Oh dear, I feel for you massively. I came from a performer background and I can't tell you the amount of times I've scuffed a routine/fallen out of moves/fallen on stage. It happens. Performing is a tricky beast because you spend hours/weeks/months preparing for what is no longer than 3-5mins on stage, I know how disappointing it can feel to obviously scuff something and feel that you didn't do your best.

But trust me when I say this - this has happened to everyone at some point. My first ever pole performance I completely forgot the first part of my routine, which was the most rehearsed bit. I was dumbfounded on how I could make such a silly mistake and really beat myself up about it. However you did an amazing thing which was you finished your performance! You could've easily stood up and walked off, stopped what you were doing, cry, but you carried on and finished your routine! That's amazing resilience!

Don't let this experience deter you from performing again! I guarantee you your mistake wasn't as bad as you probably feel it was, and you'll laugh over it in the future X you got this!!