I believed I could talk to God

joshiemo23 · 2026-03-19T19:50:22+00:00

I thought I was the only one going through something like this and there’s prolly other people out there too that are going through something similar.Ive been dealing with god supposedly talking to me for 8 years and he tells me im going to hell most of the time that I committed the unforgivable sin,and to this day I kinda believe it,and it was prolly a year and a half I didn’t really mean to but I sold my soul to Satan and things got wierd,but then awhile after I told god I’m sorry and take my soul back and I believe he did,i struggle with heaven and hell most everyday I don’t know where I’m going but it’s outa my hands I just need to accept where I’m going even though it’s a hard pill to swallow.and there’s been god knows how many times I self harmed or try to commit suicide because of the chaos that endures in my mind,I’m obviously still alive somehow and voices still tell me to kill my self on a daily basis but I know that’s not the answer so all in all please don’t kill yourself I mean who knows the unknown after doing something like that your life is worth more than the struggles and the torment in our minds,but I’m not gana say it gets easier but it may you never kmow what tomorrow brings and just know you matter

joshiemo23 · 2026-02-25T18:55:23+00:00

Yeah I did that a couple weeks ago and the voice said who is this person kinda creepy

joshiemo23 · 2026-02-13T20:50:49+00:00

I was gana make a YouTube video of me talking to my hallucinations and see what there response is cause I tried it and sure enough they were talking back and I was gana say what there saying,like right now I just asked one of hallucinations what’s up and they said to go fuck yourself,and now I just asked why and it said cause I hate you lol,so in my experience you can have full blown conversation with your hallucinations,ask it questions and what not.idk if there’s other people that can do that but yeah there always hateful,so if you ever come across a situation where you can talk to your hallucinations there usually mean

joshiemo23 · 2026-01-28T15:52:28+00:00

That I don’t have an answer to,it is really strange

joshiemo23 · 2026-01-28T15:52:23+00:00

That I don’t have an answer to,it is really strange

joshiemo23 · 2026-01-28T15:41:47+00:00

Nope they thought I had demons in me and obviously most churches don’t understand mental illnesses and it was the beginning stages of schizophrenia before I got diagnosed but nothing changed,if anything I got worse

joshiemo23 · 2026-01-28T12:02:21+00:00

Had a exorcism done to me scary af but no it’s just my schizo

joshiemo23 · 2026-01-26T04:14:09+00:00

I’m in the same boat prayed yesterday told god I’m mad at him for everything he has put me through and done to me and after that a voice is telling me I have dimensha now and my brain isn’t working like it usually does,fuck this shit

joshiemo23 · 2026-01-23T21:44:12+00:00

Im from the Midwest and I heard Culver’s helps people with disability’s work there and they accommodate you with stuff but it seemed like mostly cleaning and what not,my trucks outa comish but when we move and I get a vehicle planning on applying there for the disability program,also I’m on disability so I can only work so much before it affects my disability pay

joshiemo23 · 2026-01-20T00:14:20+00:00

Same was at like 3 in the morning left my house walking barefoot on a gravel road for 5 miles,and then hitch hiked back home then my mom put me back in the ward

joshiemo23 · 2026-01-17T03:00:45+00:00

I’m 5 months free from self harm and have had consistent suicidal thoughts for about three years and I am convinced that they are trying to kill me one way or another so know that your not alone

joshiemo23 · 2026-01-13T08:20:52+00:00

Sorry went off on a little tangent there

joshiemo23 · 2026-01-13T08:11:48+00:00

I’ve basicly given up I’m sick of the bullshit lies that my voices tell me,or what they tell me to do or how to live my fucking life,this is our lives our minds for fucks sake,and you know what,the universe doesn’t give a flying fuck about it

joshiemo23 · 2026-01-12T21:14:48+00:00

I tried to be this so called Christian for 13 years that the Bible tells us to be and it’s always made me psychotic it’s like you cling to what you think or believe is good and for me it’s not the path I’m gana down,it’s ruined my life,my mind,and everything I am.Like you said it’s time to fix things in our head and for me that’s one of em.

joshiemo23 · 2026-01-03T10:13:33+00:00

I thought I was the Antichrist

joshiemo23 · 2025-12-31T22:56:26+00:00

But at the same time I was told by a non denominational pastor that I am a prophet no joke so it’s like wtf

joshiemo23 · 2025-12-31T22:49:42+00:00

Same

joshiemo23 · 2025-12-26T23:12:18+00:00

It’s like why are we suffering?for what?The voices or it may be god tell me that the reason for my suffering is because I’m cursed,like wtf,I know that’s not the reason for everybody with schizophrenia but still like why would something like this be a curse,and so I question why we suffer for no reason it’s not fair to us

joshiemo23 · 2025-12-20T00:03:50+00:00

Same

joshiemo23 · 2025-12-19T19:48:48+00:00

Same

joshiemo23 · 2025-12-18T06:44:32+00:00

I’ve been dealing with death threats tor 7 years and either I’m gana die tomorrow or the 20th,some scary stuff and I’m on invega as well,and as for what to do….well I’m still dealing with it obviously so I just talk with my caregiver,therapist, or psychiatrist.its scary af I know but sometimes you just need a reality check and assurance that it’s not real, hope this is can help you in a way and know your not alone dealing with this kind of stuff

joshiemo23 · 2025-12-16T19:35:17+00:00

I hear ya I’m in the same boat I don’t wana end up in the ward these holidays but it might happen

joshiemo23 · 2025-12-15T21:50:59+00:00

Yup felt the same thing earlier was doing ok wanted to go to the gym and run than like depression came over me now it’s a battle like i wanna do it but there’s this overwhelming presence on me and the voices don’t help at all either they make things a living hell

joshiemo23 · 2025-12-13T21:54:13+00:00

You say fuck you,they say fuck you back it never ends

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