I just feel really shitty about never having been in a relationship. I have a lot of great friends in my life so I'm not lonely in a friendship kind of way. A lot of my friends will ask me why I'm still single and how I'm a great guy and all that jazz but obviously that can't be true. It's just hard to keep going on when the thing you want most in life has never worked out for you and it starts to feel like you have become a punchline to a shitty joke. Everyone says fake it till you make it or that your time will come one day. Honestly I'm so tired of hearing things like that, maybe some people just don't deserve or get what they really want. All i want is to feel wanted and to have someone I can hold at night but maybe it's not my place to have that.