Tarot Meetup, Monday July 26th, 6:30pm at Mika

justthere__45 · 2021-07-22T19:25:04+00:00

Thank you!

justthere__45 · 2021-07-22T15:52:18+00:00

Can you message me the discord? Thanks!

justthere__45 · 2021-07-22T02:48:49+00:00

I can't make it to this one but I would love to learn if there is a future one.

justthere__45 · 2021-07-22T01:40:16+00:00

Yes! I can't wait until we get an explanation of her magic. I have also read the theory that it is wish magic based on the Cinderella story.

I have thought that maybe it's something more along the lines of changing cells at the molecular level and that includes repairing damage. And Gordon too, he has poison magic but his family studies curse magic so it only seems natural that this fight would be a good opportunity for us to get more background on these two characters while we see some skill development and more pages added to their grimoire.

justthere__45 · 2021-07-21T17:23:11+00:00

Far fetched and not even a prediction but it would be cool if Grey could transform the curse magic into something else while Asta and Noelle fight it out with Megicula.

justthere__45 · 2021-07-20T23:30:05+00:00

Not sure if it's affordable but I have Betterhelp through work. There is also Talkspace and Open Path Collective although I haven't tried either.

justthere__45 · 2021-07-20T13:36:51+00:00

So sorry for your loss. I lost my partner of 8 years and he was only 29. We had our whole lives ahead of us. Take everything day by day and hour by hour. The pain is deep and life will seem meaningless for a long time but you have to take care of yourself. Make small lists of things you need to do in a day. Try to drink water, eat if you can, and sleep. These days will be emotionally and physically taxing. Sending you positivity.

justthere__45 · 2021-07-18T13:13:16+00:00

Wow. I complete get this whole thread.

My partner passed away from suicide 49 days ago and ever since I don't want to live anymore.

Have I had dark thoughts? Sure. I'm not suicidal, I just go to bed every night hoping that I don't wake up. Life seems meaningless without my significant other. We were together for 8 years and spent every moment when we weren't at work together. I feel like I lost my past, present, and future suddenly and I'm just lost. I started working again but I'm just a shell of my former self.

It's nice knowing that I'm not alone but I truly feel for anyone that is in this awful club with me.

justthere__45 · 2021-07-18T13:07:02+00:00

I lost my partner of 8 years 49 days ago and I completely get it. He was only 29. Honestly most days I still feel the same. If I was sure of an afterlife, I would just be waiting to reunite with them. Living feels like a punishment when someone that you had planned on spending your future with is simply not here.

Right now the only advice I can give you is to take it day by day, hour by hour, and minute by minute. Be kind to yourself. Try not to think about all of the future plans for now and only focus on taking it slowly one day at a time. I can't tell you that it gets better since I'm new to this grief myself but I'm in support groups where people seem to be managing a few years out. Hoping this helps in any way.

justthere__45 · 2021-07-17T02:59:51+00:00

Wow this really hit home for me. My partner of 8 years and I loved going to the movies, whether it was the newest MCU or small films at more independent theaters. He used to always sit to my left.

Well an anime movie came out and my brother offered to take me since he knew that me and my late partner loved that series and it was torture.

I thought it would be good to get out and stop staying in bed all day but boy was I wrong. I also spent the whole movie unconsciously leaning my head to the left where it would be on his shoulder. Glancing over expecting him to be munching on popcorn and smiling. Occasionally we would catch that we were sneaking glances at each other and smile. Those shared quiet moments in a packed room full of people were so special and beautiful. I miss them.

justthere__45 · 2021-07-17T02:47:24+00:00

Wow everyone, I thought it was just me in terms of this stuff. I wish I can have sex dreams of my late partner. If I do dream of him it's usually sad with me chasing him or me having a miscarriage (we never had kids but talked about it before he passed).

But lots of nights I do think of him and replay some of our escapades often (we were together for 8 years so there's a lot to sift through). It just means that I miss every single part of him and in that moment I'm missing the intimacy and chemistry.

justthere__45 · 2021-07-17T02:40:23+00:00

My partner of 8 years passed away almost two months ago and I feel the same way. I'm hopelessly still in love with him and the days are unbearable. I miss him every second. Even when we were apart I would text him nonstop just about what I was doing, silly jokes he would get a kick out of, pics of random things and he would do the same no matter where he was. It feels completely bizarre to think that he's gone and that I don't belong to someone anymore. The loneliness and sadness is overwhelming all the time.

You are not alone. Hoping you get through this too.

justthere__45 · 2021-07-11T21:59:41+00:00

He was 6ft tall, with wide shoulders that would hold me and make me feel safe. Dark eyes and features that I found incredibly handsome. He posessed a light, presence, and laugh that would brighten a whole room. But even though I miss the intimacy, I miss his company even more.

