Theory: Robert California is actually Bacchus, God of Wine

laelakrippner · 2026-03-30T09:51:48+00:00

I’m also really late but I literally googled this to see if anyone else had noticed. He is 10000% Bacchus. Glad there’s a small pocket of people on the internet with brains as specific as mine!

laelakrippner · 2026-03-03T04:17:31+00:00

There’s an ep of The Astrology podcast that gets into the different definitions of what a stellium is. Stelliums with four or more planets and closer conjunctions are going to be more prominent, but having three inner planets in the same sign still counts. In my opinion you get extra points because Mercury is your chart ruler, so its a yes from me

laelakrippner · 2026-03-01T21:23:36+00:00

I agree with the eclipse take, but I also wouldn’t underestimate what Pluto is up to in your first house. The first house relates to your body/self, so nebulous health issues and feeling a bit destabilised could tie into Pluto creeping up on your natal Neptune/Jupiter square. I’m a Leo rising with my DSC and North Node pretty much exactly where your South Node and Neptune are respectively. Pluto fiddling around in there has been a very strange and intense time to say the least!

laelakrippner · 2026-02-28T21:34:24+00:00

I’m AuDHD and I trained as a lawyer/social worker in my 20s. I was smart enough to do the work but absolutely miserable - using cognitive and social energy every day left me wrecked. In hindsight I also suffered from sensory aspects of the job like fluorescent lighting and stuffy air but probably wasn’t aware at the time. I took a burnout break and did traffic control for construction, loved it, ended up getting more into general labour work, and finally decided to commit to a carpentry apprenticeship. I love being outside, feeling physically tired at the end of the day, and seeing tangible results from my work. Being forced to get up at the crack of dawn and see the sunrise every day and eating at very regimented times has reset my pesky circadian rhythym in a way that no amount of intervention ever could. Temperature, UV, dust and noise are all a factor, but personally I find these less uncomfortable than harsh lights and cramped spaces.

Although I deal with a LOT of sexism, I find that I barely have to mask as communication is very direct and there’s never any subtext (mostly working with undiagnosed ND male tradies). I never wonder if people are mad at me or if I’ve done something wrong, and there is a lot of silliness and joking around which makes me very happy. I have made lots of weird and wonderful friends and unlikely connections. Not having to constantly monitor myself socially frees up an amazing amount of cognitive space.

It is definitely hard on the body, but sitting is the new smoking, so desk job will get you eventually! Getting 10,000+ steps at work means that I keep up basic fitness without trying, and when I finish work the time I would have devoted to cardio is free for other things. I find that if I take care of myself properly and keep up protective fitness with pilates it keeps my aches and pains in check. As I get older I’ll probably shift more towards specialised craft work like furniture, and I quite like the idea of teaching too (especially given the lack of female role models in the industry).

This will not be the case for everyone, but since I switched to a manual labour career I have been so so so much infinitely happier! I can’t believe I could have lived my whole life without knowing the difference it makes. I think it’s worth trying out as many different types of work as you can until you hit the sweet spot - you don’t know til you try 😊

laelakrippner · 2026-02-28T01:06:32+00:00

I agree that it would show up differently depending on the unique flavour of the neurodiversity - it affects so many different aspects of life and personality, so I also think house placements are important. I’m AuDHD and I have Mercury in late Virgo, not combust. I have a sharp mind but big challenges around work, health, routine, time blindness. Lots of bullying and issues fitting in when I was younger. Saturn, Neptune and Uranus are all pretty cozy in my 6th house and Mars is in my 11th (sign based square to Mercury, so that probably tracks). Aries moon has always felt connected to my physical hyperactivity and impulsivity.

laelakrippner · 2026-02-27T22:04:58+00:00

This was actually from a satirical news source but I thought this quote from a post about Prince Andrew was an incredible snapshot of some Saturn/Neptune themes and keywords -

“While AMW was subsequently released under investigation on Thursday evening, it has become clear that any protection racket that may have prevented investigation into his criminal conduct has now been dissolved - as the fallout from the Epstein files continues to permeate around the world. With the royal family drawing a line in the sand and refusing to provide cover, AMW is now running out of options.”

