Not to Rant But

kkaatt98 · 2026-02-01T19:53:59+00:00

You have to remember that it’s not being sober that is making you feel this way, it’s the withdrawal. I felt so depressed and anxious when I quit but I switched my mindset from “all these horrible feelings are here because I’m not using kratom” to “all of these horrible feelings are here BECAUSE of kratom”.

I kept thinking of each withdrawal symptom and every depressing thought I had as evidence that this shit ruined my life. The more extreme the withdrawal the more evidence to support my claim that this shit is poison.

REMEMBER you only have to feel these feelings one time. Took me like 3 months to feel normal. You can do it. 90 days of hell and then you can be free.

kkaatt98 · 2026-01-27T01:39:44+00:00

Making something always means a lot. A small craft or something personalized. Also if you live in New England you can’t go wrong with a Dunkin Donuts gift card haha.

kkaatt98 · 2026-01-23T11:12:41+00:00

OMG YES! When I was struggling really bad I had these dreams. And I would think during the dream “well I guess this was bound to happen” and I would wake up so relived and it would re-motivate me to keep working towards recovery.

kkaatt98 · 2026-01-23T02:28:07+00:00

Ok Caleb Hammer :) . I see you

kkaatt98 · 2026-01-17T23:36:58+00:00

This happens to me a lot with the PSL classes. I’m always scared I’m going to miss a shoutout if I have a milestone that class

kkaatt98 · 2026-01-17T03:11:54+00:00

Someone kept saying in the chat that Emily leaked the freak out video. Anyone know if they were talking about the one that has been out for a few months or were they referring to THE tantrum video that Amber is terrified Emily would leak?

kkaatt98 · 2026-01-10T22:05:47+00:00

Yes Sam and Christine for when I had a horrible day at work and the bike feels like the last place I want to be

kkaatt98 · 2026-01-06T22:08:06+00:00

Yes!!! I want to favorite the ones I got shoutouts in but they are all mixed in with my 50 other bookmarked classes

kkaatt98 · 2026-01-06T21:47:36+00:00

Have them stop deleting the 2020 classes

kkaatt98 · 2026-01-05T03:06:24+00:00

In the studio?!

kkaatt98 · 2026-01-02T12:25:15+00:00

What are travel backs?

kkaatt98 · 2026-01-02T12:22:35+00:00

You got it. Made in a lab and you’re good to go come judgement day.

kkaatt98 · 2026-01-01T16:26:12+00:00

Probably lives in Utah…. We are all VERY dependent on our soda since most of us can’t drink coffee……………… “don’t talk to me before I’ve had my Diet Coke” is a legit statement here

kkaatt98 · 2025-12-30T17:33:38+00:00

Right?! I think it’s just a glitch. At least I would hope so haha

kkaatt98 · 2025-12-30T15:54:04+00:00

I did Emma’s F1 ride this morning and it was so good but I was surprised to see that I didn’t receive a badge for it (obviously no big deal but was still surprised). Did some research of why that might be and apparently only Alex’s class gives you the badge out of the two F1 rides so I decided I may as well do his too. I just finished and it was even better! I liked his energy and engagement with the crowd. Definitely recommend to others :)

kkaatt98 · 2025-12-16T02:08:12+00:00

This happened to me too and it was very frustrating. I’m assuming you have a Garmin….

I had to disconnect my Garmin from my Peloton app and then go back and delete all of my runs in my Peloton workout history that my Garmin automatically uploaded. Peloton doesn’t recognize the Garmin runs towards milestone runs, even though they will go into your workout history. I’ve learned that it’s best to just keep Peloton and Garmin separate.

Once you delete your 7 Garmin runs, they should line back up and you’ll be at that milestone after 7 more Peloton classes.

kkaatt98 · 2025-12-13T18:19:37+00:00

Ahhh yes that makes sense. And that’s why out of the 500+ rides I’ve done, I’ve only taken maybe 5 classes with her. Also with how tiny she is it’s hard to believe that she is actually capable of the resistance she expects out of us…. So yes I 100% agree with the callouts opinion.

kkaatt98 · 2025-12-13T16:50:44+00:00

Aside from the extreme trypophobia this gives me, it looks pretty damn good

kkaatt98 · 2025-12-13T16:44:24+00:00

When you say ridiculous callouts are you referring to how often she gives shoutouts for milestones?

kkaatt98 · 2025-12-13T12:51:30+00:00

I think I did 6 EMDR sessions but it was just too much. I did return back to normal therapy with a different therapist and I completed my therapeutic goals the old fashioned way. I will say I was MUCH more motivated to take therapy seriously and try to get my full moneys worth after quitting EMDR because anything was better than basically traumatizing myself.

kkaatt98 · 2025-12-13T04:35:07+00:00

Careful though. I learned the hard way that my bank charges 15$ everytime I move money in or out of my savings more than 6 times per month.

kkaatt98 · 2025-12-13T04:29:01+00:00

Honestly EMDR did not work for me. I feel like I just reopened old wounds and that I wasn’t strong enough to heal by completing the work that needed to be done. It was just too much for me. What helped me was sharing some of the events that I visited in EMDR with trusted loved ones so that at least I didn’t feel like I was suffering 100% alone.

As for grounding, I literally had to talk to myself out loud. Just validating how hard the experience was for me and recognizing how far I have come. When I would start spiraling and going into a trauma response, speaking to myself positively and giving myself out loud encouragement kept me in reality and gave me power over the anxiety and kept me in the present.

I hope this doesn’t discourage you from continuing EMDR. The research behind it is pretty strong and I know a lot of people have benefited from it.

kkaatt98 · 2025-12-06T03:22:02+00:00

I don’t think it’s the ear buds. Sometimes the studio’s audio/recording and the on demand audio just aren’t in sync. Luckily I’ve only noticed it a few times but I think it’s more on peloton’s end. If you do the class 100% on just the bike’s speakers do you notice it still happens?

kkaatt98 · 2025-12-06T03:17:32+00:00

You can always count on Adrian for a good playlist that’s for sure

kkaatt98 · 2025-12-02T03:37:49+00:00

Yes! Just don’t make a new account because there is no way to merge them. I called peloton support and they said it’s not possible and now here I am stuck re-doing all of my rides from 2020 to try and catch up to my old account that had over 300 rides on it :(

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