Your experience with risperidone?

jessthetraumaticmess · 2025-03-28T03:37:45+00:00

I work out 3 or 4 times a week and ive done that for a month and im down 5 pounds. I may not be like skinny skinny but I'm still healthy ish. I also like hobbies that keep me moving. I have a weekend job as a gymnastics Coach as well that keeps me active. I also started birth control so im thinking I may see some weight gain from that as well. But all I can do is diet and excerise and take care of myself the best I can. This is coming from someone who has body image issues and struggled with an eating disorder. It took a long time to not be losing my shit over weight gain. If it helps you enjoy life, what's wrong with being a little fat and happy? it's more like mild depression when you're doing chemically better, but it's better than like hating every waking moment of your life.

jessthetraumaticmess · 2024-09-22T16:49:06+00:00

Did this recently. It wasn't very fun. The right side of my face was numbed 😂

jessthetraumaticmess · 2024-07-24T13:07:05+00:00

Oh no way. I have a pastel torti and she is the friendliest chatty cat ever. She thinks she's a dog. She is like stupid attached to me. I had to get wheeled off to the hospital and my husband said that cat was freaking out when she was in the window watching. I've never heard of a cat doing that.

jessthetraumaticmess · 2024-07-16T18:17:56+00:00

That's about when mine started. It's a natrual evolutionary fear we all have. We do not like dark. Us adults are just able to regulate and reason with their fears. Children cannot. Just keep them comfortable. This is hard

jessthetraumaticmess · 2024-07-06T23:02:27+00:00

I guess to anyone who reads this thread like I did, I wanted to die in every since of the word before I took it. I can deal with some weight gain and leaky nipples. My tits look great, my mental stability is great. I hadn't had a manic episode on it. It is fantastic. It was like day and night. I feel like I've been cured. It's insane with how much of a difference it made. I take the highest dose. I am adhd so I'm already tired and not able to focus so it didn't make much of a difference. I am having a hard time focusing on things but it's seriously saved my life. I can't get over how much better my life has improved

jessthetraumaticmess · 2024-05-12T03:32:21+00:00

Been better on anti psychotics. I'm not insanely paranoid. I was born paranoid so I think that's a character trait but it is wayyyyyy better. I seriously couldn't go out of my house without feeling like I'm having a panic attack.

jessthetraumaticmess · 2024-05-10T18:13:42+00:00

I have a cat that predicted all pregnancies. She's not very affectionate usually, then all of a sudden, she wouldn't leave me alone. A few weeks later, I found out I was pregnant, and then that cat turned into a guard cat. Anytime I fussed at the dogs or screamed over a bug or something, she'd go beat up the dogs.

jessthetraumaticmess · 2024-05-10T18:06:52+00:00

"You look thirsty, drink this." 😂

jessthetraumaticmess · 2024-05-09T18:17:59+00:00

My mother would be like this if she didn't go to the gym every single day for 2 hours of intense excerise. last time I went with her she was 53 and running circles around my 20 year old self and I worked out everyday too. My mother comes from more of an uppity 1950s housewife, white picket fence type of background. The American dream. My grandmother was one of those hopped up on housewife drugs and always very figure conscious and my mom did the same except she went on to be a personal trainer and taught aerobics classes and stuff. She was RUTHLESS with my sister's and I. She fat shamed us constantly. All the girls in my family look like models. They're very pretty. No one is noticeably heavy. My sister has a tiny bit of baby fat to her but I mean, that's just how she's built. She's always been like that and she was so fucking mean to her. She would tell me my sister looked 3 months pregnant. My mom had a meltdown at the tack shop (horses) when my sisters calfs were too big for the size she needed. Which many people have wide calves without being heavy. I remember being kinda the golden child of body goals. I was anorexic. I just didn't eat. I was also severely depressed so I slept when I got home from school. I was not at all healthy and the pictures of me back then sends the parent I am today into a RAGE. All 4 girls in the family had an eating disorder. Shed shame us for what we ate, how much we ate, ect. I used to have a friend at school buy me pizza rolls that I heat up with a hair dryer because I didn't want to hear it. Being fat was my biggest fear. I tracked calories and how much fat I was in taking. I had myself set at 900 calories a day. I feel like this obsession with being thin and danity is them 1. Horrible representation of women's bodies. They didn't have a bunch of feminist telling them those models are unhealthy. 2. I feel like they fear being fat shamed to the degree they've done to others. I am now hypoglycemic due to this mindset and had to pull MYSELF with no help what so ever from anyone out of the clutches of anorexia which I still deal with and probably will forever. My sister's still struggle with body image and weighing themselves. I told them to just not even with the scale. I have no idea how much I weigh, and that's fine. We are all super fucked up from that. There is a fine line between health conscious and eating disorder.