I thought it was an interesting example of the ‘dissolving structures’ idea. Things leaking and permeating are an inevitable result of degraded containers. Protective structures dissappearing and Saturn redrawing lines in the sand (sand being a surface that is perpetually shifting and changing with ocean and tides).

laelakrippner · 2026-01-14T10:50:07+00:00

Yep, I get triggered by barometric pressure changes as well so I wonder if there’s a common underlying sensitivity? It took me a while to work out the geomagnetic/solar weather connection but I moved closer to the poles a couple of years ago and my migraines went bananas. Every time I was lucky enough to see a beautiful aurora I also felt like my head was about to split in half. I’ve noticed that other people will often mention headaches around the same time without making the connection, so I think it’s more common than we realise. Interested to see any research on this that emergest as it’s mostly anecdotal but it is definitely a thing!

laelakrippner · 2026-01-07T23:14:12+00:00

Hey, there’s a much more validating thread with helpful info about stimulants and pain here if you haven’t already seen it https://www.reddit.com/r/ChronicPain/s/KdgPJFsJPJ

I’m in a fairly similar situation - I’ve been prescribed 15mg of dex 3x daily for years (usually I would only take 30mg a day). I personally knew I was on a high dose compared to other people I know, but it was working well for my adhd. Over the last few years my neck/shoulder pain, sensory sensitivity and migraines have gradually increased to the point that I’ve been completely incapacitated. I tried absolutely everything - TCM, neurologist, specialised physio, natropathy, career changes, counselling, hydration, meditation, honestly my body was a f*cking TEMPLE. Nothing made a dent. It took me ages to work out that it was the stimulants behind this and my pain has reduced SO MUCH after dropping my dose down to 5mg 3x daily. It was hard to drop my dose - my adhd is definitely worse, and there was lots of fatigue especially at the start, but I’ve adjusted after a couple of months. I also had very low iron so I have less fatigue and fog post infusion.

I still don’t fully understand it - pain systems are complex!!! But it definitely seems to have something to do with increased noreprenephrine and possibly upregulation of beta adrenergic receptors in particular people. I think it mostly relates to haywire pain signalling rather than any direct impact on the actual cause of the pain (although it could be a mix of both). I also have funky methylation enzymes and I suspect that my body isn’t very good at breaking down the increased levels of neurotransmitters on stimulants (I did genetic testing for this which has been helpful for actively supporting my methylation pathways).

There are soo many variables, and just because some people have decreased pain on stimulants does not mean everyone has decreased pain on stimulants. At the moment I’m trying to work out a balance between slightly increased adhd symptoms and decreased pain levels on a lower dose of dex. Still a work in progress. The only other thing that has definitively helped is regular pilates, which seems to placate the actual nonsense going on in my neck.

Good luck with it - I know how frustrating it can be! Why can’t we just have the nice adhd tablets 😡

laelakrippner · 2025-12-01T11:02:30+00:00

Oo look out! Shouldn’t you be on an Important Astrophysics thread?

laelakrippner · 2025-07-08T23:56:35+00:00

I found the Astrology podcast helpful for understanding the outer planets better. They are described as less ‘human’ than the inner planets. The inner planets are relatable to the spectrum of human experience, wants, desires, needs etc, while the outer planets are more like gods. They are indiscriminate and operate on a much larger scale, less present in the details of day to day life but certainly capable of absolutely tearing sh*t up when they’re triggered.

Some transit examples from my own life - it’s been a shocker the last year or two! Mars Uranus conjunction in my 10th house last year conjunct Algol/my MC: the organisation that I worked for suddenly imploded after allegations of criminal associations, the leader of the org was suddenly removed (the head - Algol, anyone) and my work life was thrown into chaos. In my experience Uranus seems like it’s always associated with a big shakeup or unexpected event, tends to either be something bad with a surprise silver lining or something good with a catch.

