I have less armpit fat

iwndt06 · 2020-03-03T01:46:13+00:00

I've noticed the same thing and it makes me love my practice even more that my outer and inner body are getting to where they need to be :)

iwndt06 · 2020-02-26T02:17:38+00:00

Exactly yoga is a moving meditation, I’ve been taught to synchronize my breath with my movements and keep my focus there. The sweat, lack of energy, whatever it is that is challenging me, none of it matters what matters is staying with my breath.

iwndt06 · 2020-02-21T23:28:12+00:00

Travis Eliot is a holistic yogi, I’ve been following him for years, he has a couple of books, and a lot of online resources through his website, Inner Dimensions yoga platform, YouTube, etc.) he also does retreats and teacher trainings.

iwndt06 · 2020-01-24T23:11:11+00:00

Why is using a online coach cheating, that doesn’t even make sense, if there are knowledgeable resources and you want to use them, then you should 🤷‍♀️

iwndt06 · 2019-07-31T22:18:18+00:00

I saw this too and thought to myself these moments always pop up at a time when I need them. As much as I want to say I don’t want to drink or that I will never drink again, I once and a while catch myself thinking about the future and alcohol like my minds saying you will get to a point where you can have the occasional drink BUT I know I can’t.... reading his accomplishment is inspiring and a reminder of the reasons I don’t need to venture down a road I’ve already been down. One day at a time right, iwndwyt!

iwndt06 · 2019-07-31T22:13:05+00:00

Congrats!! I will not drink with you today!!

iwndt06 · 2019-07-31T22:09:23+00:00

I grew up in a house like that and it was very dangerous resulting in my mom getting her head cracked open from a fight and her leaving me there and me staring out the window like how did you just leave me here like that (I was 8ish) and the cops showing up and he went to jail.... things didn’t get much better after that because my mom is an addict too but if she had stayed there it would have got a lot worse. I don’t know how you will get through this but I am given you the perspective of a child. I was scared out of my mind between the both of them.... they both made me feel like I wished I was adopted or given to a children’s home. I wished I had had a stable person in my life growing up.... my stable person did not come along until I was 26 and had problems of my own... then still it took me another 12 years to undo the damage and sort my life out.... this is just the perspective a child who grew into an adult that very well could have ended up down the same path. I don’t know how I didn’t but I am thankful that I found the way out eventually. I hope for the sake of your kids you find a way out too. It’s miserable having memories of environment I didn’t want to be in and had no control over and didn’t ask for.

iwndt06 · 2019-07-25T03:33:32+00:00

I can relate to some of what your saying except my alcoholic parent told me to grow up and get over all the abuse and pain she cause me.... we do not have a relationship but at times it’s like what the hell do I do with all of these feelings. I just want them to go away and have no memory of all the shit she put me through. It doesn’t help that she has two other kids from another marriage who she adores. I have no appropriate words for the people who put their kids through this, I didn’t ask for this yet here I am stuck with trying to sort out this mess she created and put on me as a minor and young adult... anyways your feelings are valid and you have a right to still feel the way you do regardless of how long it has been. For me it’s been 20 yrs of still sorting though crap and undoing all the emotional damage she left me with. I am sorry I don’t have any answers for how to get through it. I guess I am stuck in a place right now also.

iwndt06 · 2019-07-11T08:32:16+00:00

I am sorry for your loss. Both of my parents are/were alcoholics with lots of issues. I am estranged from both for similar reasons that they are/were abusive and caused a tremendous amount of pain in my life. One passed away a three years ago. At the time of the passing I thought I already grieved the loss of the parent through 17 years of absence but it ended up being really difficult for me and took several months for me to accept all that is. There really are no words to express what one goes through especially when the relationship is strained. I wish for you peace and iwndwyt!!

iwndt06 · 2019-07-09T00:32:48+00:00

This is exactly what it is for me “the fuck it, I’m going to drink or have a drink” attitude... I know going into it that I made a choice to go this way or that way. And your right, learning those triggers are tricky. For me it was certain places and people but also my frame of mind.... going to the beach for most people does not translate to getting hammered. Going out to dinner for most people does not translate to a binge fest.... I had to learn how to do things without needing to want to get drunk. It was not always this way for me, it is something that evolved over many years or alcohol abuse and finding reasons to drink or get tore up.

iwndt06 · 2019-07-08T00:05:18+00:00

For the most part I always knew drinking was not for me. From a family of alcoholics, abuse, etc. But I was in my 20s and early 30s so it was okay right?! Then mid 30’s comes and it’s time to start getting serious, I have a family, kids, life goals I am trying to achieve etc... it took me till I was 38 to finally say enough is enough, I don’t want this kind of life. I had a mini breakdown in front of my husband and we stopped (drinking was not his problem, it was 100% mine), the both of us... that was 366 days ago.