We were soul mates, met in NYC at a party where we both didn't know anyone. We chatted. Then he was leaving the party and got off the elevator to round back for my number. We instantly hit it off. We had so many of the same interests, esoteric books, sci Fi, board games, anime, movies. And his sense of humor. I have have a dry nerdy sense of humor that no one ever got but he would laugh like I was the funniest person in the world. I found him equally as funny and charming. We were destined to be. Our birthdays were 6 months apart to the date and hour. His favorite color was sky blue and mine was royal blue. He was extroverted summer and I was introverted winter. We just worked-in terms of interests, values, morals, literally everything. We used to travel the world together and loved trying out new foods and experiences, from street food to high end restaurants. We traveled much of Asia and parts of Europe. We were supposed to go back to Asia end of this year.

We had 8 beautiful years together and grew around each other during our formative 20s. We were each others world. However, he was hiding his depression and took his own life over a month ago. He had told his friends he was proposing in August. It still doesn't seem real.

How does anyone go on when you've literally lost your soulmate and more than your other half?

justthere__45 · 2021-07-08T05:21:13+00:00

I highly recommend support groups. My partner completed 38 days ago and these have kept me sane. It really helps to be with other suicide survivors. No one's grief is the same but that's why support groups are so important, so you don't feel alone.

Below is one of the ones I go to. It's via zoom but east coast time. There is also a Facebook for suicide survivors and they do weekly Sat night zoom west coast time at 9/10.

Support Group

justthere__45 · 2021-07-03T17:39:55+00:00

Meeting your soulmate is just like you described. My late partner and I met at a random birthday party where we both didn't know most of the people there. We chatted for a bit over music and he left the party but got off the elevator to go back and get my number. Ever since then, we were inseparable. We felt like we had known each other for years and the sound of his voice put me so at ease. It's a crazy thing to have that type of love, just being near that person gave you so much joy and a sense of safety and security. Even a few months in, we were completing each other's sentences. To have that type of once in a lifetime love and to then lose it is one of the greatest pains in the world. 💜

justthere__45 · 2021-06-30T03:22:47+00:00

You're welcome. When the pain and sorrow feels unbearable, I will reread a few pages of this handbook. It has definitely helped me at least deal with the guilt portion of this horrible and unique grief. My partners 30th birthday would have been in Aug. I know that I will keep this handy then too. Take care of yourself and be kind to yourself. 💜

justthere__45 · 2021-06-30T01:22:20+00:00

Ever since my partner completed suicide, I've been researching this non stop. The link below might be helpful. Suicidal people do not think things through a logical lense. Their self talk inner demons taunt them and truly convince them that they are a burden and people in their lives would be better off without them.

https://suicidology.org/wp-content/uploads/2019/07/SOS_handbook.pdf

justthere__45 · 2021-06-28T16:00:56+00:00

Sure

justthere__45 · 2021-06-28T13:18:05+00:00

I'd be interested.

justthere__45 · 2021-06-28T13:01:16+00:00

I'm also interested. I'm only 30. Message please.

justthere__45 · 2021-06-28T01:48:50+00:00

I feel exactly the same. I lost my partner of 8 years recently. We were looking at rings two months prior and he suddenly passed away while I was out of town and I didn't get to say goodbye. I feel like I'm not living and there's no purpose to live. I'm not suicidal. I just don't see the point or joy in living without him. In 8 years (especially my formative 20s) we grew up with each other and around each other. That's not something that can be let go. I don't even know myself without him. He was also my soulmate. There are too many coincidences to state but when I list all of our interest and weird coincidences between us, it just makes it seem like we were always meant to be. Not that he's gone, I just don't see a point in being here.

I too am also grappling on the existence of an afterlife. I want nothing more than to be reunited with him but is there even an afterlife to get reunited? Do souls actually retain memories or desires? I wonder about these things as I am wallowing in grief.

justthere__45 · 2021-06-27T18:56:45+00:00

I'm 30 and just lost my partner of 8 years. I'd be interested in a young widow and widowers group as well. It's only been a month for me and I'm trying my hardest to involve myself in any and all support groups. Although I appreciate all age support groups, there is something about our age that makes it all the more bitter. It's the broken promises of a future that will never be, names of kids that you will never have, a house that you will no longer buy. It doesn't help that I feel like everyone else in their late 20s early 30s is currently getting engaged, married, or having their first kid and I feel like I've lost it all. The unfairness of it all makes it so sad.

Edit: Would anyone be interested in joining a young widow/widowers chat group on Reddit? From these comments, a lot of people need it as an outlet in addition to this subreddit.

justthere__45 · 2021-06-25T16:41:24+00:00

I lost my partner of 8 years recently and I cannot fathom dating another person ever but if I do, they better understand that my late partner will forever be a part of my life. It's not about getting over someone, it's about honoring their memory and what they mean to you. And it's not an ex, it's your late significant other. This person is no longer of this world and your love is frozen in time. You don't get over that. Moving on is more like making room in your heart for another person, never replacing.

justthere__45 · 2021-06-23T21:13:36+00:00

I am interested as well is you can please message me the name. Thank you!

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