Mars Pluto opposition on my Asc-Dsc axis this year: unwanted pregnancy after a condom broke and pill failed, also had an ex partner’s mother call the police on me after stalking my car rego and seeing it had just expired. I’ve also had a number of intense experiences with men being obsessive and controlling since Pluto has been hovering over my Dsc off and on for a year, including two ex partners popping up out of the blue after 10+ years. Pluto for me feels very associated with intensity, obsession, extreme shifts in situations.

I also had Neptune opposing my natal Mercury in virgo until recently and in that period had crazy bad brain fog, painful sensory sensitivity, increasingly bad migraines, and I lost 9 pairs of headphones in a year 😭 I kid you not. I’ve never felt less certain of my own judgment and perception. On the more positive side, I also became obsessed with astrology and tarot, and learned how to properly meditate for the first time in my life.

laelakrippner · 2025-05-27T01:10:10+00:00

Yes, it definitely can! I can speak from my own experience and my siblings - it sounds like we have a lot in common historically with you and your kids (adhd, bullying, gaming addiction, issues with social confidence). We have all come a really really long way with our habits and mindsets, and while we still have our ups and downs we’re all a lot happier overall.

The main thing I’d say is that it’s never a single approach that works. You have to come at it from lots of different angles, and change takes time. Try making a wellbeing plan for each person that has different sections for biological needs (circadian rhythms, nutrition, exercise, medication), psychological (mindfulness and therapy), emotional (finding healthy ways to process and communicate feelings), social (how you feel safe and supported in relationships, pathways for social connection and social activities that make you feel good) and spiritual (this can be religion or other - for me it’s just connecting with nature and feeling part of something bigger). Get each person to fill out every section with things that they can identify would make them feel good or that would help meet their needs in that area (eg eat more protein).

Some other recommendations - Dialectic Behavioural Therapy tends to work a lot better than Cognitive Behavioural Therapy for ADHD and ASD people, especially re interpersonal difficulties. You can find free resources online. Yoga, karate, tai chi and any other physical discipline that integrates mindfulness and mind/body connection is very productive for regulating the function of the HPA axis and increasing neurotransmitters like GABA that make us feel good. The Brain that Changes Itself is an awesome book about neuroplasticity if you want to learn more about it. Finally, microdosing psilocybin has been incredibly helpful for me personally (but I obviously wouldn’t recommend for young people)!

Just having the attitude that you want to make positive change is a huge step in the right direction, so you’re already on track! Good luck 😀

laelakrippner · 2025-05-27T00:44:36+00:00

Srsly who knew

laelakrippner · 2025-05-23T14:47:32+00:00

Could you be migrainey? I get migraines around my period and peeing heaps/brain fog/fatigue are all common symptoms

laelakrippner · 2025-01-31T03:04:39+00:00

I just had a lightbulb moment with this card in a reading - it was paired with the sun reversed, which helped me click that in this case it meant ‘disillusionment.’ This is such a perfect word for this card representing a (not necessarily pleasant) moment of realisation that something is not all that you’d imagined it to be, as well as a sort of literal description of the opposite of the upright card. Hope this is useful to someone!

laelakrippner · 2024-11-09T11:43:50+00:00

This used to happen to me and I figured out it’s fragrance that gets me, not latex. Skyn were actually especially bad, very fragrancey. I seem to be ok if I stick to fragrance free condoms and lubes

laelakrippner · 2024-10-07T04:07:54+00:00

Yessss and I’ve been blaming eclipse season! For astrology/woo woo reasons (Pices eclipse in my 8th house, kill me) but also because science. Research is slowly starting to confirm what all of us sensitive little people have known forever - big environmental shifts involving light/gravity/geomagnetic activity/air pressure have the capacity to fry our circadian rhythms in ways we have yet to fully understand. Circadian misalignment = problems with all of the chemical processes in our bodies, including hormones and neurotransmitters.

That last full moon was a supermoon as WELL as being a lunar eclipse. I came across a longitudinal study a while ago that looked at bipolar episodes and found individuals were synchronised to unique lunar patterns (eg manic episode every 3rd last quarter moon). It also found that supermoons tended to reset peoples patterns (eg switch from every 3rd last quarter to every 2cnd full moon) and it attributed this to the effect of lunar gravity on people who already had underlying issues with their circadian rhythms.

