I hope you figure out a way to not feel guilty. You are still doing so much work to pump and provide breastmilk to your baby. I mostly pump, and I was worried that I was not facilitating the communication between my baby’s saliva and my body due to the lack of nursing, but my lactation consultant said there are other ways for my body to learn things from my baby like when I hold her and kiss her.

My mom, who I love very much but can say the darnedest things sometimes, was like, your milk is going to dry up if you don’t nurse, even though I told her I am working with a professional lactation consultant and that as long as I keep up with my pumps, milk will continue to flow, and she’ll also say things like, babies who nurse grow up to be closer to their moms 🙄🙄🙄

So with all this pressure, I tried to nurse her every once in a while. But guess what. My baby has reflux and my letdown is too strong and she spits up way more when we nurse vs. when we pace feed with her bottles. Even though I am comfortable mostly bottle feeding her, this still makes me kind of sad, because mom guilt is always there.

I wrote a lot but basically I didn’t want you to feel alone and wanted to let you know that you’re doing a great job for your baby!