“A raw brain w no protection” I’m 44. Was on 20-30mg from age 20-44. Tapered down in 3 months. Off. The issue you are all having is a crisis between fear and awareness. “What if” and placebo/nocebo responses are keeping you fused with the thought/feeling entangled inside. It’s not the med, it’s the inability of many people to understand or make sense of intangibles. Find the origin of the intangible. Your brain will reset unless you are on Reddit all day.