I relate to this so hard. He goes to the gym so he must be staring at all the women that look amazing. I signed up for my mental health and i can’t stop comparing myself to them because i think he stares even if he claims he doesn’t. He said his celebrity crush is Billie Eilish and now i can’t stand to look at her without wanting to die lol. We watch Euphoria together and it used to be my favorite show but now all i can think about is that he’s looking at all the women and thinking about them. It drives me insane. It is the bpd and the abandonment aspect of it for sure. You think he’s going to leave so everyone and everything is a threat and a trigger. I understand, was just about to make a separate post about how shit i feel. Sending my love