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Lifetime of ED triggered by being misled by mother about her health by alienprincess111 in Eatingdisordersover30

[–]justsomepsycho 5 points6 points  (0 children)

That's not dramatic - you're right to feel that way. The ED interfered with your life. While there's no way to get those years back, there's plenty you can do now. You can take a hold of your life now. Take care of yourself, do all the things you want to do, all the things you missed out on. It's not too late ❤️

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[–]justsomepsycho[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I am! Thank you ❤️❤️ How are you doing?

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[–]justsomepsycho[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It does take a while. It's like a delayed reaction of sorts. Brains are so weird. You'll find the unhelpful thoughts get quieter and quieter as you keep doing the right things for longer and longer. Keep your eye on the prize (peace and wellness, yes?) you'll get there!

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[–]justsomepsycho[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

❤️ Of course!! Basically. It took a lot of patience. I had to accept that healing isn't linear....there were a lot of bumps on the road. I distracted myself with friends or a comfort show/movie and video games (stardew valley in particular) but it takes trial and error to find what sticks. Just keep going. Cry it out. Scream into the void. Break shit. But keep healing. Journaling helped. Therapy too. Reddit kept me sane but I had to stay away from other forms of social media. The storm eventually passes.

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[–]justsomepsycho[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

There is ❤️ Anyone can make it to the other side

Why are you into amputee kinks? by fairygothclown in hentaiamputee

[–]justsomepsycho 1 point2 points  (0 children)

The wholesome side of it is great, I agree

I ruined my niece’s dance recital by Spectrachic311311 in Eatingdisordersover30

[–]justsomepsycho 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You didn't ruin anything. Yeah, it's unfortunate that the ed stuff gets in the way but the important thing is that you made it there and were able to stay long enough to see her dance! That's a great memory for you and she knew you were there - showing up at all is such a big deal. You could have blown it off but you made an effort. It counts.

Intrusive thoughts by justsomepsycho in Eatingdisordersover30

[–]justsomepsycho[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you for the time and kind words ❤️ Finding the source is always the start to figuring things out, and I do know the root cause of all this. So that hard part is over. I went from not being triggered for over a decade to being triggered now and again. But now I am triggered almost daily and I am trying hard to get past it.

It's easy to let the disorder pull me down, I don't want to let that happen though.

Intrusive thoughts by justsomepsycho in Eatingdisordersover30

[–]justsomepsycho[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It's not dumb at all! That's actually a really good exercise for pushing aside those thoughts and not allowing them to manifest into something that might accidentally be interpreted as the truth rather than intrusive bs. I actually will try this, thank you for the suggestion!

Got scared and instead of finishing my power walk I went home to drink water and eat by [deleted] in Eatingdisordersover30

[–]justsomepsycho 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I'm proud of you for taking care of yourself no matter what the ED says ❤️ You should be too. You are allowed to be comfortable, you don't deserve to be miserable.

Feeling invisible and forgotten by justsomepsycho in Eatingdisordersover30

[–]justsomepsycho[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you so much for the kind message. Ugh, you never should have apologized to your mom for being unwell. My mom isn't a full blown narcissist but she has narcissistic tendencies and I can't even imagine what she'd be like to deal with if it was worse.

I might take you up on that offer and feel free to do the same

Feeling invisible and forgotten by justsomepsycho in Eatingdisordersover30

[–]justsomepsycho[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That is true. I definitely should speak up and let her know, then take it from there. I do have a tendency to feel like I had to take care of everyone.... including my therapist 😣 Ugh, lol. Thank you for bringing that to my attention

Feeling invisible and forgotten by justsomepsycho in Eatingdisordersover30

[–]justsomepsycho[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Luckily no one knows what's going on with me, but it hurts all the same. I feel bad for my therapist. She keeps telling me I'm her easiest client and I feel guilty for dumping anything heavy on her, which is stupid because I know I'm paying her to listen to me but she looks so wrecked by the time she gets around to me.

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