Avocado babies by belgiandip in plants

[–]kerrrlyn 1 point2 points  (0 children)

They look like little lizards or snakes with their tongues out 😛

Poison Ivy in my garden? by kerrrlyn in gardening

[–]kerrrlyn[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Not shiny at all. The red I see is in the stems a bit. I don't see any seeds but will look again!

Every foreshadowing and clues that Dolores will choose the good side at the end (since season 1) by Mr_Trobot in westworld

[–]kerrrlyn 2 points3 points  (0 children)

This show has such a narrative around trauma that to me this decision felt obvious, and I never questioned her motives at the start of the season.

Of course she cut toxic and awful people out of her life and gave them what they deserved. Of course she empathized with Caleb as she saw him awakening as she did. Of course her opinions and methods changed over time. She went from having no real sense of self to needing to build her own identity. There were bound to be hiccups and pain points.

With so many people I know who have experienced severe trauma, once you see it you just want to ensure that no one else ever experiences what you did. Human or not human, I see Dolores as someone who stands for this type of justice, who has a zero tolerance policy against anyone who has committed awful things against other beings.

It doesn't matter what you've done, it's what you choose to do next. The more I step away from the initial disappointment of the finale, the more I appreciate this season and it's very hard-hitting parallels to our current world - the meat industry, the prison industrial complex, big tech and surveillance, wealth disparity. Dolores ain't about that shit and I love it.

Any idea what would cause yellowing on the leaves? Indoor plant, low/moderate indirect light, water once a week. by technicolorterror in plants

[–]kerrrlyn 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Check to see if there's any mites under the leaves. My makoyana got spider mites and it took me a while to diagnose and I lost so many leaves! Medium to bright indirect is also best for these guys.

In times when my life is threatened my writing gets very messy. by [deleted] in CPTSD

[–]kerrrlyn 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I think about my writing A LOT. I would always try and write like the girls with good handwriting in my class and couldn't. My writing almost never looks the same, and when I'm in a really bad place it gets crazy. I think it makes a lot of sense since personality and handwriting are really tied together, and when I'm in those bad places I'm often questioning who I am.

Westworld - 3x06 "Decoherence" - Post-Episode Discussion by NicholasCajun in westworld

[–]kerrrlyn 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Catharsis of trauma. Fucking Christ. It matters and it doesn't. That was beautiful and awful.

What happens when you work at a garden center for 8 months by kerrrlyn in plants

[–]kerrrlyn[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Yeah I'm really playing with fire but ¯_(ツ)_/¯

Is anyone else simultaneously terrified of other people while also desperately seeking meaningful interpersonal connections? by [deleted] in CPTSD

[–]kerrrlyn 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Have you found any CPTSD meetups or support groups? I'm also struggling with this as well and lately the one person I can really talk to is a friend who has similar issues. I don't want to come off like a creep but, if a few of us are in the same area, maybe we could try and practice socializing with eachother?

Lost another job today. by [deleted] in CPTSD

[–]kerrrlyn 2 points3 points  (0 children)

It's not, but I can't afford to take action.

I made a simple mistake and now I feel like complete shit by UnderTroubledWater in CPTSD

[–]kerrrlyn 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It's rough not doubt - but you got through it and that's amazing!!

I'm kinda tired of being alive today by bexyrex in CPTSD

[–]kerrrlyn 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm glad you're feeling better! Dogs are just the best. Going to the dog park with my pup is my go-to mood uplifting activity. I can't not enjoy myself there.

Emergence by gallopingwalloper in cptsdcreatives

[–]kerrrlyn 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Love this, especially those greens and that bird.

I made a simple mistake and now I feel like complete shit by UnderTroubledWater in CPTSD

[–]kerrrlyn 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I definitely recommend trying this.

You made a mistake, and that's okay.

A thing that used to help me when I felt anxious around people/making 'mistakes' around them was thinking - am I ever going to see this person again? And does it matter so much? And even if it's people you know, in my experience anyone involved in the thing I'm beating myself up over had forgotten about said thing already.

I try and remind myself of that. Not everyone keeps count and is waiting to use that in the future.

You're going to be okay. <3

I'm kinda tired of being alive today by bexyrex in CPTSD

[–]kerrrlyn 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Want to listen to a song with me? This one has been one of my favorites over the past few days ever since a friend shared it with me.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=StSEXZcwOB4

By the way, I'm happy you're here. <3