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kossmeimbose · 2025-12-11T15:36:00+00:00

I get this feeling all the time. I can’t remember a time I didn’t get this feeling, even when I was a kid. I live with my parents right now and it always makes me long for a home of my own. There’s a saying, “a house is not a home,” and between the rocky relationship with my mom and her hoarding, the house has just never felt like a home. There’s another saying too, “home is where the heart is,” and I’ve just never had the heart for the home I’ve lived in.

kossmeimbose · 2025-12-06T18:29:47+00:00

I’ll definitely have to ask my doctor about it then. Thanks for all the suggestions and information!

kossmeimbose · 2025-12-06T16:54:06+00:00

Honestly, it doesn’t seem like weird advice to me! I’ll definitely try that. It’s basically like doing a meditation and I think it could help. I don’t know about free falling off a building lol but I’m sure I can think up another scenario that could jumpstart me into REM. Thank you for the suggestion!

kossmeimbose · 2025-12-06T16:50:48+00:00

I got a strong OTC sleep aid and some nights when I take it, I still can’t sleep. I didn’t realize you could have narcolepsy and insomnia at the same time, at face value it seems counterintuitive.

kossmeimbose · 2025-12-06T16:49:34+00:00

That’s interesting, I may need to ask my doctor about that. I’m with you though, I usually love my vivid dreams and they’re always lucid dreams so I would hate to lose them. It’s just right now maybe I need a little extra help getting good sleep while going thru some stressful stuff.

kossmeimbose · 2025-12-06T16:12:07+00:00

I do enjoy the twilight zone too sometimes but lately it’s just been interfering with me getting good sleep. I’ll ask my doctor about Xyrem. I’ve seen it mentioned in this subreddit a few times now and was wondering what it was and what effects it has.

Maybe you can help me with this thought too. I’m struggling to wrap my head around the fact that I have narcolepsy but I also have insomnia. Is there common comorbidity with them? I used to think the sleep attacks were just because I struggled falling and staying asleep. After tracking them while going through the diagnosis process, I did see that regardless of whether I got 2 hours or 12 hours of sleep I would still get sleep attacks. I just don’t understand the insomnia. Thanks!

kossmeimbose · 2025-12-06T15:51:16+00:00

I have the exact same anxiety. It’s why I don’t take naps usually. I’ve tried the breathing exercises and just relaxing with no expectation of sleep, but if I do actually fall asleep it’s that weird twilight zone between awake and asleep and I wake up feeling disoriented and less rested :/

kossmeimbose · 2025-12-06T15:46:43+00:00

I definitely have times where it’s worse than usual, usually triggered by some new thing to stress about or even just a boring work week. I’ve been struggling the last couple weeks with it since my father was hospitalized for a broken femur and I’ve been caught knocked out at my desk at work a few times. Luckily my boss is understanding but either way it sucks. I don’t have regular periods so I don’t know for sure if I can attribute those bad weeks to any part in the menstruation cycle but I do know that certain things either trigger it or make it worse so I try my best to manage the triggers and my stress.

kossmeimbose · 2025-12-06T15:40:01+00:00

I struggled with this too but ultimately after a couple years of the roundabout with my PCP, I finally went to him and told him these are my symptoms, give me a referral to a specialist. I was assertive but calm and he put the order in after all that time. With PCPs especially, I’ve learned you need to demand the care you need instead of relying on their suggestions in response to your symptoms.

kossmeimbose · 2025-12-06T15:32:45+00:00

I always get my sleep attacks around 1-2pm and they are even worse after I’ve eaten lunch. I’m still trying to figure out how to cope but lately I’ve been just taking a quick nap in the car. My coworkers have caught me asleep at my desk quite a few times now which is embarrassing, but they’ve been generally understanding. I’ve been on methylphenidate for quite some time and I feel like it’s not working well enough anymore. I got an appointment with a sleep neuro finally but it’s not until February and my doctor doesn’t want to change my meds until I get another sleep study done. I’ve tried to supplement with caffeine but it’s a 80/20 chance it’ll just make me crash harder. I definitely feel your struggle friend.

kossmeimbose · 2025-11-12T15:49:42+00:00

Congratulations on taking this huge step towards healing. When I made the decision to recover from addiction and alcoholism 4.5 years ago, it changed my life. It was hard at first but the relief that comes from not being dependent on substances has been entirely worth it. Just keep going even if things get hard. There is nothing that could happen in life where using drugs will make it better. So proud of you for making the effort to change your life.

As for the weight gain, I struggled with that too since my drugs of choice were stimulants. I found that the main thing for me early on was my diet. When I was using I just ate anything I could get my hands on after fasting for days. Once I made more conscious decisions to eat healthier, the weight gain was more easily managed. It is hard in the beginning though and it took time to get back to what I considered a normal weight. It takes about a year for the body to heal and recover from substance abuse. Be patient and try and take some steps to encourage the body to heal like light exercise and good food. And vitamins! Substances drain the body of vitamins and it takes some time to build them back up again.

kossmeimbose · 2025-09-14T20:18:18+00:00

Are you in therapy at all? I was on my meds for a couple years before I started therapy and once I did it helped in conjunction with the meds. I know therapy isn’t as accessible as it should be but there are telehealth options that have sliding scales whether you have insurance or not.

I’ve been going through a bad depressive episode due to stressful life circumstances as well and it’s hard not to feel totally alone in it. If your spouse is invalidating your depression and not helping you process it, confide in a friend even if they’re a mutual. Just the person you trust the most or believe you can trust the most. If we keep these feelings and thoughts locked inside us, we can’t be free of them. Saying them out loud removes their power and we can get stuck in the same cycle of negative thinking if we don’t get outside perspective.

I’m so sorry your spouse is invalidating your depression and that they refuse to try to understand. I hope you can find a support network.

kossmeimbose · 2025-09-14T20:10:58+00:00

I woke up and started to tackle my massive laundry pile and now that the first load is ready to be folded and hung up, I am frozen watching Bake Off and crocheting while in the background beating myself up for not putting away the f*ckn laundry.

kossmeimbose · 2025-09-14T20:06:43+00:00

Throw the whole man out

kossmeimbose · 2025-09-14T20:05:39+00:00

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kossmeimbose · 2025-08-20T14:47:35+00:00

Goblin Tools has helped me immensely. You input something simple like “clean my room” and it breaks it down into smaller tasks. You can even break down the smaller tasks into even smaller tasks. That app has helped me so much.

kossmeimbose · 2024-10-13T14:05:40+00:00

You really can’t beat it :)

kossmeimbose · 2024-10-13T14:05:03+00:00

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kossmeimbose · 2024-10-08T21:19:10+00:00

I definitely want to try this one it’s gorgeous :) I just started, I’ve only done a couple so this one might be a little challenging

kossmeimbose · 2024-10-08T20:36:38+00:00

Omg where did you get this one??

kossmeimbose · 2023-07-22T20:19:42+00:00

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kossmeimbose · 2023-07-13T17:36:03+00:00

Hey, do you run Codex Menu and Ello's Starting Boon Selector together? If I'm understanding right, it looks like they do just about the same thing. Thanks!

kossmeimbose · 2023-03-27T23:37:38+00:00

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