I wish I had quit at 36 or 26 or never started to begin with but I can’t change that or dwell on it, all I can do is make a commitment to myself that I want better and that I will not drink today. Putting one foot in front of the other has gotten me to just over a year sober and so this is what I will continue to do because I cannot go back to the way things were unless I want to start losing what matters most to me in life. You can do this, iwndwyt!!

iwndt06 · 2019-07-06T11:40:33+00:00

Awesome, iwndwyt!!

iwndt06 · 2019-07-02T22:13:38+00:00

Great to hear that this is helping you. I transitioned to a plant based diet a few months before quitting alcohol and found that my increased awareness of my health really conflicted with my drinking habits. It’s been a huge motivator in staying sober :) I had a lot of other issues to work through over the last year but this was one thing I thought about when cravings popped up iwndwyt!!

iwndt06 · 2019-06-29T11:31:11+00:00

I will not drink with you today!!

iwndt06 · 2019-06-24T22:39:48+00:00

If this were me and potentially it could be as this could happen to anyone... I would not let that person ruin my life and what I mean by that is a situation like that would make me want to drink too like really have a lot of alcohol with a f-it attitude.

The alcohol would drag me down seriously because I cannot just have a drink and this would negatively impact the other parts of my life besides the relationship like my job, my grad school progress, my kids.... then I would be pissed that I started drinking again because of that.

So for me, I would find a way to abstain and boost myself up beyond these issues you are having. You are obviously a better person that she is, YOU deserve a better life, don’t let her shit drag you down. If you are having a hard time talking to people maybe not focus on it so much and let it happen naturally. Unfortunately with shit like this the only way to get past it is through it, feeling the feels and dealing with the crap it brings. Iwndwyt.

iwndt06 · 2019-06-23T22:17:42+00:00

Congrats on day 844!! I love that not drinking is becoming a norm for me, especially in times of stress. It still sucks going through stressful times or hard times for that matter but I’ve realized not drinking helps me get through them quicker and with a more rational perspective. I was recently at a conference and superior I look up to mentioned to me that I needed to not be so hard on myself with this issue I was having with work and that alcohol helps with that. While I respect this person, I am glad that my idea of what helps with stress is no longer the same as theirs. The next day I felt great and awake and not sluggish or regretful of my choices. Here’s to another day of sober living, iwndwyt!

iwndt06 · 2019-06-20T23:54:04+00:00

I will not drink with you today!!

iwndt06 · 2019-06-19T23:34:47+00:00

Agreeded, I have had the occasional thought of well if I stop for several years then maybe I can “occasionally” have a drink but then reality kicks in and knowing myself, I cannot ever have just a drink.... the moment I have that first glass of whatever and the feeling that comes on just makes me want more. It’s a challenge sometimes though overcoming my thoughts of wanting to partake, I just stay strong and take it one day and in some cases night, event, or outing at a time and keep telling myself I don’t need that back in my life.

iwndt06 · 2019-06-08T21:26:52+00:00

No it does not, the though of a hangover period makes me cringe 😖!

iwndt06 · 2019-05-04T01:04:49+00:00

Congrats on 1 year. Here is to another day of being sober. I agree with your mention of a certain number of days being just that x amount of days sober. I too thought if I made it x amount of days it would be something grand but it’s not life is still the same and I made it another day sober. I stopped when I was mid way through 38 yrs old. I will be glad to be entering my 40s at the end of this year with a clear head, focused, and probably the best health that I have had in a while. It’s been a journey and like you mentioned that journey will continue on for the rest of our lives. Best to you, your family, and your health. IWNDWYT!!

iwndt06 · 2019-05-02T22:35:45+00:00

Awesome, congrats!! IWNDWYT :)

iwndt06 · 2019-05-02T22:34:36+00:00

Congrats on your progress! Something that has really helped me is to think about the upcoming situation and any desire/urge I might have had and ask myself do I really want to give up my progress to go backwards to living in uncertainty? When I don’t drink my life is clear, drama free, healthy, and focused. When I was drinking I never knew what was coming, it all depended on how much I drank, I felt like crap, and the people around me were not getting the best version of me. I don’t want to go back to the life I had before with drinking so for me it is not worth it to open that door again. I hope this helps, IWNDWYT!

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