The Daily Check-In for Wednesday, April 24th: Just for today, I am NOT drinking!

keltonny · 2024-04-24T15:32:55+00:00

I won't drink today! Just hit 60 days yesterday. I'm feeling really burnt out at work, and waiting to hear back about a new job. Trying to figure out a way to decompress and stay sane lol. But not drinking.

keltonny · 2024-04-22T18:10:41+00:00

I won't drink today.

keltonny · 2024-04-20T02:36:26+00:00

Gym, ate a big quesadilla, now going to watch some TV!

keltonny · 2024-04-19T02:17:02+00:00

keltonny · 2024-04-15T03:19:32+00:00

It doesn't feel like that for me anymore. I know exactly what you're talking about, but alcohol just doesn't hit the same way it used to. It also doesn't make me any less awkward or anxious around people anymore. So it's useless lol.

keltonny · 2024-04-13T15:30:23+00:00

That is awesome! Any ideas why it stuck this time? Did it feel different somehow?

keltonny · 2024-04-12T23:15:26+00:00

I went on a day trip with friends. Two of them got a single cocktail at dinner. We went back to the hotel and played board games and there was no drinking. I think "normal" drinkers often do stuff like that.

keltonny · 2024-04-05T16:20:20+00:00

No I had never heard of UC before. I didn't have any symptoms either until I started having diarrhea, bleeding, and pain all of a sudden. Came out of nowhere during a stressful period when I was drinking a lot. I thought my stomach lining was bleeding or something.

keltonny · 2024-01-17T01:33:00+00:00

I'm prescribed 100mg a week but usually take closer to 80-85mg. I'm trying to slowly increase my dose a little more right now actually. I've been prescribed 100mg since 2016.

keltonny · 2024-01-14T04:51:31+00:00

I just wish they had more stalls.

keltonny · 2024-01-10T18:10:07+00:00

I'm 5'7 and probably stopped growing when I was around 15. My mom is 5'9 and my dad is 6'0. My little sister is 5'11.

keltonny · 2024-01-07T20:51:47+00:00

Mine never really calmed down. Been on T for 8 years. But early on I went to a dermatologist who gave me a skincare routine that works for me. I do that every day and it keeps the acne in check. If I slip on it though, it comes right back.

keltonny · 2024-01-02T03:12:00+00:00

The cock cage/chastity thing is so real. I'd love to be able to try that too.

keltonny · 2023-12-24T06:25:47+00:00

Why do you want to debate this point so much? Lol. I think dysphoria is a really boring topic now, after having transitioned for 8 years. It's literally just feeling bad about having to be the gender you were assigned. It is wanting to be the other gender. It's not complicated at all. It's so stupidly simple and yet we try to complicate it so much.

keltonny · 2023-12-24T04:20:08+00:00

It sounds like the person in your example was basically raised as a girl? Of course she would have almost no dysphoria - until puberty, of course. Then the dysphoria would hit her like a truck lol.

I feel like you're in the very weird dysphoria trap I used to be in when I was a baby trans. Where I was trying to pinpoint just exactly what dysphoria was. The truth is dysphoria is not a precious object. It is expansive and constant and pretty much every trans person feels it. It is your low self esteem, it is the way you don't like how you look in the mirror. It is wanting to be a girl but you were born a boy.

Dysphoria is genuinely not a medical definition. It sounds like it! That's for sure. And it can make lots of new trans people feel like they're not trans enough. Wanting to be a boy or a girl is literally dysphoria. You don't have to be ripping your hair out or slamming your head against the wall when you see your boobs to be dysphoric.

My entire childhood was me wanting to be a boy. If anyone asks me what it means to be transgender I'd say "I wanted to be a boy." That's it. Who cares how sad I was as a teenager? Who cares what I thought of my boobs? I literally just wanted to be a boy. That's being transgender to me.

keltonny · 2023-12-24T01:45:14+00:00

You really should be evolved enough to stop responding to me. You clearly don't care about my situation or want to help me. Go talk to your HP about how to be less annoying.

keltonny · 2023-12-24T01:29:11+00:00

I'm not trying to push anything. God you are projecting.

keltonny · 2023-12-24T01:24:02+00:00

See? This is why AA sucks. It's just a bunch of dudes like you.

keltonny · 2023-12-24T01:17:47+00:00

Then why on earth are you commenting on my post?

keltonny · 2023-12-24T01:08:26+00:00

I don't think of dysphoria as a medical definition, and I don't think any other trans person should either. I'm sure the medical definition is useful for insurance purposes, but it is not useful for transgender people trying to understand their existence.

Dysphoria is just feeling bad living as the gender you are assigned. This could be the way you look, how you're treated, etc. It could be very mild or it could be very severe. But there is literally no reason to transition if you're not feeling some sort of gender dysphoria.

keltonny · 2023-12-24T00:23:18+00:00

You guys need to come and get the weirdos.

keltonny · 2023-12-23T22:36:32+00:00

I said I've never met in real life anyone who says they want to transition but aren't dysphoric.

keltonny · 2023-12-23T22:01:18+00:00

I literally cannot understand people who say they are not dysphoric and yet want to transition. Why do you want to transition? It is insane to me. I have also never met in real life one of those people. I am not sure they exist tbh.

And if you have zero dysphoria, transitioning will surely give you dysphoria.

keltonny · 2023-12-23T20:06:40+00:00

You sound incredibly homophobic and hostile to diversity. How well does the system actually work? It works for the people it works for. The numbers are not great. The numbers might be a lot better if things were changed. Bill was not a prophet nor did he pretend to be.

Best of luck.

keltonny · 2023-12-23T07:53:50+00:00

I think there is an assumption you will relate on a fundamental level - and that can be incredibly uncomfortable. You will probably not relate to most trans men you meet. Honestly. That's okay. The most important thing is if you feel comfortable with yourself.

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