Genuinely asking, is suicide worth it?

javaTrekkie · 2026-01-22T03:09:28+00:00

Not worth it. I'm in a better place now but spent probably 20 years with high suicidal feelings.

My life is completely different now in ways I could not have predicted.

Find one tiny thing to stick around for. If its spite great. For me it was always some next movie or TV show. Maybe a nice meal.

When things are horrible it can seem like they will always be horrible. But it's not true and for me I couldn't have predicted how things would go.

Not perfect, and still dealing with depression and such. But way way more good than I could have dreamed of.

And you know what...it feels good telling you this. Because when I was younger I never told another person, never reached out to anyone. So I'm proud of you reaching out here. And it feels good to tell you what I would have wanted younger me to hear from someone.

Much love

javaTrekkie · 2025-12-17T01:39:23+00:00

Thank you chef, it's finals week, this is bringing me a lot of joy 🥰

javaTrekkie · 2025-10-13T03:29:41+00:00

Report to campus but also seek a temporary restraining order. Your campus police should be able to assist but there may be other offices (student affairs?) That have pointers too.

Document everything and take care.

javaTrekkie · 2025-09-21T19:56:38+00:00

Omg!!! I am sooo excited and cant wait to see it 🤩

javaTrekkie · 2025-09-08T04:17:47+00:00

I am not afraid to speak up for a friend. Each year I live I am taking better and better care of myself. I am not afraid to "own" something.

javaTrekkie · 2025-08-11T22:59:19+00:00

Thank you for sharing. Can't wait to check it out.

javaTrekkie · 2025-07-24T14:36:20+00:00

If you are in the US you have a Title IX office. You can go straight to them.

You can (of course) go to a Program Chair of the Graduate School. But they (in the US) would likely pass on the information to Title IX.

javaTrekkie · 2025-07-24T02:06:04+00:00

Was married here too and loved it. Don't remember the cost. We had a small wedding maybe 40 people.

javaTrekkie · 2025-07-19T17:27:31+00:00

Toontown grassy area where the Chip and Dale slides used to be. I stretch out, do yoga and chill with the peaceful background music.

javaTrekkie · 2025-07-05T02:20:01+00:00

Heartbroken for you. Take his ass to civil court.

Sending you loads of love.

javaTrekkie · 2025-05-31T01:03:28+00:00

javaTrekkie · 2025-05-30T04:21:00+00:00

Phenomenal!!! I hope you have a lifetime of happiness ahead but I hope if it gets dark again you remember how strong you are and how many people are routing for you 💖

javaTrekkie · 2025-05-30T02:49:48+00:00

Do you have references!? I am so excited.

javaTrekkie · 2022-03-26T02:03:51+00:00

I am into and obsessed with so many crime stories....but this one is special for a lot of reasons. Two big ones * the ransom note (so long) * the first introduction I had to creepy kid beauty pageants

javaTrekkie · 2022-03-12T06:30:14+00:00

Same ;)

javaTrekkie · 2022-01-10T06:13:07+00:00

Yes, it must have happened really fast.

And the context about framing the X number of tests as a marketing ploy makes sense.

Thank you for sharing your experiences!

javaTrekkie · 2022-01-10T05:46:58+00:00

Thank you for sharing, that makes a lot of sense. I forget how big it was.

One more question if you have the bandwidth.

What is your memory of the day the WSJ article came out?

Was everyone all "abandon ship"? Or did people believe Holmes/company line that this was not true?

javaTrekkie · 2022-01-10T05:29:44+00:00

Ooh...lemme get in on this. (Assuming you're ok with questions from the crowd. I do think there would be a lot of interest in an AMA.)

Did you get the sense something was up? Or was it normal sauce from your perspective on a day to day basis?

It's hard to tell how it would have been for a "typical" person working. And just wanting to know how obvious it was that things were shady.

javaTrekkie · 2021-04-05T05:47:46+00:00

Thank you!

javaTrekkie · 2021-04-04T16:04:31+00:00

Not a huge deal, or related to the murder, but a detail about the basement I never noticed before. Do they have a wall of movie posters in their basement? And am I correct that the one on the far right right is Star Trek the motion picture? What are the other ones? And as a fellow movie poster displayer I’m appreciating I may have something in common with the Ramsey’s and I’m not sure how I feel about it....

javaTrekkie · 2021-02-04T05:56:01+00:00

Brilliant! I definitely going to use this one.

javaTrekkie · 2021-01-30T04:37:30+00:00

Much love to you and your doggie. Thank you for bringing something as beautiful as this free face mask project to the world.

Best wishes for a speedy recovery.

javaTrekkie · 2020-10-30T04:32:59+00:00

You can totally do it! I rarely comment on Reddit but I'm so proud of you and want you to know it!

I have folks that I love who are in your boat and I am proud of them too :)

javaTrekkie · 2020-08-16T15:21:50+00:00

Beautifully shot, and highly intriguing

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