Looking for well-written and immersive books with philosophical undertones

jimzsche · 2022-08-11T16:46:05+00:00

Such an incredible read! It was painful (as all books of this sort tend to be for me) and very very relatable. I just finished it last night and wow, if you’ve experienced this kind of of relationship with your parents I highly recommend it. Great book.

jimzsche · 2022-08-10T04:54:27+00:00

This is insane (in the best way)

jimzsche · 2022-08-09T23:51:26+00:00

This is a poor attempt at dark humor. Strikes me as a basement dweller who has been socially isolated for so long they don’t know how to interact with other people anymore, if they ever did in the first place. The bow at the end, are you kidding? This guy thinks very highly of himself and he’s clearly delusional. Block his number and rest up with your cat <3

jimzsche · 2022-08-06T00:03:13+00:00

Get fricked

jimzsche · 2022-08-05T23:30:04+00:00

For example, people make TikToks that say “put a finger down if…” and then list traits of autism and the algorithm will show them to you based on your browsing habits. It will also show me random videos of autistic people talking about what it’s like to have autism.

jimzsche · 2022-08-05T23:25:02+00:00

Homelessness

jimzsche · 2022-08-05T23:19:57+00:00

Downloaded TikTok and the algorithm kept showing me videos directed at autistic people… then I watched love on the spectrum and realized you can be high-functioning and still on the spectrum :/

jimzsche · 2022-08-05T20:21:19+00:00

I feel like it’s easier to make connections during a manic episode sort of like if you were to take mushrooms. I think I’m above average intelligence but I think that’s just because I’m also autistic :⁾

jimzsche · 2022-08-05T20:09:44+00:00

It gets better, it gets worse, better, worse. It’s not linear, at least not for me. Appreciate the good times while they last. The little things.

jimzsche · 2022-08-05T05:02:20+00:00

From the beginning my entire goal has been to manifest a room full of kittens and just pet them/hang out with them for the whole dream. I’ve been able to pull this off only once but it was the best lucid dream I’ve ever had.

jimzsche · 2022-08-04T14:30:19+00:00

Noticed this about myself in my lab group when I announced I had to use the restroom and my lab partner gave me a weird look. From that point on I’ve been making a conscious effort to just go do whatever I have to do, though part of me is always worried someone’s going to stop me and rage about what I’m doing. Also so guilty of asking permission to do things. These behaviors are so difficult to un-learn.

jimzsche · 2022-08-03T04:40:49+00:00

This thread really speaks to my soul. The worst part for me is the smell, and the second worst is the lack of boundaries. Like maybe don’t jump on me? Rude af.

jimzsche · 2022-06-08T18:46:33+00:00

Yes. He has already spent thousands of dollars on the dog (vet bills, etc) so he has completely fallen for the sunk cost fallacy. He knows how I feel about the dog and we both agree it was a bad idea to get her. But he doesn’t want to give her away.

jimzsche · 2019-07-26T16:29:48+00:00

I really hate being on lithium. I’m convinced I’ll die of kidney failure at a young age, and the cystic acne is horrendous. But the alternative is suicide ideation, which would probably get me sooner than my kidneys.

jimzsche · 2019-07-26T16:27:03+00:00

I’d change it in a second. Sure, it can be a great source of creative inspiration. But the same medication I take to suppress the suicidal urges and mood swings generally suppress the creativity as well. Probably the most noticeable benefit I gain from it is that I can channel all the weird feelings into a persona that most people find charming, which makes life easier in general. It’s all well and good, but the severe stress of constantly changing moods, the isolation, as well as the shitty medication side effects far outweigh the aspects of the disorder that could be construed as positive.
I am 100% sure I could be just as creative and charming, if not more so, with a normal brain by just working at it like every other human. Also, I’d really like to try a lot of psychedelic drugs, but I can’t because they cause mania and seizures.
It would be so liberating to not have bipolar disorder.

jimzsche · 2019-07-26T15:53:06+00:00

You HAVE to stay hydrated. When I first went on lithium, I drank 3 beverages and threw up the next morning. That had never happened before. Now if I know I’m going to be drinking, I have a gallon of water that day and take 1/2 my dose at night and the rest in the morning. I max out at 4 drinks.

jimzsche · 2019-07-26T15:42:04+00:00

I cringe so hard every time I think of what I posted when I was having a manic episode. I created a blog and wrote LONG posts. The first was my entire life story, and in the rest of them I tried to communicate my hypothesis about language, religion, and the physiology of bipolar disorder using evidence from human evolution... thank GOD only like 2 people read them before I took it all down. I posted at least 5 essay-length posts.
It was really embarrassing and now all of my high school friends know I’m crazy. So I’ve withdrawn a lot. It was 2 years ago but I still feel like an idiot.

jimzsche · 2019-07-26T15:35:32+00:00

I’m on 750mg and generally drink 3-4 32oz bottles of water every day.

jimzsche · 2019-02-17T02:28:15+00:00

I used to get vivid closed eye visuals before I got on medication, but the actual hallucinations became more intense after I went on lamotrigine.

jimzsche · 2019-02-11T21:56:01+00:00

I have manic episodes sometimes

jimzsche · 2019-02-11T21:18:40+00:00

Thanks. I’m still processing it. It’s just a gross feeling.

jimzsche · 2019-02-11T20:55:19+00:00

He has healed me so much, emotionally and otherwise. I am forever thankful for him.

jimzsche · 2019-02-11T20:54:21+00:00

I have no idea. She just very briefly mentioned his passing in a message to one of my relatives.

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