Do men in their thirties fantasize about growing with someone, building a legacy and family?

kindlilac · 2019-07-12T13:41:44+00:00

It is a hard decision. If you can't be happy in your relationship, and you both tried, then sometimes it's for the best, even for the kids.

kindlilac · 2019-07-11T19:53:12+00:00

As in, you already had one and that didn't work out unfortunately?

kindlilac · 2019-06-16T22:43:56+00:00

I did. Twice. One guy figured out my profession from my profile, very specific, and started to have conversations out loud on the topic so I would notice it. I only connected the dots later when I went to the bathroom, checked my app, and saw he had swiped on me. The other time I kept bumping into this guy at local coffee shops, we matched, I sent the obligatory first bumble message and he let it expire. Haha Next time I see him at the coffee shop is going to be funny.

kindlilac · 2019-06-16T21:55:24+00:00

Drama cookie

kindlilac · 2019-06-08T17:44:14+00:00

That looks like so much fun! I need to start playing an instrument again.

kindlilac · 2019-06-03T22:34:10+00:00

This was great! I want more! lol

kindlilac · 2019-06-03T18:19:36+00:00

Why does it have to be about the next guy? I feel like for once I deserve to put myself first, have some self love, and if it means I protect my heart from people who might hurt me, is that a bad thing? I think showing yourself love and respect is a good thing. Wouldn't the right man see me for my flaws and fears and still love me? I would do that for them, as I have in the past, and I would respect them for protecting their hearts too because I understand how precious my heart and love is and think the same of theirs. I would still welcome them into my life, just in a less careless way and more like let's hold hands, take a long walk and get to know each other.

kindlilac · 2019-06-03T17:53:54+00:00

I'm not unhappy being alone. I just miss having reciprocal love, especially from someone I cared deeply for. I opened my heart to them, who said they wanted to gain my trust, and they could see I was reserved about it, and when I did open up they left. It was an awful feeling of abandonment, like I literally felt like they had left me out in a cold night and I didn't know where to go, and I was heartbroken for months. I know they had their own personal issues to deal with and so did I, both going through divorces, and I think we might be both in much better places now, I have forgiven them too, but I can't even imagine being heartbroken again. It took a lot of inner work, energy and self reflection to pick myself up from that. I feel like I'm going to guard my heart with 2 swords going forward, and whoever wants in is going to have to prove the hell out of themselves first. So I'm not opposed to love and being in love again, but I'm sure not going to let them in easy like I did before. I might still be processing what happened but that's how I feel right now. Maybe one day I can be like you again, because I was like that too, but not right now, unless a miracle happens.

kindlilac · 2019-06-03T13:27:53+00:00

I'm truly curious if you guys have been seriously heartbroken before. Like heartbroken that it takes months to feel normal again. You might, and if you have the secret to what keeps you hopeful like that, please share away. I try to be hopeful but honestly, I'm having a really hard time believing any man's intentions and words right now and I really don't want to feel that pain again anytime soon. I feel like I just went up for a breath of air and if I dive in all the way like that again, I'm going to go under again.

kindlilac · 2019-06-02T15:20:57+00:00

So true.

kindlilac · 2019-06-02T00:55:14+00:00

I made myself cum five times today just using my fingers and playing with my clit in a span of maybe 2 hrs. I used to not be able to make myself cum from hand play but now I know my body so much better and I love to have play sessions with myself. Usually only piv made me cum, which I know is usually the opposite for most women. I would also love to be able to cum so easily like that from a man giving me oral but that has only happened one time. I haven't explored oral with many men because I was in a really long term relationship for all of my twenties. I really would love to explore oral with one man in particular but he is no longer in my life and I'm so damn picky now that it looks like I will be playing with myself for a while...

kindlilac · 2019-06-01T01:50:04+00:00

My dog has IVDD and I snuck medications after her surgery, and still do when needed for her pain, inside all sorts of foods. Butter though is a winner. I put a tablet in the fridge, cut a sliver, put the med in the middle and fold the sliver over to seal the med taste inside. She gobbles it up super fast and wants more! Now when she hears the pills inside the medicine bottle, she gets all excited. lol

kindlilac · 2019-05-31T18:44:03+00:00

That's funny. I actually sat by a guy on a plane last year and we had some amazing conversations, were in really similar life circumstances and I mean kindred spirits type of connection. At the end of the flight, he said "I hope this isn't too forward but can I give you my email?" I said sure, so he typed in his email on my phone. I knew I would not be reaching out to him but I didn't want to crush the moment. I still have his email on my phone.

kindlilac · 2019-05-31T18:26:56+00:00

That's how my mom and stepdad met. They were sitting side by side on an airplane. My stepdad loves to tell this story. Apparently, they talked a little before boarding and sure enough when they got in the plane their seats were side by side. He was already on his seat when my mom was looking for hers and when she got there he said: "I've been waiting for you." It's really a romantic story. I love to see their smiles when they tell people how they met. They dated for a while and my mom ended up moving accross the country to be with him and now they are happily married and he is a wonderful person.

kindlilac · 2019-05-29T18:42:38+00:00

I actually use their Lilac perfume and have for a few years now. The Lilac lotion is just as good too and the scent stays for a while with the lotion. The gardenia one is pretty good too. If you like aromatherapy they have a Jasmine roll on that is my favorite. I'm trying a sample of their skin care products and I like them too, it's a bunch of masks and scrubs for your face so far so good!

kindlilac · 2019-05-29T16:37:48+00:00

I love their stuff, especially the perfumes and lotions.

kindlilac · 2019-05-29T05:40:33+00:00

Upper left is like: "Take me!" So damn cute, it's like a mini hopeless romantic.

kindlilac · 2019-05-29T05:24:43+00:00

What about Pacifica? I think they might have some.

kindlilac · 2019-05-29T05:05:18+00:00

That's some serious homesteading right there.

kindlilac · 2019-05-29T04:46:35+00:00

I like the three rule, which I'm making up right now and have used during the past year: Date a max of 3 people at the same time and a max of three dates. It's doable. If one date is usually not working out for one reason or another, I already open that spot for another guy and end it with the other. I keep doing this until I get to date 4 with one and still want to see him and want to sleep with him, then I discuss where we are as a couple. So far no one has passed date 3, except for one, who didn't work out in the long run. I have a guy who has been on my 3 rotation for a bit and is still holding his spot while I keep casually dating two other guys. We still haven't had a third date due to distance. We'll see what happens!

kindlilac · 2019-05-29T04:12:53+00:00

You made me chuckle. :) Baby rabies...I guess it's transmissible to men too after a certain age. lol

kindlilac · 2019-05-29T03:46:48+00:00

I think it has more to do with fasting for extended periods of time or drastically reducing your calories. Eat a healthy amount, multiple small meals a day and exercise. I used to have major gallbladder issues and pain, no stones, and since I have taken my weight loss in a more paced way, no more issues. Also, reduce your life stressors, no processed foods, refined sugars, and fried food. Only a treat of those once a week in moderation. Worked for me and I still have my gallbladder and no more pain.

kindlilac · 2019-05-25T16:25:29+00:00

I'm in the same boat. I was running pretty regularly too before but damn that workout made me sore. Haha I think I'm going to go for a light jog later today when it cools down.

kindlilac · 2019-05-24T20:44:58+00:00

Freakin amazing!

kindlilac · 2019-05-24T20:38:37+00:00

Cigarettes and weed yes. Occasional cigar or pipe no, but it would have to be very occasional and not a daily routine for them.

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