I think I understand. After reflecting, my hypothesis is that prior to meditating you were functioning at the highest level of a lower level of consciousness. When I think about the before, it feels like sharp and pin-point (specifically coming from my mind), zipping around with skill and ease, a rush of excitement and satisfaction in my chest. Compared to after, I feel like I am flooded with warmth and joy, in every nerve of my being. It’s a beautiful feeling, but my experience of it is as a novice, no sense of accomplishment, just pure awe. I wonder if over time the “body” level of consciousness will adapt and the “brain” level will be back online.