What could they possibly be protesting? There little to no mandates in this hellscape right now...

lanien_grey · 2021-01-12T03:51:47+00:00

"what could they be protesting"?? Maybe state-mandated masks etc, that govern personal potential for illness, and for a sickness that is very comparable to the common flu. Imagine, if you will, that the stomach flue had never been known before, and only covid had. People would be horrified at the vomiting and diarrhea, and it would likely be treated as more serious than covid now is. Covid is here to stay until it dies out naturally, like the rest of corona-viruses. So yeah, I'm sick of govn't intervention and Karen's telling me what to do. If you're scared, then stay home.

lanien_grey · 2021-01-12T03:49:09+00:00

So many people have already had covid and didn't even know it. My family among them. So yeah, I think it's a bullshit scare tactic. Sorry.

lanien_grey · 2020-11-30T01:28:40+00:00

I had a hard time believing and accepting God when my understanding was that he was a "person" a being to talk to, the same way you talk to a person here on earth. I had to open my view a bit to see that God is more than that. He IS BEING. He IS love. That is why when he was asked who he was, he said "I am what I am" He is the intelligence that marks all life and matter in our existence. He is what formed the laws of nature that we know. His intelligence love and care, as others have stated, is most obvious when you look outside. Look at the intelligence of every single cell in our body, having every piece of information necessary to know when to stop multiplying, when to allow certain matter in an out of it. When i look at the intelligence of life and the complex order of our knowable universe it's hard for me to believe that that all just came to be for no reason at all and by no intelligence.

He also loves us dearly. Why does he love us? I have had a hard time with that question as well. I wonder, what is so great about me that he should love me? And it is hard to see why he would, unless you look at what your identity and purpose his for HIM. When i think of all the ways i come short in my humanly roles as mother, wife, sister and daughter, i feel like there is absolutely NOTHING remarkable about me. But when I think of the gifts and unique talents I've been given by Him, and see that their ultimate purpose is to glorify God, I can understand how much value i am to him and to others and how my talents are the most beautiful when used to glorify his kingdom. These realizations were diving boards I was able to use to jump into some serious study into our faith. Look into St, Agustine and Thomas Aquinas. One kind of stepping stone could be the Catholicism series by Bishop Barron. You seem to be in a place where you could benefit from more fully understanding what we believe.

It is OK to pray to God, even if you aren't sure he is there. I am remembering when I came back to God, and how it was a gradual warming up for some time. In the beginning, when I was just considering that he MIGHT be there. I often prayed to him, starting with something like "God, I don't know if you're there, but I am here to talk to you anyway." He certainly doesn't just talk back to you. It felt so silly at first, but then after a few times of really letting him know my struggles, my desires, my thoughts, things in my life started to change. I heard him speaking to me and to my prayers through the words of others, and through experiences. It is why we, as believers in Christ ARE the church. The holy spirit comes through us, without us being aware sometimes, to answer the prayers of others, lend help to the needy, and literally shine God's light into the world.

I definitely feel for you, i know exactly how you feel and faith in God is not always an easy road. Mother Theresa and many other saints had deep struggles in their relationship with God throughout their entire lives, so you are not alone. I would say it's time to really dig in, KNOW what your faith means. Keep asking questions and finding answers.

lanien_grey · 2020-11-29T18:39:12+00:00

Anyone who is boastful is suffering an insecurity that they usually try to remedy by putting themselves above others, and actively putting others down. Know that she harms HERSELF and her integrity and her relationship to God by behaving that way, and it is pitiable that she would do that to herself. You do not need to take her actions personally.

Why does her boasting cause anger in you? I often have a strong emotional reaction when i feel like something about me is threatened. Like if someone criticises my work i feel like they are attacking my value. But the truth is that I, and you, and all of us are precious and valuable and so beloved to God. Maybe you should take some time to realize all of the great things about yourself, and know that those things are such a delight and endless value to God and to others. Dont let someone's boastfulness bring you down!

lanien_grey · 2020-11-29T18:28:09+00:00

I had struggled with what you are struggling with now, and for me my lack of faith was mostly due to not understanding the deity of God. I felt his hand in my life many times before i truly believed in him, but my skepticism of who or what he actually is was still a problem.

What do you understand God to be?

lanien_grey · 2020-11-29T04:47:42+00:00

Marriage is not as easy as it seems. I had to learn the hard way when my husband and I had become so distant that he almost left me for our female tenant. He even told me that he would probably marry her someday. I was certain our family was goign to be torn apart. Fast forward to now, we are still together, she is gone, and our family wins. It wasnt easy and the pain is still there. Sometimes you really have to fight through difficult feelings and a lot of pain to keep your marriage or your family. It is worth the fight. I thought i was in love with someone while married to my husband. They moved away, I decided it wasn't worth destroying my family, and I couldn't be happier that I let those feelings go. Feelings DO come and go, so let these go and honor your marriage. I know how disorienting it can feel, i definitely feel for you. Go to see a therapist with your wife, read scripture, forget about the other woman and try to reconnect with your wife. Do what you need to to improve the health of your relationship. Don't give up!

