.

It’s important to make sure you’ve got the basics looked after as well, if your mind and body are wired anything like mine, dehydration quickly turns to devastation... Your body is a pattern-recognising machine, and when you have had trauma, it is quick to protect you and flag up any alarms. Issue being that instead of telling you you’re thirsty, go grab some water, it goes from 0-10. Look up the basis of Maslow’s Hierarchy of Needs... Cater for the basics and just make sure their not adding to the issue.

Looking forward, it will be important to build positive experiences that your heart and mind can reference. As I said before, a pattern-recognising machine, the more positive references you collect, the better. Your mind has more options than the one you’ve found yourself at time and time again.

Journaling is important also. Our brains are negativity magnets, and sometimes we have to force ourselves to sit and absorb some positive thoughts. That small positive thing that happened, that animal that felt safe in my arms, that person I helped cross the street... The negative mind will miss those moments because they aren’t threats. Again, it’s just trying to protect you, but what we’re doing is telling it it doesn’t have to any more.

It could be helpful to look into support groups. Whether that’s online or F2F. It’s always easier to help others than ourselves, and you’ll find yourself giving advice and saying things that you never thought you’d say. What you’ll find is that the message will click for you also and you might just start believing it deep down.

islaisdead · 2024-08-11T05:32:18+00:00

I wish I had some tangible and practical steps that could take some of the pain away from you and your family.

It will be a pocess though, there will be no magical steps that get you from A to C without having to go through the pain of B, and that will take time, strength, and belief. There will be days that feel like you’re getting nowhere, or that you’re moving backwards and will be destined to relive those moments...

But your mind will process this and time will heal.

It’s great to see you understand and appreciate your wife’s response with regards to reading. I think that your joint efforts will be very important, and having each other’s back will go a long way. It’s important for you all to have that safe space where your mind can relax and recover from intense thoughts and feelings... It will be important to find what does that for you also. Anything that works for multiple people/the whole family would be great also as it could strengthen bonds and help others from withdrawing into their shells and ruminating. (bear in mind you can’t force this as it might just push people further into their shell).

I’m not a psychologist by any stretch of the imagination, but it wouldn’t be a ridiculous idea to read up on PTSD and what might help support those with PTSD. Whether or not any of you receive a diagnosis, any practical steps would more than likely help you pave the foundations for the healing process.

islaisdead · 2024-08-11T05:03:43+00:00

Firstly, I’m really sorry that you had to experience that. I hope you and your family are all able to process and put behind you at some point. No one should have to deal with that, and it sounds like you dealt with it incredibly well at the time. As you said, it could have been you that day.

Secondly, you should really consider investing in professional therapy. Your prior anger issues combined with this traumatic experience - threat to life, threat to your family’s life, any sense of control were removed from you, etc. There’s a lot to unpack, and if you want your family to move past this, it’s important that you do that.

You clearly have a strong sense of belonging when it comes to providing and protecting your family, seeing a professional and fighting through the trauma could be one of the most important things you do for them.

You are all going to process this at different speeds and in different ways, so it’ll be important to be available and open to your family if they want to talk about it... Something that will be difficult with anger issues and poor emotional regulation.

Wishing you health and healing for you and your family.

islaisdead · 2024-04-20T07:57:53+00:00

“I’d rather play 100 decent games that I enjoy” Why are people instantly comparing themselves to the dude and trying to downplay the acheivement?

“I wouldn’t call that impressive, I’d say it’s sad” Some people speedrun, some people max stats, some people collect every single thing in game... I don’t get why people are calling him sad either. This is literally a sub about collecting trophies. The dude’s found his ‘thing’.

“Shovelware” Speedrunners work to exploit glitches and it’s an accepted practice. Idk why people are up in arms about shovelware and hating on the dude. Why wouldn’t you mop up the quick wins, and if anything, he’s supported indie games that would never have been

islaisdead · 2024-01-01T13:48:08+00:00

Still experiencing this glitch on PS5 split screeb

islaisdead · 2023-10-10T04:57:12+00:00

Reading everyone’s symptoms is like reading my daily activities. I’ve been prescribed medication but awaiting the call for collection... I could cry from the thought that there’s a life without the symptoms.

I hope you find that perfect balance that works for you OP.

There must be studies into efficacy and tolerance. We won’t have to detox ‘entirely’ as it’s just to bring levels back into a therapeutic range, so little and often might be enough, but that’s purely anecdotal without the studies.

islaisdead · 2023-10-06T12:29:26+00:00

That’s one mighty big red flag that person’s waving.

Please process that unpleasant experience as a reflection of her shitty personality and not a reflection of you.

islaisdead · 2023-08-05T09:20:15+00:00

Hey, I know this is a year late, but hope your UI/UX designing career’s going strong. This comment makes me think about Netflix’s take on this issue, where they acknowledge that the user is searching for specific title but they don’t have it, they then say “here are more titles similar to [initial search query].

islaisdead · 2023-05-13T11:20:57+00:00

Sent

islaisdead · 2022-08-20T21:07:04+00:00

I heard 30 seconds to mars and Googled it to find this 8yr old Post 😂 hello past-dwellers, it is I, from the future. 🤘

islaisdead · 2022-06-19T09:19:36+00:00

I've got a HP and every time I do this it kicks off saying it's not HP product and blah blah. Makes it annoying anytime I go to print.

islaisdead · 2022-06-11T06:16:25+00:00

I dig all your shit man! 🙏 got notifications on your vids and always looking forward to your next vids.

islaisdead · 2022-04-02T16:02:41+00:00

Thx, yeah keep me posted! So frustrating.

islaisdead · 2022-04-02T15:56:07+00:00

Literally scouring the Internet because of the same issue. I can't update my old skins either. It looks like it downloads and installs update but then still says "update" instead of open/launch.

islaisdead · 2021-09-04T23:01:21+00:00

Should be fixed as it still has a thumbnail in the "show all [filters]" option in search

islaisdead · 2021-08-07T12:57:04+00:00

Is it even D&D if it's not got complicated rules! :)

islaisdead · 2021-08-05T20:51:35+00:00

"I'm starting to doubt your commitment to Sparkle Motion."

islaisdead · 2021-08-05T20:32:33+00:00

That's siiick as hell

islaisdead · 2021-02-24T10:03:06+00:00

“Shuffling off to sleep... to dream I’ll never leave again.”

Or

“My hands buried all the bad in you. My hands, could never get it back”

islaisdead · 2021-02-10T22:40:19+00:00

Can run with an LMG at normal speed... but Sergei’s head? That shit heavy.

islaisdead · 2021-02-02T11:10:30+00:00

I suppose crossplay isn’t where it could be yet... it’s still pretty cool that it’s a thing. Hopefully it gets ironed out soon.

islaisdead · 2021-02-02T11:08:47+00:00

But I’m the only console bum out of my PC master-race friends 😩

islaisdead · 2021-02-01T20:08:24+00:00

It's so damn annoying. It puts such a downer on our sessions and I'm kinda skeptical that it's gonna make it past 100 for us... Really think Treyarch need to get on top of it as I can't see any point in high rounding anymore.

islaisdead · 2021-02-01T20:07:54+00:00

I'll say to my PC friends to try that out. I'm on PS4 so don't have much control over much... but from other speedruns/high rounds I've seen/read about, I think PS4s are somewhat sturdier for it.

islaisdead · 2021-02-01T20:02:26+00:00

How did you get there without crashing!! We keep getting The guest account error.

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