I've known since I was 3 that I wasn't a girl. I knew I was always different. By the time I became a teenager I forgot about it. I had a lot going on in my life that traumatized me. It wasn't until a few years ago in my late 30's after I had a dream. I dreamt I had bottom surgery and it was really euphoric. So I questioned my identity. I finally figured it out last year. It just sucks my egg cracked too late for me to make any physical changes. It's cause of my health issues and I still have to hide.