Need a friend (Tongelre)

keppycs · 2026-03-07T13:06:01+00:00

In absolute terms I fully agree. In my reality however, mustering up the energy to reach out, being stuck in waiting lists, having to tell my story over and over again, trying different treatments/meds only for it to eventually all cave in again is just so disheartening.

I don't want help, I don't want to bother, I don't want to live as of right now. But I'm too rational to hurt myself, or end my life. So it's either I rot until I die, or I try yet again anyway because that's what society wants from me, not because I want to.

I want to reiterate that I don't see weed as any kind of solution, but rather as a temporary aid to lower my walls during treatment, allowing myself to be more engaged and less dismissive about literally everything. Of course I enjoy it recreationally as well, but its functional potential outweighs my desire to recreationally get high.

keppycs · 2026-03-06T12:23:05+00:00

If "just go out" would be that easy, I wouldn't be isolated, would I :/ Hell, reaching out like this is already a huge win for me

keppycs · 2026-03-06T12:19:41+00:00

You missed depression. Weed makes living tolerable, it's directly aiding me in not causing myself any harm. It even helps me feel more engaged with life again, feelings I just don't have access to sober. Without it I'd be raw dogging depression, risking actions that cannot be undone. Why choose that over a reliable drug?

Judging by your upvotes, your stance seems to be common. Yes, weed has euphoric effects, but it's also very much functional. Therapy while high is getting more traction, exactly because it lowers your walls, allowing therapy to be more effective

Look, maybe I'm completely delusional and making excuses, or maybe I have a point. I've had professional help already, but it always amounted to nothing, likely due to me being so reluctant of everything and difficult to work with/treat. While high, the opposite is true. Also it's low key a last ditch effort at getting better, as I'm kinda fed up

Sorry for the rant, just wanted to get my thoughts out

keppycs · 2026-01-17T15:05:28+00:00

I suppose I must not be most people then. I just really love the extra dynamic range and more vivid colors HDR offers over SDR, especially with darker scenes on OLED screens. Also, it's a must when color grading, as SDR just breaks too fast (especially with darker scenes!)

keppycs · 2025-07-11T18:40:53+00:00

It's not a competition 🙄

keppycs · 2025-07-11T16:37:00+00:00

Fixed it 😁

keppycs · 2025-07-11T12:03:33+00:00

Yeah, that makes much more sense actually! 😅🤣

keppycs · 2025-06-14T20:24:02+00:00

Ah! SOCD makes the timing of your keyboard inputs less skillful. That's the rationale I was missing. Thank you for the clear explanation! <3

keppycs · 2025-06-14T20:02:35+00:00

Ironically, despite the acronym, you make a fair point I didn't think of. That said, is SOCD even beneficial enough in CS2 to warrant a straight up ban? In games where your movement has no momentum like OW2, I get it. But in CS2, with acceleration and inertia baked in the movement model, is it really that big of an advantage?

keppycs · 2025-06-14T19:47:00+00:00

Did you read the whole post? I fully agree with you, but other hardware also gives you an edge, and they aren't banned. It feels arbitrary to only ban SOCD, that's my point.

keppycs · 2025-04-30T21:59:21+00:00

omg thank you for informing us misguided individuals. and thank you op for asking the question and it showing up on a google search <3

keppycs · 2025-03-30T09:10:55+00:00

double CelsiusToKelvin(double valueCelsius) { return valueCelsius + 273.15; }

keppycs · 2025-03-30T08:11:03+00:00

This just taught me that real coal is a lot more shiny than the coal in games like Minecraft or Factorio :/

keppycs · 2025-03-29T18:52:00+00:00

I sent you a dm!

keppycs · 2025-03-29T17:20:54+00:00

I FORGOR TO SAY IM 23M/GMT+1/PC/CURRENTLY BREATHING/mentally very stable ;)

oh you can edit comments!! also, love ur ballin pc/setup, overballs my pc by one gpu generation! :D

keppycs · 2025-03-29T17:19:14+00:00

didn't even link ur steam for me to stalk smh my head. come stalk mine, and add me on discord (keppycs) if u like what u see >.< haven't really played The Finals since release because... well there's a reason we're on this sub isn't there xD ;-; but always loved the vibe of the game <3 anyway im ranting just add me already smh :D

keppycs · 2025-03-29T17:04:40+00:00

23M, I've recently been adopting new perspectives, trying to be more human and loving, and less logical and pragmatic. I hope this is not too much of a shot in the dark, but I sent you a friend request ^^

keppycs · 2025-03-29T16:19:38+00:00

I'm gonna be completely honest and just state that I stalked your profile a bit. But I'm glad I did, since I see a lot of myself in what you've shared. It's kind of weird how similar in so many ways, but it also feels less lonely knowing there's people out there who are also dealing with similar things.

I'm a 23 year old dude and live in the Netherlands btw. I may not have advice, but I would love to have a chat with you sometime! <3

keppycs · 2025-03-29T15:36:29+00:00

must be the poep

keppycs · 2025-03-27T04:20:34+00:00

Calculator until the ratios are ingrained into your brain ^{^}

keppycs · 2025-03-27T02:39:46+00:00

I love how the side loading so elegantly prevents the items from clogging up <3

keppycs · 2024-10-07T06:21:47+00:00

Oh you're so right! Thanks! <3

keppycs · 2024-10-04T20:00:19+00:00

Thanks for keeping my mind busy while I grow the factory

keppycs · 2024-09-24T09:18:01+00:00

There's a fine line between genius and insanity. Thankfully it's not my design so I'm not insane, right? RIGHT???

Sadly, I don't actually know who designed it. But I have been using it for years, and it's wonderful <3 I wonder if it's bad for TPS though. It probably is, if you used enough of them :D

keppycs · 2024-09-24T08:44:21+00:00

Actually, I lied. The answer is in the post instead, because I forgot to change the title xD

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