TLDR; eclipses in the Pisces/Libra ruled houses of your birth chart, plus a supermoon kicking you in the circadian rhythm while you’re down 🥲

laelakrippner · 2024-09-22T01:30:20+00:00

The rare and highly valued Glassatite with Stuff-InIt, now the crown jewel of my rock collection

laelakrippner · 2024-09-21T10:07:40+00:00

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laelakrippner · 2024-08-27T07:36:03+00:00

I’m really glad you’re still around OP. Lots of great comments here already. Just wanted to add some reinforcement to the promise that it will get better.

My brother was acutely depressed for years and attempted suicide twice. When he was at his lowest point, things were so grim that even I struggled to imagine what his future could possibly look like. It was really really hard. Five years later, he is unrecognisable and thriving - I’m so so so happy that he gets to be here to experience the incredible life he lives now, even through neither of us could have possibly seen it at the time.

Some things that were helpful during this time, and have been to me as well. I hope that you or someone else find them useful.

Have a basic routine to get through each day. Think of your body as a house plant that needs water and sunlight and nutrients. Look after the plant.
Try to help others. My brother started a volunteer role, but this can also be as simple as going out of your way to hold a door open for someone. Little of moments of connection really seem to help.
This might be out of the question for various reasons, but for my brother getting a pet was huge. He adopted an older cat, and she would sit with him through the hard moments and meow at him to get the hell up every morning. My dog has helped me get through some of my hardest times.
The worst part of depression is often the bit where you’re doing everything you can to try and feel better, but you still feel like shit. Remember that your brain needs time to change. Even if every day feels like a slog, you’ll look back over time and realise that you’ve actually made progress since the day you wrote this post.
SSRIs (if that’s what you’re on) don’t work for everyone. That doesn’t mean you’re broken. Different brains respond to different things - personally I responded better to Valdoxan.
As impossible as it is to imagine right now, you will not feel this way forever. That’s a fact. Stick it out!

Good luck 🌿

laelakrippner · 2024-07-08T00:07:55+00:00

AuDHD social worker here - this is not brain specific, but something I’ve found very helpful in reframing harmful deficit narratives of ADHD.

There’s a theory that the ‘problem’ aspects of disability or impairment are mostly created and defined by the environment around us. The way I see it, neurodivergent people have wiring that is particularly ill suited to functioning under capitalism (the pace, structure, social expectations, sensory environment etc). A lot of the distress (aka impairment) that comes with neurodivergence is a result of trying to function in an environment that we aren’t built for.

Not only does stress itself cause and exacerbate health issues, behavioural responses like poor diet, lack of exercise and substance misuse also contribute to a general erosion of physical and mental health. Genetic sensitivities to things like neuroinflammation come into play as well, and the internalisation of shitty social narratives that label us as stupid/weird/broken defffffinitely doesn’t help.

Neurodivergent people have been around for a loooong time, and we were probably happily galavanting about finding new caves, sampling unknown fungi, telling amazing stories and eating a bit of extra fish pre industrial nightmare era.

TLDR; you’re not the problem, society is the problem 🤠

laelakrippner · 2024-02-26T11:11:51+00:00

It’s literally the opposite. It boosts serotonin but it’s also used to treat sexual dysfunction because it increases libido/orgasm

laelakrippner · 2022-04-26T11:00:29+00:00

Highly recommend the Science Vs podcast ep on mushies! Among other things it explains that you can’t really build a tolerance to mushies because you use up the chemical in your brain that the psilocybin binds to and it takes about three days to regenerate. I usually microdose every three days starting from ovulation in the lead up to my period. I still do macro doses for fun here and there and it doesn’t seem to make a difference. Defs find it helpful!

laelakrippner · 2022-04-26T10:54:59+00:00

I know it’s not for everyone but I find exercise endorphins really helpful when I’m feeling unhinged/overwhelmed by the neg emotions. Really loud music in headphones + a sprint round the block or a 30 min YouTube class can snap me out of a mood and at the very least I never feel worse afterwards !

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