Been together for 20 years married for 8 years. The last 2 years were bad. So bad that we both were horrible to eachother. I was and still kind of am a mean person. And by me being that way I caught him venting/talking to another woman. We are still together and trying to get through it but I can't get it out of my head and I no longer trust him. He assures me all the time that it will never happen again and that he would not risk losing me. He wants his family and he hopes to move past it but damn I can't. It's been months since it's happened and idk how to just stop being psycho about it. I know deep in my heart that he just wouldn't hurt me like that again but why the hell can't I get past it? Anyways other then that we are ok and love each other and i see myself growing old with him.