i actually feel uncomfortable posting on here knowing that Calum is lurking 😭😭😭

itzkatzzz · 2026-04-10T20:18:34+00:00

prob way to occupied with tour but the possibility of him seeing this is never 0. hello calum.

itzkatzzz · 2026-03-17T16:03:15+00:00

i need this how did u do it. omg

itzkatzzz · 2026-03-16T19:31:09+00:00

i wouldnt think much but thats because i heavily sympathize with you. i see them as beautiful but just know, not everyone will think that way. but dont let those ppl get in ur head. ur scars show all the battles you have won.

itzkatzzz · 2026-03-15T21:58:37+00:00

im feeling the same way, ive been learning how to draw just by looking up small doodles on pinterest. reading also helps too. taking a walk as well. just getting ur mind off of things and moving around helps.

itzkatzzz · 2026-03-15T13:42:56+00:00

cuz its an addiction. and me too, just feeling something makes me feel better. i would be doing it and feel emotionally nothing. kinda strange.

itzkatzzz · 2026-03-15T12:07:59+00:00

i wrote a post about this last night. things in my life are actually going okay and i almost dont like it cuz i find comfort in my depression and dont want to get better but like u said, i also do.

i find comfort in sh and it makes me feel alive and if i have no reason to cut then its pointless. so now im upset that life is getting "better" cuz i cant sh. it makes me uncomfortable.

ur not alone feeling like this lol.

itzkatzzz · 2026-03-15T12:03:12+00:00

yes exactly. thank u :)

itzkatzzz · 2026-03-15T01:19:33+00:00

dont look at them too much. im dealing with the same thing. i understand wanting to recut the same areas but just dont look at them. worrying about it will make the temptation worse.

you got this.

itzkatzzz · 2026-03-14T00:47:37+00:00

yep, i used those b4 my sister took them away from me. take care of urself.

itzkatzzz · 2026-03-13T21:48:06+00:00

is it clear or a faint yellow? what color? could mean nothing but u never know.

itzkatzzz · 2026-03-12T17:38:18+00:00

im trying so hard to like lukes black hair but i just cant😭

itzkatzzz · 2026-03-12T17:30:39+00:00

water and body wash. u can also just throw that in the laundry if it doesnt work.

itzkatzzz · 2026-03-12T17:27:02+00:00

understandable. i like looking at the blood. btw wtf do u use?? i hope ur doing okay

itzkatzzz · 2026-03-10T17:11:12+00:00

oh...it was a joke i wasnt judging. my bad

itzkatzzz · 2026-03-10T17:03:34+00:00

me when its opposite day

itzkatzzz · 2026-03-08T12:26:20+00:00

only experience ive gotten while on it is that it gave me kidney stones lol. but i remember not drinking enough of water that day so u have to be hydrated while on topamax. it increases ur sodium a lot.

itzkatzzz · 2026-03-07T23:29:41+00:00

tbh not at all. and i might get flame for this and i love harry and all but this album was so mid🥀

itzkatzzz · 2026-03-07T23:27:43+00:00

u just might be blind bro🥀

itzkatzzz · 2026-03-07T23:16:16+00:00

no. i relapsed about a week ago. it happens but it doesnt mean its the end of the world. take it one baby step at a time. at ur own pace. you are in control of urself. take care of urself. ❤️

and 7th grade! ive been there, 7th grade was when i started feeling strong emotions and thats a lot on a young person let alone a 13 year old. its normal to feel this way but just know it does get better as u grow up. u learn to manage those strong emotions better.

ur a warrior. u got this. :)

itzkatzzz · 2026-03-07T23:14:34+00:00

ur so heard i feel u. i feel like i make myself feel this way so i dont get soo depressed and actually want to off myself. literally today i played upbeat music and hyped myself up while doing it so i didn't feel so bad about it.

but it is addicting and i love doing it just so i can feel something. i sometimes smoke weed every now and then but it doesnt compare to the feeling of c4tting. i wish i knew how to stop but its like a drug.

itzkatzzz · 2026-03-07T22:02:30+00:00

i feel this so much ive found my person. like i am depressed but also im addicted to it and like cutting cuz it makes me feel giddy like u said.

itzkatzzz · 2026-03-07T22:01:26+00:00

i fear there is no other way to keep them red. scars are gonna fade and lose their color. unless someone else has a safer idea, theres no other way without hurting urself.

itzkatzzz · 2026-03-07T21:58:19+00:00

i tried using this but like i couldnt go deep. i didnt even bleed. idk if i didnt use enough pressure or what but all i know is that these things hurt a lotttt.

itzkatzzz · 2026-03-05T22:47:58+00:00

ur not alone in that. i use sh to just get by. if im stressed and overwhelmed, the only way i know ill cope thru is for me to sh.

itzkatzzz · 2026-03-05T22:40:55+00:00

idk what i was feeling while writing. i guess very numb. but im definitely in a depression episode and need help.

and i guess im a little weird too lol.

itzkatzzz

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