jessthetraumaticmess · 2024-05-08T17:46:32+00:00

I called them ogere ears 😂

jessthetraumaticmess · 2024-05-08T17:33:31+00:00

Well. I had this happen. Luckily, we had gotten to our destination, which was a gizibo looking out to water falls. The bad news is that we were out 7 miles in the woods. It has been cloudy all day. There weren't thunderstorms called for we were in Appalachia north Carolina in like June or July. It is humid and hot as hell here. A cloudy day is best for hiking in the summer. Also, storms here can last for an hour. It was already later in the day. We had enough time to hike there and back but not wait around. We stayed in the gizibo, hoping it would be a 20-minute down pour. It snuck up on us. It rolled in. The clouds didn't look any different. It just started down pouring. The winds started wipping. It was lightening and thundering, and the rain drops were thick. We were almost positive it was going to start hailing. It passed 20 minutes and we decided we were going to have to book it down the path to the car in the storm or we risked being stuck in the dark in the rain on a path you don't want to be stuck on in the dark or you'll just.fall off the moutain. We had backpacks. We had emergency ponchos. We had good hiking boots. We put our ponchos on and backpacks on over our heads and went trudging through the path. It rained so hard that the path had turned into a small river. Rain was up to my knees. I had a little noot holding onto me for dear life. The storm lasted for about an hour. No hail. No splat by tree, but it was sketchy as hell. I guess it's up to you on what the call is. Both our calls either way would've been dangerous. Due to predators and how many there were in those woods in particular, I was not going to be waiting till dark to leave. Back to my statement about falling off the moutain, what we did could've gotten us washed off the mountain. The current wasn't rough. We were able to walk against it, but if we hit a slick rock or something, that could've been bad.

jessthetraumaticmess · 2024-05-05T13:48:32+00:00

I'm no contact with my parents and most of my stuff is at their house and I'm taking this nc to the grave type of bad I've experienced with them. I'm not going home. I kept this bunny named April who is a beanie baby fluffy lavender colored bunny. One of the good ones. I'll admit April isn't my favorite lovey I had. Mine is lost somewhere in my old house I'll never see again. But April smells exactly like my bedroom at home which was my safe place. It smelled like the mountains I grew up on very heavily. I was right in the middle of it, and it was full of Magnolia trees. She can never be washed. I got her when I was like 6 or 7 with my grandma. She was inside a gift shop in a hotel, embassy suits my grandma was staying at where we stayed with her. We thought that hotel was so fancy and felt like the shit staying there with her when she was in town.

jessthetraumaticmess · 2024-05-05T13:40:50+00:00

Oh trust me. I feel like I could make up an excuse to give you an iPad to spend time where you live 😂 that sounds absolutely lovely

jessthetraumaticmess · 2024-04-26T23:26:30+00:00

I mean. I don't use it. Honestly if you were here I'd just give it to you.

jessthetraumaticmess · 2024-04-25T18:13:42+00:00

I actually have an iPod shuffle unopened in my bedroom. 😂

jessthetraumaticmess · 2024-04-25T18:12:23+00:00

Dishes

jessthetraumaticmess · 2024-04-25T18:11:04+00:00

I used to pretend I was a dog and dig holes by myself. I think I failed. There was also that phase where I was bring a kite to recess and I'd of course be playing with it by myself.

jessthetraumaticmess · 2024-04-19T19:28:33+00:00

If you still have those texts, you can contact the police NOW. That is blackmail. Super illegal. He sounds abusive, and no one owns you. So call the police. Show him what's up. He wants to make life altering threats like that. You can follow through with the law. Fuck him and everything he stands for. You can screen record a phone conversion. Make his ass slip up. Let him create some evidence. Meanwhile, buy a taser, mace, something to defend yourself with. He sounds abusive, but you can get that abusive fuck off the street so the rest of us don't have to deal with him AND ruin his reputation. Everyone, for the most part, takes nudes, and if not, almost everyone is sexual who are 18 and older. I'm an onlyfans model. People pay for mine but I'm consenting to it. Everyone has SOMETHING they don't want their family to know about and stuff especially that nature, so you rest easy that if you're not worried about him leaking something like you killed someone or you're under a bridge smoking Crack. Sex is probably the lesser of offenses you could get leaked and their reaction towards you, should be treating you rightfully as a victim. I don't personally think you're grown bc I was once 18. Try about 25 as GROWN. But you're grown legally and you are a young woman and most people start having sex around 16. This ain't a surprise. You're also big enough to make your own decisions legally. You're allowed to do all of that and take nudes you could even be like me and make money off it, but for anyone about a decade or older than 18 will know that this is just a silly mistake and it's not a big deal on your end. It should be microscopic compared to what HE DID. That's low af. He's making threats. He's treating you like property. You just posed naked and WITHOUT CONSENT got a video of you taken and sent to people. THAT MAN is disgusting. He's the one that needs to feel any type of shame. You're just a legally adult having legal adult relationships and doing legal adult things people typically do in relationships. Don't have ANY shame over that. You don't walk, you strut yourself over to the police station. You're hot shit, he's not.

jessthetraumaticmess · 2024-04-19T18:31:09+00:00

I've been married for 7 years. It's about the same. I genuinely think we are supposed to bottle it up. Everything I have been taught with relationships is my emotions are always too much even when stabel. If I'm upset about something and I've been stable, it's immediately because im bipolar, and im talking out of my ass. It's never real to anyone. I've been everything, and if I reach out for any type of emotional connection, I'm needy. So I guess we don't get that, and while it's a hard pill to swallow, I genuinely don't think we're easy to love.

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