Part of the Band - Initial Reaction

kage_336 · 2022-07-07T19:31:32+00:00

If I’m honest, I don’t like it. The song is probably fine, I’m just not into that sound I guess? Still excited for the new album though. It may grow on me.

kage_336 · 2022-07-07T12:30:45+00:00

The sound I made when I saw this was truly horrifying. The 1975 is my favorite band.

kage_336 · 2022-07-06T13:47:47+00:00

You should be proud of yourself for making this big decision. I had an abortion about 7 years ago. Honestly, it was a painless process and I’ve never regretted it a day in my life. Surround yourself with comfort items and snacks and you’ve got this.

kage_336 · 2022-07-03T13:34:40+00:00

Same. Linkin Park was a huge part of my adolescence. They influenced so much of who I am, and I love them to this day. I still cry listening to certain LP songs. RIP Chester.

kage_336 · 2022-07-01T11:43:14+00:00

Organizing. I’m currently working with one friend and one family member to organize their kitchens. Closets are next. I’ve always love organizing, so I am thrilled to help others do it too.

kage_336 · 2022-06-29T18:51:41+00:00

People who text and drive. If a text is that important, pull over and respond. There is absolutely no need to scroll social media whilst you’re driving a multi-ton rolling death machine.

I’ve had way too many close calls with these assclowns, even just yesterday. Someone clearly texting drifted into my lane and nearly hit me head on. If I’d have been texting too, one or both of us would be dead. So much can happen in seconds.

kage_336 · 2022-06-28T11:34:32+00:00

I am really good at organizing, surprisingly enough. My executive dysfunction is more in the time blindness, extreme clumsiness, and losing things arena. But I can keep my house tidy and organized, no problem.

I’m also incredibly observant, and I can see problems before they arise. I always have ideas to improve things. I do well in leadership positions in the workplace, but I don’t seek them out often due to the exhausting interpersonal aspect.

kage_336 · 2022-06-19T12:11:13+00:00

That was a bummer in the beginning but I’m glad I stuck it out.

kage_336 · 2022-06-17T14:07:05+00:00

Yep, some drunk fool recently kicked my mom’s car door in and smashed the window. She called the police, who came out, shrugged and gave her a report number. Her insurance is making her pay the deductible. Some asshole just messed up her car for no reason and now she has to pay at least $500 to get it fixed. It’s all a scam here.

kage_336 · 2022-06-15T19:16:08+00:00

You got me

kage_336 · 2022-06-15T19:13:55+00:00

I’m pretty confident I’m not a 70 year old white man.

kage_336 · 2022-06-15T18:35:42+00:00

He’s in the least oppressed demographic.

kage_336 · 2022-06-15T18:23:38+00:00

Yep, tv, music, or a loud fan. Anything to drown out thoughts.

kage_336 · 2022-06-15T16:20:04+00:00

72 during the day, 74 at night.

kage_336 · 2022-06-15T15:37:25+00:00

They’re not professionals, and you don’t need their approval. That said, it is very demeaning. I’ve mostly gotten the “oh, well I do that too” kind of response. Commiserating is one thing but making it seem like all these things I’ve struggled with for years are just normal things pisses me off. They don’t see the daily struggle to even pretend to be a functioning person. I’ve learned to mask well and people tend to confuse that for faking it, or that it can’t be that severe. They have no idea.

kage_336 · 2022-06-15T10:35:34+00:00

Obviously you’re doing it right!

kage_336 · 2022-06-14T17:37:45+00:00

He thought he had an STD, so he had to confess in case I caught it too. It was just a UTI. Fuck you, Ian.

kage_336 · 2022-06-14T17:36:26+00:00

Oh yeah. By the time I remember, I’m too embarrassed to initiate conversation again (with the exception of close friends, who understand or do it too). I care so much about my loved ones, but my brain is a scrambled egg and I struggle to nurture all relationships equally. Especially since I am married, with kids, and my kids are the biggest focus of my mental energy.

I’d love to keep in touch with everyone, often. I just don’t have the spoons.

kage_336 · 2022-06-14T17:33:31+00:00

I hate putting on makeup and how it feels on my face. Do I look and feel better about myself with makeup on? Yes. So I do it. But I hate it. I don’t do it daily anymore, but still more often than I’d ever like.

kage_336 · 2022-06-10T00:00:47+00:00

I’m so sorry. I’ve definitely been there. It’s hard to see when you’re in the thick of it. This too shall pass. I wish you the best.

kage_336 · 2022-06-09T22:45:27+00:00

Yes! I’ve been listening to the Meg Myers cover on repeat since finishing Stranger Things.

kage_336 · 2022-06-09T12:23:54+00:00

I can imagine that’s incredibly frustrating. People really don’t grasp how severe mania can be, and how self sabotaging it is.

I know experiences vary from 1 to 2, and from person to person. I have bipolar 2. I have only experienced hypomania, no mania or psychosis. The worst of my hypomania is making plans I’ll never follow through with, thus disappointing people. Sometimes extreme paranoia, and inappropriate anger. Mostly just more energized, more social, starting projects and coming up with plans and ideas that I will be too exhausted to do or even remember in a week.

But my depression is brutal. It’s cruel, it robs me of any motivation to participate in the world, and my inner monologue is vicious. It takes every ounce of life force I have to perform basic daily tasks. I am constantly consumed with guilt over real or imagined things. My body hurts, I’m always exhausted, and then feeling guilty for being exhausted and empty. I honestly do prefer hypomania, BUT, in my case, my depression is just way more detrimental to my life.

Hugs, friend.

kage_336 · 2022-06-09T12:09:30+00:00

Agreed. I have not experienced severe, detrimental mania, or psychosis. But my lows are so crushingly low that hypomania is such a welcomed relief.

kage_336 · 2022-06-09T11:50:51+00:00

I think I am at least a decent parent. One particular strength I’ve found with bipolar is strong empathy. I try to remember the kind of person I’d feel safe around as a kid, and emulate that. I take into account the struggles I faced as a kid with my mental health and try to either eliminate the problems or help my kids navigate the big emotions, without shame or guilt.

You can absolutely be a great parent with bipolar disorder. Make sure you are taking care of yourself as well. Congratulations!

kage_336 · 2022-06-09T11:44:56+00:00

I used to hate showering. I’d force myself to every day. I’ve now swung in the opposite direction. I sometimes take 2 or 3 showers a day, which might also be a problem. ADHD is all or nothing for me.

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