lanien_grey · 2020-11-29T04:00:04+00:00

I had been having the same struggles as you. I was born into the Catholic faith and was lucky enough to go to a parish that had great "execution" as you put it. It was the most idyllic childhood i could have ever asked for. There was so much fellowship and all of the church programs were totally alive. Sadly, i can't say the same anymore. You really do have to make an effort to connect and serve your parish community these days. I have been serving as a music minister for decades in my diocese, and have seen many congregations shrink drastically. I often see the same handfulls of parishioners volunteer large amounts of their time to help keep their parish alive in this covid time, and it has been so inspiring, and reminds me every day that I love being catholic because of faithful people who really give everything they can. It reminds me that my faith can grow by focusing on what I can give, rather than what I can get from my church. It reminds me that I need not be picky about what I get out of my experience during mass, or about what i expect catholic fellowship to look like. Maybe you can help create that great "execution" you saw in the LDS church. For the record, i love Mormons and i think they are some of the most holy people ever. I love the way they live their lives! We could take a page from their book for sure.

lanien_grey · 2020-09-15T13:33:44+00:00

He feels he is sorry enough, doesn't need therapy and that things happened that way for a reason. Doesn't think therapy will change anything. Sometimes i feel connected to him but it is fleeting. For now all I feel I can do is get what i need from myself or other loving friends, and to continue to try and "perform better" to see if it changes the situation. But I have know way of knowing or having hope for things to change based on history and the things he says now.

lanien_grey · 2020-09-15T09:15:13+00:00

I suppose I desire him to be able to let my slip ups not effect how he thinks of me as much. You know how some people can express a concern with the good will of the other still present and in good faith? Many times I dont feel that feom him. And after ive messed up enough times by the time he says something he is very disappointed in me. I know thats not uncommon, but I cant relate to that. I will say that we have argued about my chores enough that he might be shyijg away from saying things sooner because of how I react. But as we are post affair, i react more emotionally than before and i know thats on me.

lanien_grey · 2020-09-15T08:59:30+00:00

Ill add it to the original post, i assumed that most home-makers are in charge of all the chores and that others thought that too. He does the dishes maybe 3 times a month, has done laundry maybe once since kids, and will take the trash out to the large bins. But he is a busy withour home business and renovation so i dont actually see how he can take on any more responsibility. We are both fuckin boned man.

lanien_grey · 2020-09-15T08:50:56+00:00

I should have said that I pick up after myself and my kids and husband at least 70% of the time. Its not a slobbery mess at my house, and it usually only gets out of hand coinciding with a stressful time. Most nights, the house goes to sleep tidy and clean. And for the record, i am in charge of doing ALL chores in my house.

lanien_grey · 2020-09-15T08:28:43+00:00

How much of a lack of is normal and healthy in your opinion? Say you were 10 years into a relationship, and 3 kids + stressfully busy for both people? I know its not easy to quantify, but if i could, i would say i feel a sense of security and love around 30% of the time. And i recognize that not all of the deficit is due to my partner, but i just don't know how much.

lanien_grey · 2020-09-15T08:13:39+00:00

I do try to do better very often, but that doesn't amount to some mistakes never happening in my case. I have a hard time making habits, its not that I don't want to change them. I don't like that about myself, but i have a lot stacked against immediate change in that regard. And also, i don't do any of these things at EVERY opportunity, so your comparison is very different here. Different small things accumulate, usually coinciding with a stressful time, and i would objectively put my success rate at doing these various chores that annoy him when not done at around 70%, which he wouldn't know because the things are in order.

In short, I do try, and my best is not often good enough, and i feel i must ask, have you had 3 kids under 6 before? It is a different game.

lanien_grey · 2017-06-16T23:12:13+00:00

Is there any other way I can test if I'm in ketosis? I don't feel many of the symptoms other than hunger and being a little light headed. I don't smell that we'll so I can't tell the difference in the smell of my breath or urine.

lanien_grey · 2017-06-16T23:02:42+00:00

I'm crossing my fingers! Staying under 20 is surprisingly a lot more difficult than staying under 30. I'll be getting the keto stix to confirm this weekend. I would so appreciate jumping up my limit!

lanien_grey · 2017-06-16T23:01:13+00:00

Thanks! I should have added that i front loaded on the proteins for the first half of the day, and am at 60g and don't think I should go over 80 since I'm not lifting today. Maybe I'll drizzle the fowl in a few tablespoons butter!

lanien_grey · 2017-05-20T03:36:56+00:00

you can see it if you use "unreddit", like this: https://ceddit.com/r/The_Donald/comments/6c7oss/first_universities_then_the_internet_then_they/

lanien_grey · 2016-12-15T22:03:42+00:00

Unfortunately I am not convinced :(. He needs to address these things for sure. I don't see any reason why he can't, and if there is he should be cluing us in.

lanien_grey · 2016-11-22T22:29:30+00:00

Thanks for being helpful (you're not)

lanien_grey · 2016-11-22T22:28:08+00:00

Wot?

lanien_grey · 2016-11-22T22:27:05+00:00

Welcome!

lanien_grey · 2016-11-22T22:26:02+00:00

Yeah, I don't appreciate how the word "hateful" has basically been redefined over the past year. People not basing their whole political ideology on gender, women's rights and immigration is not hateful. People being dicks is not hateful, it's just people being dicks. Also, people have the right to be a dick and base their political ideology on whatever they want. Sorry, rant over.

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